CATCHER in the RYE

2012

2012-01-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

it's been 2 years since i updated this blog.
it's been a really long is not?..been busy with life
what to write after 2 years of being away from it.
so many things had happened in my life,
some of it happy moments and some of it sad moments.
1st gonna write the happy moments and for the sad moments
may be gonna write it..not sure yet.
okay i'll start with what had happened in 2011.

at the end of january 2011 my friends and i finally did our diving license. guess what we did it at semporna sabah. it was one of the most best experience in my life. so we did our open water and nat geo diver license. than after that we did dive at sipadan island, mataking island, sibuan island and timba2. well words can't describe my feeling to have dive at those beautiful islands. personally diving give me the serenity that i can't have in kuala lumpur.

wow

2010-03-10T05:06:00.002+08:00

hahaha..it's been 2 years since i write anything in this blog..:(
there's a lot of things i wanna write but i just don't have the mood to type this past 2 years.

hmmm... so what i gonna write today? not much......

writing bout something that made me pissed off,

well that's always the theme here in my blog..hehehehe.

well today i'm kinda pissed off coz today is the day i really give up on having a gf, give up on the most ridiculous thing on this world.

why you may ask me? the reason is that i don't think i can find a right girl for myself.
the person that i always like, is always the person that i can never have.

don't know why it always happened to me. may be i'm not lucky in that department. may be i'm to messed up...to be someone bf..:(

i'm not broken hearted, believe me..to have your heart be broken you need to be in love.

but i have had lost those feeling back in 2002. never let myself fall in love again.

so now i don't fall in love just liking somebody only. may be that's my flaw but to fall in love is to open my heart to the risk of getting hurt. don't wanna be hurt..coz it's really sucks.

back to the main topic..i just give up...i think it is better for me. right now just follow the flow..hehehe
may be one day in the future GOD will give me a chance but i don't bet on it.

peace!

3 hours 2 go!

2008-11-19T00:51:00.002+08:00

in 3 hours time i'm gonna be able to watch ABs vs munster match.
hope it gonna be one hell of a match.
gotta stay awake for to wait for that match!
since i've been able to watch rugby online it's been heaven to me.

come ABs! don't let me down!
this weekend there's a lot more matches to bee seen.
what a wonderful i have now!

ok adios,
my next post gonna be the report of the game tonite!

rugby matches + petrol price

2008-11-18T01:17:00.003+08:00

for the past 2 weeks i managed to watched 8 match of rugby test matches.
although it didn't even show at astro.
stupid astro.
but lucky me i did join myp2p for live sports.
it is a place where you can watch movies, tv and sport online.
it is a place which tell you where you can watch streaming live sports.
i really fall in love with this website.
now i can watch rugby and boxing.
2 of the sport which kinda out of place here in malaysia.

oh yeah just heard in the news that tomorrow petrol price in malaysia going down again.
the new price is rm2.
they should put it down to rm1.92 just like last time.

hope by Wednesday they will be few people that gonna stream All Blacks vs munster match.
really wanna see weepu as ABs captain.
rugby forever.

Elven Blood

2008-11-13T14:45:00.002+08:00

elven blood is just a rpg game that i play at facebook.
i's introduced to it by sodom @ wan idris.
after that i's hook on it until now.
almost all the time i'm in front of the computer playing this game.
hahaha..i even spend around usd 50 to buy blessing.
damn man i really addicted to this game.
although it's a simple kinda game it just give me a thrill to play it.

right now i'm at the level of 83.
my fighting stat is 187 wins and 146 loses.
right now i'm try to gather a lot of heal spell.
hahaha..hope i can better my stats in the future.

feeling unsure.

2008-11-12T14:49:00.004+08:00

right now i really unsure what is the next step in my life.
there's few projects which can insure my life for few years yet i really need the funding.
i really need to discuss it with my dad and hope he can help me to search for fund.

the 1st problem how can i tel himl about it? how should i discuss it with him.
since i's little i never ask him for anything that big.
right i'm calculating how on earth i'm gonna say to him.
which projects should i say 1st to him.
how much that i'm gonna ask him personally to fund for starting my company.
hope he can loan me around rm30000.00
of i've to pay him interest plus the loan itself.

i've to to do the paperwork to convince my dad on my projects.

the other thing that i'm not sure is my love life.
should i wait for the girl i've been in love for so long or should i move on other girl.
argh!!! what to do! i really lost on both topics.

hope i resolve one of it before the end of this month.

wanting something that can't be yours is always a human thing.

even there's no hope for me to have her..i'll always have her in my heart.
my love for is the real thing.

the matter of the heart is much more consuming my mind than the matter of business.
that's not right..right?
hehehe...come on skin grow up!
settle the business 1st than you can settle matter of the heart.

need to move on in life, don't want to fall behind again.
need to step up!
confront life head on!

skin life!

point of impact

2008-11-12T00:28:00.002+08:00

the title above is a reference to one of the book that i manage to finish reading this month.
the book is about gunnery Sargent bob lee swagger.
a legendary sniper in nam.
the book tell the stories of his life in vietnam and also after that.
after he retired from the marine and live a solitary life. he was coerced by ramdyne a cia backs ops group to to help them in catching a sniper who wanted to kill the president.
actually they just wanna used him as a scape goat for killing the archbishop of salvador.

for me stephen hunter really capture the essence of art of sniping.
for me i'm a fan of snipers.
to me they are epitome of the best of the best.
"One shot One kill"
for most out there they think sniper is a dirty job.
but to me it is a honor job to be done.
they did not kill sensibly...they kill when they were command to do it.
usely their target is the enemy not the civilians.
when use properly sniper can minimize lost on your side and also can demoralized the enemy.
also sniper can be used to kill a specific target.

it was my dream to be a sniper.
but it is just a dream.
to be a sniper means to be an elite of all sharpshooter.
the ability to conceal oneself from nothing else but the target.

fall in love with snipers since the 1st day that i heard about the shot through scope.
done by mr carlos hathcock of the marine in nam.

carlos hathcock is one of the legend in sniping.
there's a lot more out there sniper that are more legendary than him.

in the US, marine sniper and army ranger sniper are the best.

"One Shot One Kill"

hari raye dh dekat

2008-09-26T18:33:00.002+08:00

hahahaha...what a title,
hm...this year again i didn't fast for 7 days already.
ish2 a bad habit...hahahaha.
hope next year i can finish ramadhan with full 30 days.
this hari raye, i didn't do much shopping cause i already spend my money on 2 timberland shoes before ramadhan.
so this hari raye just use my money for ang pow for my sibling and my cousins.

really hope after hari raye all of my projects can run smoothly.
already pay up my zakat.
this year it went up to rm5.20 frm rm4.20 last year.
haven't see my current gf for 3 month already.
still missing a girl faraway frm malaysia.

hope after raye my life gonna be much better than now.
hope i can change few aspect of my life.
hope to save some money so i can goes to ireland and confess my love...hahahaha.

ok tht's all folks for this post!

ramadhan

2008-09-09T10:05:00.002+08:00

this is my 1st post for the month of September and Ramadhan.
anyway until 2day alhamdulillah i didn't miss a single day.
hope this year i can fulfill my desire of to fast for 30 days.
meaning to complete the month of ramadhan without missing a single day.
what do..the last time fast for 30 day was back when i'm 12 years old...hahahaha.

oh yeah about a week from merdeka, i went to northern part of malaysia.
i went with uncle man, abg hisyam n kenu.
1st we went to perlis to go back to kenu's hometown.
the next day we made our way to dannok or sadao...hahahaha.

after we check in the hotel, the pimp managed to kinda force me to take a girl...hehehehehe.
i did picked up a girl..her name is ah som.
her rate rm250..which quite expensive..but she stay with me from 4pm until 9am the next day.
hahahahaha.
ah som..she's cute, funny n really knows how to please a man.
she treat as if i'm her man.
ok ler... next time i'm gonna rite my whole experience with ah som.

the face that melt my heart

2008-08-19T12:49:00.005+08:00

this is the face that i long for in my dreams... :)
her name is jessica gomes.
she's a model.
this a photo shoot for sport illustrated swimsuit edition 2008
she's half Portuguese and half Chinese.
she grow up in Australia.

for me her face is just an exotic face.
mix of latin and asian face.
also she has a killer body.
a superb combination.
wish she's my girl.... :)

adios guys.
enjoy the pics.

Matta Band - “Ketahuan”

2008-08-17T08:51:00.005+08:00

this is the song that i love to hear when i'm stone

just love this song...for it has a catchy feeling about it.

stoner brother for life!

“Ketahuan” - Matta Band

Dari awal aku tak pernah percaya
kata-katamu karena aku hanya melihat
semua dari parasmu

Terlanjur kau bilang padaku
Kau tak akan pernah selingkuh
Ternyata dirimu bermain dibelakangku

Saat ku melihatmu kau sedang bermesraan
Dengan seorang yang ku kenal

Oo..Oo.. Kamu ketahuan pacaran lagi
Dengan dirinya teman baikku
Oo..Oo.. Kamu ketahuan pacaran lagi
Dengan dirinya teman baikku

Tapi tak mengapa aku tak heran
Karena dirimu cinta sesaatku

body clock

2008-08-14T01:29:00.002+08:00

hm...right now my body clock is kinda mixed up.

i'll go to sleep around 4pm or 5pm until 12am.
after that i stay awake for the rest of the day until 4pm or 5pm.

it has been kinda weird..hehehehe.
that's my routine for the past 2 month.
i'd to get all my job done before 4pm or 5pm.

if not i'd to resume it very early in the morning ...hehehe.
how do i manage to get myself into this situation..is still a mystery to me..hehehe.

can i ever be normal again..hmm..not sure about it.
i kinda like the way my body clock work right now..hehehehe.
hope gonna stay like this for few month..hehehe

ramadhan is just around the corner...mati ler aku pose tk ganti lg!!!

ok tht's all for 2day...adios!!!!!

sleepy head

2008-08-12T07:21:00.002+08:00

yesterday i was so sleepy.
i slept around 8am and around 10am lali already woke me up to go to kg baru.
i really am sleepy.
after we had few drinks at kg baru adham ask me to help and fecth his parents at
ummc.
after i fetch them and send them back to ttdi jaya, i had to go back to kg baru.

after that all of us went to ampang to meet with this ayahanda.
to settle our case with wadi the legend and fadli the mangkuks.

around 2pm i been ask to help this abg long to check out from his hotel so i went back to kg baru.
than we all goes to lali's palm spring kondo.

finally i manage to get my sleep around 8pm.
i slept until 2am ...hehehehe.

hope today not gonna be likes yesterday..,.hehehehe

texas hold 'em

2008-08-07T14:56:00.002+08:00

right now most of the guys in my office already being swept by the fever of texas hold em.
we've been playing in our facebook account.
right now adham is leading the pack!
i at number 2. kenu @ nuar at number 3.
with a lot more practice i think we can become champs in few month...hahahaha.

love this game, but if there.stupid person on your table than you gonna regret it.
see even right now nuar still playing the game.
may b later i'll join in.
right now i wanna download some indonesian movies!

i think also adham playing it some more.
this game is luck and also tactical.
you can win big and lost big.
hehehehe.

hope can be better at it...hehehehe.

adios!!!

Psychos!!!!!

2008-08-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

few of my friends had problem with psychos girlfriends.
lucky me i didn't face that kind of problem anymore.
i just cannot understand why their girlfriend become psychos.
didn't they realized that by become psychos they pushed
their boyfriend further away from them.

love is something that mustn't be force on others.
but being psychos make you feel that you are force by other party to love.
that's pure bullshit!!!

why is you really love a person you want to control and manipulate your own partner.
even emotionally blackmail your partner.
that's what few of my friend had to face.

they fight for even smallest of things.
if i were my friend i already break with my girlfriend.
my reason is simple..if you cannot give and take even the smallest of things..you re nothing to me.

another thing that i hate about this particular girlfriend of my friend is that she pretend that she's the one who hold their relationship with higher regards.
although she's also main kayu 3.
for me is all bullshit!!

at the same time she always made things hard for her bf.
as if my friend didn't do enough for their relationship.
fuck you girl!
i know what you did! don't ever pretend in front of me!
you are just full bullshit!!!!!!

lucky for you i'm not a busy body...don't like to mess with other people relationship.
but as long as you keep on pretending..may be some day i'll squeal on you.

you can pretend that you are innocent when i'm not around..but you alway did it in front of me.
it make me sick!
i think one day i gonna spy on you and shows your video to the world!!!

fuck i really hate psychos girls!!!!!

indonesian movies

2008-08-03T21:45:00.002+08:00

right now i'm kinda into indonesians movies.
hehehehe...already find few website that allowed me to download it.

for me indonesian movies it's much more better than their malaysian counterparts.
also in indonesian movies they tackle all the sensitive issues when compare to malaysian movies which only do stupids jokes.

not all malaysian movies are bad but the majority of it.
i just wish malaysian film makers can learn from indonesian how to make good movies.
for me malaysian film maker lacks of idea how to make a movie.
at the same time malaysia censor board are also to harsh on the material of movies.

right now in my collection i already have few indonesians movies.

kawin kontrak
otomatis romantis
coklat stoberi

currently i'm downloading few other movies.
really like indonesian movies.
for me their movies connect with my life here in malaysia.

after watching kawin kontrak i really wanna go to indonesia and did it.
hahahaha.
halal is the key here...hehehehehe.

ok ..adios amigos!!!

last friday

2008-08-03T21:35:00.002+08:00

last Friday all of my officemate went out to have some fun at chyna.
for myself it's been like along time since i went to chyna.
the crowd have change from house n trance crowd to a hip hop crowd.

i went to chyna with uncle man and kenu.
we met miji there.
that night i drank quite a lot..hehehe.
after that miji and adham tuba me for 10 second.
damn! i have had that for almost a year.
so my natural resistance is quite low.
before going out from chyna i already drunk.

yet after hang out at nasi lemak kelab ss.
i already sober up.
after we all went back to my office.
went we reach the office i went to sleep.

that morning i thought i'm having a hang over.
after few puking i realized it is my gastric.
i went down and bought soy milk for my breakfast.
after that everything was fine.

headache!!!

2008-08-01T20:30:00.003+08:00

argh!!!!!!!!!
rite now i'm having a bad headache!!!
damn!! it came so sudden..shit it really hurt like hell.
feels like something keep on pinging my head!!!!

gonna out and buy some panadol @paracetamol
hehehehe.
may this is the side effect of too much of weed..hehehe

this week have to cut down eating spicy food.
my stomach feel it need a break from spice..hehehehe

i really love eating spicy food.
for me eating without spicy or at least sambal..makes that particular moment incomplete.

got 2 go.
adios!!!

my advertisement :)

2008-08-01T00:59:00.004+08:00

my carlsberg n i ---> taken at bakau bar
only carlsberg for me ----> also taken at bakau bar.

this is one of my pics for carlsberg advertisement..:)

i even had an idea for trailer for carlsberg advertisement.
the idea is like a boat capsize at the sea during a storm.
after everything become normal again..one of the survivor spot something among the rubbles of the ship.
he run as fast as he could. then the audience will see that he is trying to get to carlsberg can.
after saving the cans he said "better die than waste a carlsberg"

hahahahaha.
this idea still in the process of refining it.
meaning there still room of improvement.

gonna shoot a short film of it and than gonna sent it to the carlsberg management.
to see wether they will except my idea or not.

baskin robbin

2008-08-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

hahahaha,
finally after missing it for few month i finally manage to eat baskin robbin hehehehe.

lucky me that lali woke me up around 950pm.
after that we made a dash to go to baskin robbin in uptown.
we arrived there's already a long queue of people.
we pick up our number and join the queue.
also i meet dayah's bf fahmi there with his sister.

it took almost 1 hour before my turn arrived.
i choose 2 flavor rum raisin and hockey pockey.
the flavor that i chose compliment each other.

hope next month i got to try mango tango n orange sherbet.
still to me the best ice cream in town is haagen dazs

just lali ask when i gonna go to ayuy's gym.
tomorrow gonna pay up the registration fees.
and join up.
this time around my goal is to make my body fit to play rugby again.

miss my playing days ler.
hope i can get fit asap....hahahaha..don't be lazy.
control my eating.

gonna try and find boxing club.
i think i wanna give boxing a try.
i really like the sport since i was small.
recently mu fav boxer retired.
his name is flyod mayweather.jr.
he is former pound for pound king.
he is also undefeated.

writing in this blog of mine have help me managing my stress.
i really i write a lot more in the future.

adios again my friends!!!!

boss where's my paycheck?

2008-07-31T19:48:00.002+08:00

damn lali forgot to give me my pay check.
hahaha..never mind tomorrow gonna ask him bout it.
last Saturday i went to PvD party at zouk.
it was nice.
his spinning was superb!!!!
lucky me got to see his performance.
spend the whole sunday recovering..regaining my senses..hehehe.

monday until today i spend my time working and playing fm2008.
need to do something if not i'll think bout my life.
right now just don't want to think bout it.
i'm happy with my current life just that to me it is time to move
to another level in my life.

i want to settle down. lay myself in a place of my own.
have a family of my own.
don't want to play around no more!!!
don't want to make sex anymore.
really want to make love..just like indonesian said ML..hehehe
meaning i'm in need of love...not just syg.
syg i kind find it often..but love is something that has alluded me for so long.

need to tell the girl about my feeling.
so that i can move on with my life.
i already knows that i gonna get rejected.
it's fine by me.

lucky uncle said nxt time he gonna bring my friend n i to SOLO.
over there the girls are known to be so damn loyal n pretty plus good hearted.
hope i can find love there.
i just lost hope with malaysians...hehehehe.

hope i can fell in love over there.
need love..really need it.
need some one to shoulder cry on.

right now my heart is very lonely.
i really need some one to rely on.... some one to share my feeling.
why now i feel this way.
cause i'm bored with my life right now.
to me it is the same as like 10 years ago except that time i'd my love ones.

afraid to lover but need love.
that is my case.
afraid of getting hurt..yet i'm hurting right now.
isn't that ironic...hahahaha.

really need some one that i can come back to.
some one to fill my lonely n broken heart.

come on SOLO,
let you heal my heart!!!

enough about my heart.
just need to let it out so i can do some work n thinking...hehehe.

damn! after the dark knight..there's no movie that i want to see.
have to wait until Christmas when all the best movie gonna be out again.

love the dark knight.
it is more darker than the past batman.
i like it.
the joker was more psycho than before.
ledger did really good job.
a brilliant psychotic person.
that's why joker is batman arc nemesis.

oh yes this time around hellboy movie is called hellboy.
hmmm..isn't that stupid cause before it is called super sapient.
m'sia government is damn stupid!!!
hahahahaha.

got to see hellboy singing i can't smile without u..by barry manilow...hehehe
tht song got a lovely tunes.
that stuck in your head for quite sometime...hehehe.

ok c ya later.
adios!!

TIOMAN

2008-07-17T23:24:00.002+08:00

at the end of last month,
few of my friend and i took some opportunity to go to tioman again.
actually all of us were on a business trip to rompin.
since tioman is quite near..we just make dash to go there.
anyhow kenu aka nuar took this opportunity to view part of the land there.

the guys who are in this trip;

skin = myself
lali
kenu = nuar
ayuy
adham
jawa

we when there on two cars.
mine and lali's
it's quite tiring because on the same night before we went to tioman i was the pengapit at blue's wedding. that's another story.
hahaha..damn lali never told me that i gonna be the designated driver.
lucky with my superb skill as a driver we made safely to mersing.

this time around we gonna stay at paya beach.
which is quite relax when compare to salang beach.

ok got to go.
i'll continue my blog later.
adios amigos.

POLITICS

2008-07-16T17:04:00.002+08:00

last night, a debate happened between anwar ibrahim and shabery.
the issue was about oil price in malaysia.
shabery didn't do so well in my point of view.
he commits to much personal attacks against anwar.
to me it shows lacks of intelligent of shabery.
when he come up with a point anwar bash him right back.
at the same time i didn't understand why on earth BN send menteri penerangan
to this debate.
they should have send menteri kewangan.
another stupidity of pak lah...i guess.
anwar was straight to the point and always came up with facts.
compare to shabery who can come up with a point but no facts to back him up.

to me again it shows that in this current government, almost all the minister are stupid.
they just cannot seem to be doing anything right for the people.
for the bn people..malaysian should change their style of living.
how to change..when we already living near our financial limits every month.
we do not earn as much as the minister.
even to 'balik kampung' this coming hari raya gonna cost a lot.
damn you bn people!!!

back to debate..it show how well prepare anwar when compare to shabery.
when you revert to personal attack it shows how desperate that person is.
anwar only did 2 personal attack compare almost 7 or eight against him.
at the end anwar even come to face shabery and shook his hand.
that really show what a great man he is.

so sad..bn fail another attempt to justified the oil price hike.
to me pak lah is very terrible in economy field.
since he take over this country..i don't feel this country have any kind of economic stimulation.
come on pak lah just step out. at least you can save some of your water face..hehehehe.

the big question is that after pak lah step out who gonna be his replacement
to me najib is not qualified at all.
than who is in the bn have the charisma at the par of tun dr mahathir or anwar.
for me bn fail to groom new generation of charismatic people in their ranks.

most of the people in bn only care about their own well being.
they never care about the people in malaysia.
so sad!!!!!!

when ask the new generation why they join bn the common answer will definitely about the money.
no more about people.

so my friends..hope you all can open your mind to new views.

kenangan

2007-08-12T05:26:00.000+08:00

although i'm not yet 26...but 2nite i feel like i'm older than my age.
rite now in my mind n my head all the memories tht i have on this earth suddenly appear...just like when u turn on ur dvd player at home.
all the goods n the bads.....happy times n sad times.
all are being played in my head...damn!
i really hate it.
it put my mind at uneasy state.
i wish i was back at tioman......where i got no worries......just hakuna matata.
may b this is a sign tht i'm to lonely......:P
it is hard to live when u feel empty inside.
still searching for tht something tht can fill up my heart.
there's a lot of thing going on with my life but mostly,
it is just a superficial things.
not a permenant one.

HALA MADRID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-18T16:16:00.000+08:00

early in this morning ecactly 2.55am malaysian time,
there's a live telecast of the most important game for me.
the was REAL MADRID vs mallorca.
this game will determined the new champion of laliga.
a game that do or die for REAL MADRID and also all the madridtas
around the world.
the game start quite shaky for REAL MADRID...may b the jitters get the better of them early on.
than..the worst thing for the team happen...mallorca drew the 1st blood on the 17th minute.
damn!!! while REAL MADRID was playing quite bad...as fan..i'll dissapointed with the team.
unexpectedly rvn injured his hamstring and higuain replaced him.
at halftime the score line was REAL MADRID 0 - 1 mallorca.

after halftime guti came replacing emerson.
thing still didn't look good for the team cz barca already leading 3-o in their game.
around 60th minutes beckham was being replace by reyes.
within second reyes in the pitch he manage to get the equaliser tht the team have been
looking for! 1 - 1.
in need of another goal the players push will all their might. there's few incident cz both team playing with a lot of passion.
than the REAL MADRID got a corner taken by reyes.
diarra get the header towards goal!!
he kinda scored it
now REAL MADRID lead for the 1st time in this game,
the player celebrate it with so much happiness...casillas cried becz the players knows that even a win with 1-0 margin is enough to secure the team the championship.
with 10 minutes to go reyes menage to scored the 3rd goal for REAL MADRID
that goal really secured the title for the team.
at the end of the game the player and all madristas around the world including me was celebrating our success of the season!!!!
finally after 4 years without any trophy...REAL MADRID get 1.
their 30th laliga title!!!!
welldone team...welldone!!!

a very busy day.

2007-06-15T07:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a very busy day for me.

1st i've to count bck all the stock becz there' been a shortage.
luckily it's not my fault tht it happen in the 1st place...hehehehe.

2nd ive to went to kl at met with few potential client.
manage to get them interested with my investment plan.

3rd gi juper iwan jawa n rizal kt klcc.
lepak kt chinoz...hehehehe...kena pina colada sepam..sadap gaks..hehehe.

4th pusing² kt klcc ngn cik sya...sajer tgh boring after work ler.

5th gi mkn kt tanjung pastuh antor si lisa balik wangsa maju.

6th balik umah lali and bersiap untuk gi ker zouk.

7th getting tipsy at zouk..hehehehe.

8th blk umah terus reinstall windows kt computer aku lagi.
damn dh 2 times reinstall windows in 2 weeks nih.
aper ker prob hard disk aku nih...!!!!

UVnation!!!!

2007-06-12T18:55:00.000+08:00

last saturday nite there's
a open air party at OU.
it's called UVnation.
featuring one of the hottest dj around mr benny benassi!!!
around 6pm i went to lali's house to discuss our arrangement for the nite.
finally we decided tht we will went to ou in separate cars.
then i wentt to kl sentral to pick miss sya n miss suen.
pastuh antor diertang ke ampunk nk amik miss dila nad miss lea.
after tht all of us is on the way to UVnation.
last2 aku sampai kt ou dlm kul 10pm ler.
dh ler nk masuk tuh beratur cam haram...tahap kepanasan nyer ler.
damn seblom masuk dh berpeluh giler!!!
after dh masuk we all make our way to the rave part of the party.
dh sampai tuh...tk leh masuk laks kt vip nyer area....damn sungguh.
after berdiskusi ngn adham kiterorg pun try bribe the bonzer....berjaye laks tuh.
but the price is rm250 for 6 people to enter vip area ler....hehehehehe. ..:)

so mlm tuh quite enjoyable.
girl yg aku minat kelihatan so cute..cair beb hati aku nih..muahahaha.
damn sungguh gwunk siut ayat di atas.
yet i'm really happy tht day!!!
cz although tk all the time dpt spend time with her...there's few moment tht yg best between us...ikut perasaan aku ler...:)
ok ler adios!!!!!!

4th june 2007

2007-06-05T18:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday i got the budjet for a new computer for my and f3 uses at the office.
lali gave rm1600 for the computer.
we manage to get a good computer with tht budjet.
plus we both add rm60 to bought a new speaker for the computer.
an altec lansing.
lali was quite furious tht we bought tht speaker but after hearing tht we put our on money..he's fine with it.
yesterday i came back frm work around 2.35am...damn pancit siut cz yesterday i slept just for 2 hours only.
rite now my mind kind mess up a bit cz by mixed feeling of my heart.
damn my heart for being mixed up!!!!
the reason for the mixed up is..... not gonna write it here...kihkihkih.
kinda emo sket ler ari nih...tuh rase tk best..cz aku tk suke feeling gini ler.
anyway hope tomorrow gonna be better than today!!!!
pls be ok.

weekend

2007-06-04T12:13:00.000+08:00

as usual my weekend start as dull as it can be.
spend my saturday sleeping during the day.
than manage to get sms frm miss syazz.
around 10pm i pick her up.
we both spend around 3 hours getting to know each other at laundry bar the curve.
she 's a fun girl to be around with.
she's not my type..but as a friend she's sweet and funny 2.
she's actually a friend of the girl tht i like.
this week the girl will come down frm cameron..hope i can meet her.
nk lepaskan rindu ler....gwunk ler aku nih...hehehehe.
on sunday pun lebih kurang same siang aku tido mlm baru nk berjaga ler.
dh jadi cm vampire laks aku nih....hehehehehe.
around 7.pm aku gi bertolak ke arah sg wang...nk beli kasut baru .
tetibe laks aku gatal nk ikut smart tunnel tuh.
last2 tersekat dlm jam kt dlm tunnel tuh.
sungguh boring but at the same time i'm happy cz my hipotesis yg mengatakan smart tunnel tuh akan jam telah terbukti.
proven beb!!!
after beli kasut and mkn..on the way balik cik syazz sms ajak lepak.
so aku pun gi ler lepak with her kt ampang.
hang out until kul 12.30am.
after tht aku balik n tido lagi!!

suey2!!!

2007-05-31T12:17:00.000+08:00

argh!!!
hatta tersgt bengang aku mlm semlm.
the reason tersgt sakit hati sebab mlm semlm hard disk aku crash!!!!!!!
damn suey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dh ler kt dlm tuh byk pics and songs!!!
damn suey!!!!!
mare nyer aku!!!!!!!!!!
habis punah segala nya!!!!!!
anime aku hilang!!! manga pun ilang gaks!!!
dam suey!!!!!!

5 days

2007-05-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

it's been 5 days since i last wrote anything in this blog.

not tht busy just lazy...hehehehe.

finally last friday manage to go n saw potc.

a good movie..but kinda piss off cz lastly it shows like tht stupid will turner is the hero,

not my most beloved captain jack sparrow.

damn will turner!!

saturday...aper yg aku buat yer...tetibe jer aku terluper laks.

hmmm...sgt heran...oh dh ingat balik dah...hehehehe.

ptg saturday aku gi ngk mesia vs singapore rugby.

kt um.

mesia nyer team main hampeh nk mampus!!!!

bodoh sial.

pastuh time mlm laks tuan haji fuad buat barbeque party ler.

damn best ler lamb tuh....especially the ribs!!!

on sunday laks aku lepak jer kt umah.

then tht nite around 12am gi karaoke ngn lali kt green box.

puas hati menyanyi lagi beb..hehehehe!!!

zouk!!

2007-05-25T08:20:00.000+08:00

hm.....hm..hm...last i's supposed to watched potc but...there's a slide change of plan.
at the last minute lali called me and roger tht he gonna go to zouk..he asked me if i wanna tag along.
of cz my answer was a yes.
so around 11.45pm i already arrived at the front of zouk...awal compare tuh biase ler.
bersemangat!!!
tgh nk masuk nampak jidin laks.
byk gak ler geng mlm nih.
in there we got the table near bar 2.
rizal,naja,jawa, lali, jidin, joey and jai.
tht was everybody at our table....at first.
then came rozie and gang.
after awhile sudenly i saw cik cuci kaki da...aka miss ann.
terkezut die melihat aku.
we talked..a little bit..dance a little bit.
around 2.15am..i was walking around in zouk..as usual,
somehow i was at miss ann's table,
she was drunk already...a woman tht cannot handle achohol.
when we're dancing together..my naughty brain started thinking,
can i take advantage of her.
i try to kiss her...well i got the response...she kiss me bck.
we continue to dance and kiss again...hehehehe.
agak nakal gak aku nih ruper nyer...hehehehe.
then i went bck to my table.
pastuh si jawa muncul ntah dr maner terus ejek aku.
cis ruper nyer die ternampak aku berkissing ngn miss ann td da.
well tht's the story frm last nite.
aku tk jahat just sajer nk try amik kesempatan jer kt ann tuh.
nakal..tersgt2 nakal ler.
nnt aku call ler si ann and say sori pasai menggatai ngn die mlm td...hehehehehe

oh...tuesday

2007-05-22T19:01:00.001+08:00

today...nothing special happen,
just that i need to release few thing outta my head.
rite now i like this girl so much...yet the response tht i get frm her is jst a friend.
kinda confuse to whether i should continue to pursue her or just b a friend.
what should i do?

if i continue to pursue her..then at end i got rejected..it's gonna hurt.
but if i back off now..in the future i know i gonna regret it.
damn!! what is the correct answer to my problem.

in the art of courting the response of the girl play the major part in your deceision to pursue out not to.
the response tht i got show me tht it's better for me to bck off...yet why my heart tell me not to.

i'm in conflict right now....do not know what to do.
the girl tht i'm liking so much now have all the qualities tht i want frm a girl.
the reason tht i like her so much is her attitude and she also the type tht knows how to take care of herself.
yet her response to my advances is just like a friend.
i know i'm sending her the right signal yet her signal is just friend.

argh!!!!!! i like this girl so much!!

what to do....hope tomorrow i've the answer to my problem.

why fall in love when at the end i know i gonna get hurt..yet my heart still longing for love.

sore throat!!

2007-05-21T15:22:00.000+08:00

hari ini byk sakit tekak ler!!!!!
the reason is becz mlm td aku gi karaoke bersame lali ler.
melalak dari kul 12am until 4 am ler.
biase nyer gi lebih dari 2 org but mlm td tk der org yg nk join so
aku n lali jer yg gi.
so sgt ler sakit tekak pasai nyanyi tk sudah2 ler....hehehehe.
semlm byk siut nyanyi lagu yg pernah aku nyanyi seblom nih.
lepas gak aku nyanyi lagu izwan pilus tuh...hehehehe.
lagu wajib aku relaku pujuk juga dpt aku nyanyikan.

best tersgt2..dpt gi karaoke tuh ler.
hope this week dpt gi lagi...hehehehehe

1 week

2007-05-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

well this past 1 week i manage to saw 3 movies.

the 1st was last friday.
the sumolah by adflin shauki.
the story is about malaysians who engaged themself in the sport of sumo.
it' a comedy.
well to me the movie is quite funny. i enjoyed it very much.
to c malaysians in cawat is very kelakor..hehehehehe.
akak nang nak to agak cute gaks but muke die ader iras budak pompuan yg aku tk suke ler.
damn naper jd gitu ler.

the 2nd movie i watched it last saturday.
next a movie starring nicolas cage and the babelicious jessica biel.
a movie about a guy who can c the future.
the mvie was quite good..with and ending tht u'll nvr expect.
damn tertipu da aku ngn ending tuh...hehehehe.

the 3rd movie i saw it last nite.
blade of glory starring will ferrel n jon heder.
well what can i say about this movie -----> one of the funniest movie of the year!!!!
another frat pack movie which gave me a a very good laugh frm the beginning until the end
of this movie.
a must c movie!!!!!
when the dvd come out definitly a must buy 2!!!!!

the loft

2007-05-10T20:10:00.000+08:00

mlm semlm aku teramat ler penat and mengantuk tersgt2.
kerna telah bekerja spjg hari.
aku blk umah pun dlm kul 9.00pm.
sampai kt umah aku surf internet jap pastuh dpt call dari lali, ajak gi kedai dvd die.
aku on jer ler.
pastuh i call the girl.....nk lepaskan rindu....hehehehe.
tgh2 call the girl dpt laks satu sms dari lali yg sungguh taman pasai aku tk nk
gi ker the loft biler die ajak aku.
ngn terpakse nyer aku ckp ok..untuk gi the loft.
after lepak kt kedai dvd..dlm kul 11.00pm blk umah lali jap..mamat tuh nk mandi.
aku laks tido ngn sedap nyer.
after kiter org pun gi ker the loft.
tiber saner dlm kul...12.00am
sampai kt sana jai and iwan dh ader kt saner.
tk lamer pastuh rerakan yg lain pun muncul ler.
seronok aku jadi nyer selepas berjuper ngn mr maikel and mr snook.
pastuh semua org get d---k.
mlm tadi kerja aku menube org jer....hehehehehe.
dpt lari ler.
nasib baik ler.
pagi tadi bgn awal dgn kepala yg agat berat ler....hehehehehe.

SpIdEmAn 3

2007-05-05T11:51:00.000+08:00

last nite i manage to watch this movie.
i admit this one of the best movie this year.
the special effects was good and the storyline was okay.
although there's a lot of klise in this movie.
and some scene is predictable.
even there's a propaganda scene in this movie.
the movie show us the viewer the struggle of peter parker as he tries to divide his time as
spidey and himself.

enough about the movie.
today i'm not sure what i want to do.
may b...go out and try to find anything to get me out of my boredom rite now.
been..regularly write in this blog..it is just few ways to express my feeling and my thought.
gonna have lunch now..after tht...just see whats come around.
ok adios!!!

very sad....:(

2007-05-03T17:38:00.000+08:00

this day is a sad day for me.
in the afternoon i bought 2 tickets for spiderman3.
of course it's for me and the girl.
but around 1.00pm she called and said she can't make it coz her father will pick her up,
to go to cameron on te same time of the movie.
hmmmm...very sad.
now i have too see the movie with mr blue.
damn...terase gay laks...hehehehe.
hope to c her tonite or may tomorrow afternoon.
nk lepas kan rindu ler.
after this lame siut baru leh juper the girl.
rindu!!! rindu serindu nya!!!!
wah aku boleh quote lagu spoon ler...harharhar.
ok...ler aku nk chow dari office nih.
gonna miss her!!!

1st may

2007-05-01T04:38:00.000+08:00

today is the 1st may..it is a public holiday here in malaysia.
damn....don't know what to do today.
may in the afternoon if i'm bored i will ask the girl out for a lunch or see a movie.
oh..shit....i just remember today is zulu's wedding day.
have to call hamdan ler.
oh yer...in the evening ader laks...kenduri aqiqah anak si sarjan ler.
byk laks...aktiviti ari nih....hmmm...yg maner satu aku nk buat da.
terase nk kuar sgt with the girl ler.
cz this week is the last week she gonna be here.
after tht she gonna be in cameron for 2 month.
lamer nyer cik adik oi..ko nyer praktikal.
surely i gonna miss her ler.
damn!!

what should i do?

wild hog

2007-04-25T15:06:00.000+08:00

last nite i managed to c the film wild hog.
starring john travolta, tim allen, william h.macy and martin lawrence.
dh ler semlm sebok giler.
balik dari office pun dlm kul 8.30pm.
pastuh gi amik laks the girl kt serdang....nasib baik sempat gak sampai kt
berjaya times square on time.
so dpt ngk show yg kul 9.30pm.
the movie was fun to watch...we both have a good laugh.
the girl siap menjerit lagi cz die terase agak takut.
after tht we when to eat at maulana food court kt seri kembangan..ala dekat ngn minlon tuh.
pas tuh lepaking kt situ sampai kul 2.am
lamer siut hang out with tht girl.
the film finished at around 11.15pm.
semlm aku mmg terase kt syurga ler...hehehehehe.... :D.
after tht meet up with blue and when to c the game between man u vs ac milan.
balik ke rumah sempat jer gi download few episode of the manga fairy tail.
pastuh baru tido..... what a day. ler.
but still aku berpuas hati cz dpt spend time with the girl ler.
she made my life so meaningful..... :D.

this few days

2007-04-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

well...this past few days have been quite fun for me.
last thursday...i spend time with baby...all nite long..talking about everything.
at tht time the girl tht i like so much went to c---s with my friends.
i didn't have the mood cz i can't d---k yet....hehehehe.
we just only talk...didn't do nothing else cz i'm a man of honour.
i really want to go tht nite cz the girl was so cute n sexy..but i felt kesian kt baby so
i stay with her.
she give me few pointer on how to win the girl heart.
thks baby!!!!
the next day...friday...did nothing just hanging around with all the girls and my friend. lali was angry cz tk masuk kejer agi...hehehehe..sori lali.
tht nite lepaks with imad and maikel.
saturday..have few jobs to do...did it...although tk masuk office agi...hehehehe.
tht evening there's the final game for the bowl chapioship at pdg utara where my team dmontel vs hskoba.
we won it convicingly...byk laks player yg turun tuh.
and last nite when to see good charlotte nyer consert at bukit jalil.
blk dari situ...tgh lapar dpt laks sms dari lea yg die ader msk spagetti...rezeki aku beb.
so tht's my weekend for you guys.
sunday ni laks tk der buat paper ler...just lepaking at my house jer.

tick tock tick tock

2007-04-18T06:23:00.000+08:00

don't why i'm always write in this blog early in the morning...hehehehe.

....now the time is...6.25am 18 april 2007.

it's been one hell of year so far.

have a lot of things to do.

especially my jobs.

have a lot things to plan for my future.

hope at least get few things done by end of the year.

this year i started it by doing just the usual thing like hanging out on new year eve at my home feeling awful....hahahaha.

january past me by without any significcance to me.

than in february......started to get jiggy again.

why?.....i started to go to c---s again.

start to d---k again.

hm.....to some it's kinda bad thing to do.

well to me...it's mean to relieve me of my misery and pain.

keep walking is the motto of one of my favorite d---k.

unexpectedly in march i manage to like this girl so much.

hehehehe......what a timing to fall for a girl.

last year i manage to fall in love with another girl but than i realise it would never happen in a million years...why...she my fantasy girl...a girl tht i would never gonna get.

my feeling is just for me to know only.

than i move on with my life.

this new girl i already known her since last year.

the 1st time we met was at Z--k.

manage to took a picture with her...she's cute.

1stly i attracted to her cute and sweet face.

afterwards when we become closer...i really like her personality and her attitude.

we hang out together quite often now.

go to c---s together...go to karaoke together.

spend a lot of time together.

april----> this past 2month..i'm so active in enjoying myself to the fullest.

cannot remember how many time i went to karaoke and c---s.

almost all the time she there with me.

this girl...tht i like so much already shown me tht

she's the type of girl tht can take care herself....in c---s.

she didn't smoke, d---k and flirt around.

damn i like her a lot.

her smile make my day.

also i realise tht i already be a heavy d---ker again in my life time.

tipsy is like a must for me---->took the wrong way again..hehehehe.

my business is going well just need few things to be tied up.

hope can get break with her in the coming month.

oh yeah...almost forgot i must write in this blog for at least once week.

a summary of my pitiful yet exciting life...hahahahaha.

my heart

2006-09-24T06:53:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i write anything here in my blog.
the reason.....i'm just lazy.
now i have to write in it cozz i'm feeling quite down rite now.
there's no other place that i can pour my heart out.
last month i met a girl that i haven't saw for quite a time.
suddenly my heart became unstable.
everytime i was around her my heart beat become so fast.
everytime i saw her smiling it made my day.
she did ask me to help her..i did it without any questions.
i even miss out on a party just to see her face.
at that moment i realized that i'm in love with this girl.
the problem is she didn't know my feeling towards her and also
she's still studying at ireland. where else i'm here in malaysia.
my heart finally open itself to love again but this time i know my heart gonna be broken again.
but one thing i know if i lost her..i will regret it for the rest of my life.
she's so hard to get...i didn't have any slice of confidence to win her heart.
yet i didn't want to lose her...i love her so much.
she's the most perfect woman that i can find on this earth.
i just don't know how to win her heart.......just don't know how.
since the day she went back to ireland i haven spoken to her...i miss her voice, her smile and her presence.
i need her in my life.........in my heart she's close but in reality she's no where near me at all.
why i fall in love with somebody that out of my league.
i know she'll never accept me as her guy.
but why i'm still hoping for a miracle to happen.
the ending of this story i already knows but why must i wish n hope a fantasy will happen in the middle of this story.
why....oh...why my heart you wish for something that out of your reach.
why must u fall for someone that deep inside you know will never choose you.
why...oh...why my heart u wish for a fantasy.
the reality is the fact of life not fantasy.
yet the reality i love noorf_____ so much!!!!!!!!

Saksi n BadMinTon

2006-04-14T08:05:00.000+08:00

last wednesday i got a surprise called from my friend..farid@bala.
he said he 1 me to be a saksi for his wedding.
terkezut aku di buat nyer.....hehehehehehe ingat member dh kene cekup.
rupenyer nak kawen nih rumit jugak die nyer prose.
mamat 2 terpakse mintak at least 7 signatures baru leh diluluskan dek jais 2.
so terpakse ler aku n adham jadi saksi mamat 2.
after lunch,farid dtg amik aku n adham pastuh kiterang pon gi ler masjid for zohor prayer.huh...lamer siut tk gi masjid for zohor prayer....hehehehehe.
dh ler 2 dtg awal laks 2.sembahyang kt sof pertame n aku solat laks dekat blakang
imam 2.hehehehehe jd bahan gelak member² jer ler.after that baru dpt jumper,
imam juru nikah 2.after dpt signature die baru gi pejabat jais nk confirm leh kawen.lamer siut aku n adham waiting for farid nyer kebenaran nk kawen 2.
ader ler dekat 2 hours.damn berbulu jer biler ngk advertansi kt tv yg servis
gomen dh jd lagi bagus.aku rase samer nyer.
bagus jugak si farid ajak aku nih cz baru tau yg nk kawen nih byk laks
prosedur nyer.
that nite adham,red,imad,farid,din,medi and aku gi main badminton laks.
dh lamer tk main skill nyer dh berkarat siut.
biase main double..tk larat nk main single but si adham ajak gaks main single,pastuh main style baru laks...21 baru abih game.hehehehehe kalah but
fight ler.21-19,21-19 gaks.
ok ler adios.

99 SECRETS GIRLS HAVE TO KNOW ABOUT GUYS.

2006-03-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

this a few things girls need to know about guys.with commentary by me skin.

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.(skin's comment: it's the truth)

2. Guys hate flirts.(skin's comment: yup hate teaser ler.)

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
(skin's comment:definitely if you are annoying.)

4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.(skin's comment:yup)

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
(skin's comment:regular ice breaker.)

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep,
they always think about the girl they truly care about.
(skin's comment:this is the truth)

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad
characteristics.(skin's comment:never see bad things in ur love ones.)

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.(skin's comment:it just lit up my life.)

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
(skin's comment:sometimes they over do it.)

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
(skin's comment:same with girls right..when guy did the opposite.)

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
(skin's comment:no harm can b done.)

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure
have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and
it is drinking!
skin's comment: no comment.)

13. Guys cry!!!(skin's comment:certain time.)

14. Don't provoke(irritate) the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
(skin's comment:girls love to do this to guys.)

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.(skin's comment:guy fantazie too much.)

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and
this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
(skins comment: it's true....done it before..so stupid.)

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.(skin's comment:true.)

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never
mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
(skin's comment:who's in the right mind like that even girls.)

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
(skin's comment:i didn't about this one.)

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.(skin's comment:hmmm......)

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for
you.
(skin's comment:but girls still wouldn't understand it.)

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
(skin's comment:missunderstanding.hehehehe.)

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the
message clearly.(skin's comment:yup its true..never give guys doulble meaning.)

24. Guys hate gays! (skin's comment:of course..gays sucks man!!)

25. Guys love their moms.(skin's comment:mom gave life to us.)

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
(skin's comment:not just for roses..everything.)

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't
mean that the guy likes her.(skin's comment:hahahahaha)

28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.(skin's comment:it's true.)

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
(skin's comment:yup..a man heart can only love one person.)

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.(skin's comment:i don't think this true.)

31. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.(skin's comment:hehehehe..that's normal.)

32. Guys are very open about themselves.
(skin's comment:yup..we are open minded beings.)

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't
let him wait that long.(skin's comment:waiting...could cost you his heart.)

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.(skin's comment: it's normal.)

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
(skin's comment:not all guys is like that.)

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that
much pretty.(skin's comment:beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.)

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
(skin's comment:seen it so many times.)

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to
listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
(skin's comment:yup.)

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases
you.(skin's comment: :) )

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
(skin's comment:afraid of losing you ler.)

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
(skin's comment:definitely.)

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.(skin's comment: not all the time get it wrong.)

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.(skin's comment:not everythings.)

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
(skin's comment:that's not true at all.)

45. Guys think too much.
(skin's comment:not true at all..girls did a lot more than guys.)

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.(skin's comment:hahahahahaha..it's true.)

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
(skin's comment: yup...it's true.)

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too
possessive. So watch out girls!!!
(skin's comment:some does and some don't.)

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be
hard for him to let go of that girl.
(skin's comment:the easier..less challenging.)

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they
broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
(skin's comment:it's the truth..been there before...hehehe.)

**51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting
involved with that guy.(skin's comment:easier for both sides.)

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's
too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.(skin's comment:learn by mistakes..what didn't kill you make you stronger.)

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
(skin's comment:some does and some don't)

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
(skin's comment:it's true....hehehehehe.)

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
(skin's comment:yup..afraid if they didn't listen to their girls they might lose
them.)

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll
probably see that he is nervous.(skin's comment:always show that you are calm.)

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
(skin's comment:crazy in love.)

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying,"Please come and listen to me"(skin's comment:of course ...men to proud 2 say it out loud.)

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.(skin's comment:not all the time lar!.)

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
(skin's comment:yup...same goes 2 the guy.)

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
(skin's comment:of course...same for guys 2.)

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
(skin's comment:but pls don't be pushy.)

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight,
but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is
wrong.
(skin's comment:try and error...we learn frm our mistake.)

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.(skin's comment:yup...it's the truth.)

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
(skin's comment:not all the time but most because of ego.)

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be
sure unless the girl tells him.
(skin"s comment:of course...if not we just think we're the only one into you.)

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
(skin's comment:hehehehehe..it's the truth.)

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
(skin's comment:in this time age it's a must.)

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
(skin's comment:men do it with out realizing it[subconcious].)

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
(skin's comment:everybody have they own secrets.)

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your
advantage.(skin's comment:friendship is forever.)

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of
rejection.(skin's comment:bering rejected is sucks.)

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
(skin's comment:yup..girls must do this.)

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than
attracting guys.(skin's comment:stronmg smell turn down men.)

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic
is about girls.(skin's comment:it's normal..same goes for girls.)

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
(skin's comment:slow pick up.)

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable
decisions but still love them more.
(skin's comment:yes...but what to do..men do love women.)

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
(skin's comment:be polite is the way to women heart.)

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
(skin's comment:we got so many things to do.)

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know
them,they'll realize they're wrong.
(skin's comment:same with girls)

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too
stubborn to deal with it.
(skin's comment:men's ego is high.)

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
(skin's comment:what a turn downs.)

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.(skin's commenthmm..hehehehe.)

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is
already thinking of a way out.
(skin's comment:we guys always do that..it's our nature.)

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at
fixing things.
(skin's comment:hmm...i'm not sure about this.)

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's
criticizing you.(skin's comment:its true.)

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance,give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance,ignore him.
(skins comment:yup give that man a chance..if he blew it up than leave him.)

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
(skins comment:yup..that's the truth..been there and done that.)

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at u and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
(skins' comment:may be.)

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
(skin's comment:experience is more important than fantasy.)

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in
front of you!(skin's comment:yes it's the truth.)

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
(skin's comment:it's a good idea to do.)

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
(skins' comment:not all men..some do mean it.)

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him
praying sometimes.(skin's comment:yup.)

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
(skin's comment:not all the time lar.)

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
(skin's comment:some not all.)

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
(skin's comment:that's the most basic praise for the girl we like the most.)

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.(skin's comment:definitely.)

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships
(skin's comment:it's the truth but women always don't realize it.)

fEvEr......FeVeR!!!

2006-03-27T20:14:00.000+08:00

since last friday my little brother is having a fever and cough.
it was becoming very unhealthy position for me because my brother attitude has worsen than before.when he's healthy his already been an annoyance to me...this time around he manage to get under my skin with twice than his normal annoyance.
argh.........tension siut......nak marah tk boleh....terpakse layan jer ler.
terpakse byk bersabar.
in away my bro nyer perangai nih cam perangai aku jugak.....suke meng tease org lain to the max.
tapi ptg td aku berjaye menakut kan that little devil 2 ngn mengajak die ngk
cite seram dead bird.bagi aku citer 2 tk seram maner but for little mmg takut kot.
ape² pun aku tetap sayang kat adik laki aku yg sorang nih.

>:)

$kIn

1st anniversary of my blog

2006-03-24T18:51:00.000+08:00

i just realise just now that my blog is 1 years old already 3 days ago.
never expected it can become what it is now.
i love to write in my blog all the things that happened around my life.
i didn't care wether other people read it or not.
i just wrote all this blog just to let my ideas and opinion out.
it is just away for me to blew some stim off my head.
i found out that by writing a blog it helps me grows as a human being.
the blog acts as shrink to me.
if i'm angry at certain issues i wrote it here.
if i'm happy also i wrote it here.
this blog has been like my best friend.
always there when i need somethyng to let b off.
long live my own blog!!!!!!!

>:)

URS TRULY,

$kIn

ThInG tHaT I mIsS MoSt

2006-03-24T17:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm...... didn't knows what had happened 2 me today,
suddenly some ol' feeling that have not risen for a long time has been awoken,
again.i've tried so hard 2 suppress it.....but it still manage 2 beat me again.
may b it was trigged by seeing n listening 2 many love movies and songs.
and i came 2 realise that i didn't miss the people whom i had the affair with,
but i miss the feeling,the moment and the taste of in love and having a
relationship.
i really miss being in love with someone n also being love by someone.
always see other people living in that enviroment made me quite jealous becz
i used to be in that enviroment 2.i know how sweet it can be.....it is
the most potent drug on earth.it can give u a lot of happiness and also its
share of sadness.once hook it's hard for you to get away from it.you'll
crave it all the time.you cannot live your life without it.seeing it in other
people would made you crave it more and more.
that's how i feel right now.i really miss being in deep relationship...a meaningful
relationship.been out of it for too long.....missing it so much....craving
for it......hunger for it.
why i become such an addict because nothing can b compare to it.when i see it in
my colleagues eyes, i know how they feel inside when they see their love ones.
been there and done that........and to lose it all.....a painful experience,
yet at the same time it is an eye opener to me.it teach me to cherish and saviour
every moment with my love ones.do not take your love ones for granted
because when you lose them......your world definitely will crumble to ashes.
right now i'm really afraid that i'll never again be in that enviroment.afraid
that will never be in love with someone or being love by someone.how could i
live in this world if i never got it back?
love is all around......but for me it seems love is just a fragment of my distance
past.afraid to open my heart....afraid getting hurt again....afraid repeating
the same ol' mistake again.cause i know myself better than anyone else in this world
afraid that i would be the one who pushes my love one away again.
i'm prone of making repeated offenses......could i sustain a relationship.
only time will tell.hope the lord above will give a chance to be back again.
this time around i'm gonna make sure that it will work cause don't want to hurt
anyone else n also myself.
right now i'm just like a football player who is being out of the game for so long
because of an injury.....always watching my team mate having all the
fun from the stance.....buying my time to get into the game again...and i'll
shine again.the people in the relationship comes and goes but the core of the relationship remain the same. pls lord let me into the game again and heal my broken heart.

it' been awhile since........

2006-03-22T14:23:00.000+08:00

actually i've a lot that i want 2 write here in my blog but i'm kinda busy n lazy to
update my blog.
a lot of thing had happen since my last entry to this blog.some i'll write here n some just don't want 2.

@----->1 of my good friends already getting engage while other already have their
own children (congrats guys.)

@----->watch almost every new movie that being release here in malaysia(almost
every nite of the week. :).)

@----->for the past week already met with sharifah amani twice while lepaking at
makbul n mohsin.(ade jodoh kot. hehehehehehehe)

@----->twice when to cinema n watch movie where imad was there.(kinda a surprise)

@----->almost when n see the movie new world...luckily adham saw it 1st
(one bad movie ler)

@----->still angry at malaysia goverment for raising the oil price.
(damn you liers!!!)

@----->has lost hope for real madird to get any trophy(another trophyless season)

@----->very happy that the French manage to beat England n won the 6 nation.
(england didn't deserve 2 b the world champ)

@----->hoping that i wouldn't miss this 31s march(want to eat a lot of baskin robin)

@----->still in sadness because my family honda accord still in the workshop.
(trapped in the last flash flood)

may b will update this blog regularly in the future. >:)

MaLaYsIa Sucks!!!!!!

2006-03-06T15:02:00.000+08:00

to many people this title may b an offensive one......but for me personally i don't care.
the reasons.......because most malaysians voted for a very unreliable goverment
which made this country sucks!!!!
the goverment thinks they can deceived malaysian people like they did in the 60s n 70s.......think again man!!!!
what are you thinking Pak Lah........how could so n your cronies said the price gonna get 2 $80.where else the current price is $63 per barrel.
the excuse for saving rm4.44 bill for piblic transport....that's absud reason i ever heard made by the goverment.if you r going to do that show us the people your plan......not just talk only.
the goverment should know that more people rite now can afford their own vehicle.
it's really a convienient for us compare using the public transport.
so which is better saving for something that will not b used by most of the people or something that's important to the people.
rite now i'm so angry with the goverment for lying 2 us.
how could they do that to us the people.

whoa!!!!

2005-12-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

4 d past 1 week,
god the almighty have given me a lot of opportunity
to meet up with my ol friends frm university and frm just seen.
yesterday evening around 4.30 i received a called frm one of my dormmate ema @ zamir.
he,fod n fucker(fucker) was lepakin together at coffee bean in shah alam.
he ask me wether i 1 2 join em.
i said yes n quickly made my move 2 join em.
it's been along time since i met with fod n fucker.
god i really appreciate what have gave me.

after i meet up with em,
we chat about our life now,
about our time i just seen,
and hope that we can still meet up in the future.
thank again god for ur great give.

huh......finaLLY

2005-12-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2day finally Dmontel rugby team shows they true nature.
with d arrival of all our kuda,
finally we became d bowl champion.

we have 3 games 2 day and we won all of em.
for d 1st game we have just enough player, just 8 of us.
d line up 4 d 1st game:
prop sopie & tok jan
hooker skin(myself)
scrumhalf pyan small
stand off bozo
center dagu
winger farid
reserved ary
then when d half time came another kuda arrived mr kole.
i asked for him 2 subtitute me cz i'm really tired.
mind you we were playing in blazing heat.
we manage to won d game 14-0.

4 d 2nd game(semi final bowl)
d line up:
prop tok jan & ary
hooker pyan small
scrumhalf farid
stand bozo
center dagu
winger kole
reserve skin
touch judge sopie
harharharhar we manage to over come the other team by few tries.
the result is 21-0
i played in d 2nd half becz ary faked an injury......damn a good actor.
even d referee bought it.
then i injured myself after i kick n chase the ball.i think injured my knee in the ruck.damn.......tak leh lari 4 few minutes gaks.
nasib team opponent tak tebok kt aku....hehehehehehe.

d final game vs sab(subang airbase)
i really hate this rugby team cz last year they stole my hp.
prop tok jan & ary
hooker pyan small
scrum half farid
stand bozo
center dagu
winger kole
touch judge sopie

this is only game that we conceded...hehehe 2 tries but they did not convert at all.
anyway they got their tries using their big forwards.
then my team got they rythm bck n start using our kuda we manage,
2 score 2 tries n convert 1 of it.
it enough 2 c we take the bowl championship.
i 1 2 play but my leg is killing me.
so we won d game 12-10.
harharhar padan muke subang airbase(sab)

overall my conclusion is that if we have more fitness and had d kuda frm d beginning
definitly we can go 4 the bigger championship.

unlucky

2005-12-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

2day there's a tourney call selangor green 7's.
again d montel enter this tourney,
but the lack of commitment by d player let us down.
4 d 1st game we play 5 against 7.
but we still manage 2 keep d score nil-nil when the half time come.
just as d title above we were very unlucky cz in the 2nd half
we let 2 conveted tries n gave our opponet d win.

4 d 2nd game we face my schools ol boys....d ansara.
15 side we surely gonna kick their ass but this is 7 side so we got our ass kick.
3rd game also bear the same fate of the earlier game.
the prob with the team is that we r not that fit enough 2 play 7 side rugby.
and we also lack of kuda(term for sprint or runner), for 7 side.
hope in d future we gonna improve our 7 side team.

ok adios.

D'mOntEl rugby TEAM 4 jonah jones 2005

2005-12-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

standing: Pyan Small,Along,Skin,Bozo,Kupan,Tam

front row: Ary,JR kusess,Tok Jan,Lipan,Sakata-san

GooGLE + ol friends

2005-12-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

for d past 2 years i've searching 4 a long lost friend of mine,

his name is eshadiq @ adique @ bleukang. he was my roommate when i was studying in segamat(uitm). he work in kl but d problem is he always change his phone number like changing a shirt.
finally i just GooGLE his name n luckily i had few result matching my long lost friend. frm one of the result i manage 2 recognize a friend of mine who also a friend of his.
i email this friend askin 4 eshadiq phone number.
that all happens on monday n on d tuesday i manage go out n have a few drinks with my long lost friend.
i would have nvr found eshadiq if not 4 GooGLE.
it was so easy.lucky me.

than on thursday nite i when to medan's house just wanna hang out, but he told me that another friend of ours is coming 2 his house. his name is mr ZuLu.
after we pick him up at d segambut komuter station, we all have our dinner at blakang istana.
seronok gaks dpt mkn ikan bakar n just hang out with ol' friends.
after that we sang a few karaoke rock songs. at medan's house.
memekak tgh² mlm.
hope his neighbour will not complain about the noise.

2 day d montel have our 3rd ever training.......fuh pancit siut.
lari pdg 2 round jer.......but main touch rugby with 3 person per team that's d reason yg pancit 2.

2morrow we have another tourney but do not know wether have enough person 2 play.
comfirm mati agi esok.

ReaLIzAtIoN

2005-11-14T12:43:00.000+08:00

2day between 6am n 6.30am while rearranging my comic shelf I found 2 things, which I didn’t expect 2 found. D 1st is a letter send to me by a friend. The date on that letter is June 2000. In that letter my friend gave me an advice n a reminder about my selfish acts as a human being. I did a very cruel thing to another person. Which at that time I took that person for granted.
I heed the advice but it is hard for to change urself when u think that u didn’t need to change. I did change but it is just for awhile. N I end up to doing the same ol’ mistakes all over again.

D 2nd thing that I found was also a letter written by me to that friend of my. D date on that my letter was September 2000. In that letter I really my friend for forgiveness for all my mistakes. I also wrote I’ll tried my best to change into a good n reliable person.

God knows that I never managed to do all that friend ask of me. That’s d things which bundle up inside of me all this years. Can I change into a better man? Can I b a good man? Can I b a reliable man?

Why I ask this questions d reasons is simple cz I let that friend n also my own self down.
It put a dent in my mind. I didn’t think that I can change to the person I ought to b.
It’s being going on for years in my mind. Until I watch a movie called sweet home Alabama. There’s a character name Jake, he lost his wife becz of his foolishness. He feel the only way to make it to her is by changing himself to b a better n reliable man to her. He in the movie he managed to change himself n win bck his wife. That’s kinda d fairy tale ending we love to c right?

I was so inspired by his determination 2 prove to his wife n also to himself he’s no loser. I really wanna b like him, not winning bck my wife cz I don’t have any, but the way he uses the bad experience into a motivation to b a successful man. I really wanna prove to my own self that I can achieve my dreams. I can change myself n prove to myself that once n for all that I’m not a fucking loser.

Thank god for letting me read that both letters again right now……..cz finally I understand n realize the advice n d reminder that friend had given to me. Sorry it took me 5 years to heed ur advice my friend. It took me a long time to grow up ……. I guess.

Reading it was hard cz all d past which I really wanna forget comes again to my mind but I realize it has happen……….I cannot do anything about it, except learn frm d mistakes that I made n never repeat it again. An also the importance of growing up in all aspects of my life. My physical, mental, emotional n spiritual must grow up parallel with my age n time on this earth.

I have already move on frm my past but reading the letters for me it’s God way to show me not to do d same mistakes. It’s a funny way to show it but…….I really thank god for it. I’ll keep it in my mind n close to my heart so I’ll never do it again to another person n to my own self.

Now I understand why it was hard for me to let go of my past. There’s only one thing, which made it difficult for me to let go which is regrets. I’m d type of human who always wanna do the best in all aspects of life. I did badly in d past n I really regret it n keep on thinking about it all d time. It consume me……. I was blinded by it. Until d day I saw that movie. Now I still feel regrets but I know the best things to do to get over it is by doing the best for my future. Now it fuels my heart n my desire for success, so when I look to my past I can say it wasn’t a bad experience but a learning experience which widened n richen my knowledge steer my acts for all my life. Well it is better to make a mistakes in ur youth rather than in ur prime.

It takes me a long time to grow up,…….. feel like an idiot but than again I’m just a human being. “to err is human” that’s me. Always doing things d hard way. But that is the benefit of making so many mistakes in ur life, u get to experience all d hardship, regrets n humiliations. As the saying “what didn’t kill u will make u stronger”. That’s d truth. Right now I’m stronger than d past. I’ve been through hell n now I’m back with vengeance.

I wrote this blog becz I wanna have a written confession….so that every time I feel like down n wanna give up, I’ll read this blog n remember the oath that I make to myself, n keep own fighting till my last breath in this world. I’m not stopping even when d fat lady sings, cz my whole life is depend on what I’m gonna do right this time around.

All great people were measured by what they do when they were faced with their greatest hardship whether they choose to quit or to keep on fighting until d end. All my idols have gone through hell n when they came back they r better than before. Cz when u r down n have nothing to lose that’s d best time to show d world what r u really made of.

May b I had written something similar in d past……….It just a way for me 2 express my feeling right now. Actions speaks louder than words……that’s true. When u keep on writing n say that u can change ur heart n confidence will believe that 2. when all this things merge together it will be one hell of a spirit that will help me in my fight against my own self. Myself is my worst enemy, I fail to understand that in d past but now I know in my heart if I fail again it will not b anyone else fault it just my own.

D odds may b against me but that is the hurdle that I must face to become what I’m destine to b. the risk is high but high risk high returns. I must do it for my own sake. This time around is d last I’ve got to prove to myself that I’m worthy living in this world. Not another scum back or another Malay trash.

In conclusions I wanna take this opportunity thank God almighty for always b there for me. To my family n friends who also always b there for me. N lastly to that friend who wrote that letter 5 years ago thanks for ur advice n reminder,

Urs truly,
>:)
$kin.

malaysians movie

2005-11-11T16:51:00.000+08:00

for the past 2 years i only watch
4 malaysian made movies.
compare 2 i lost count of how many oversea movie that i watch.

the 4 movie that i watch was:

1st---->buli => a film made by adflin shauki, he is one of my favorite comedian.
quite a funny film n fun 2 watch.

2nd---->puteri gunung ledang =>2 ol' skool for my liking,meaning the bahase not the
story line.damn apesal laks puteri 2 dr pulau jawe
daa.

3rd---->sepet =>the best movie ever been made here in malaysia for the past 15 years.
it show the true malaysian life style.the story line was simple yet
it manage to capture all the essens of malaysian culture.

4th---->gol & gincu =>a fun n new way to look at sport futsol from woman point of
view.can feel the reality of it.

sadly for me only 4 malaysian movie right now worth my money n time.
other are just plain stupid n with the use of bahase malay yg skema.
n stupid story line.
damn are all the producer n director here in malaysia
idiots with no sense of creativity n genius.
they should take their corean,japanese n even indonesian counterpart as
an example how to make a good movie.
for me the level of malaysian movies when compare to indonesians
are left behind for at least 10 years.

CoREan MoVieS

2005-11-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

da 1st corean movie that i saw was volcano high.
i instantly like that movie n was impress by the way corean make they movie.
coz they bring nu n creative idea to a movie.
since then i'm addicted to corean movies.
not the horror one but the love,comedy n actions movies.
right now i want to buy 3 more corean movie 2 actions n 1 comedy.
at 1st i didn't expect that corean movies a that good, but now
i feel like they are more better then the hollywood.
their movie are fresh n just brilliant.

here is my top 10 corean movies.

1st---->my sassy girl
2nd---->spy girl
3rd---->sex is zero
4th---->my little bride
5th---->love is devine
6th---->windstruck
7th---->korean gangster
8th---->arahan
9th---->volcano high
10th--->my tutor friend

i wish malaysian movie maker can b like their counterpart in corea.
it made me sad when watching the quality of malaysian movies right now.
only few are that good.other just stupid n unrealistic.

beautiful Maria of my soul

2005-09-28T04:12:00.000+08:00

beautiful Maria of my soul

in the sunlight of your smile
in the summer of our life
in the magic of love
storms above scattered away
lovers dreaming in the night
reaching for paradise
but as the dark shadows fade
love slips away
on an empty stretch of beach
in the pattern of the waves
drawingpictures with my hand
in the sand, I see your face
skipping pebbles on the sea
wishing for Paradise
sand castles crumble below
the restless tides ebb and flow
listening to a shell
hoping for your voice
beautiful Maria of my soul
though we'll always be apart
locked forever in a dream
ifI ever love again
even then, nothing will change
and the taste of you remains
clinging to Paradise
but as the distance from you grows
all that my heartever knows
hunger for your kiss
longing for your touch
beautiful Maria ofmy soul
filling all my nights
haunting all my days
beautiful Maria of my soul

the 1st time i heard this song is when i saw the movie mambo kings.
that was my 1st experience in the art of mambo.
the song was sang by los lobos.
it has a melodic tune n wonderful lyric.

$kIn
>)

cheating

2005-09-28T03:06:00.000+08:00

2nite i just saw tv series dr house.
it is one of my favorite tv series right now.
in 2nite episode a woman was admitted with a sleep sickness.
in can only infect her by 2 ways.
d 1st if she has ever been 2 africa.
d 2nd is she slept with a guy who has that disease.
after much discussion it is the 2nd way which got her infected with
the african sleep disease.
it is very hard for her hushband.
it is because he love her somuch.
the betrayal is to much for him 2 bare.
after the wife came out of the comma,
he left her.one of the doctor tried 2 make him stay but,
the fact he knows that his wife love him,
didn't stop him from leaving her.

my question what would i do if i was in his shoes?
would i stay with my wife who cheats on me?
or would i left her?

it is a very hard question 2 ask myself.
but i already know my answer.
no matter how much she love me or how much i love her,
once she already cheated me with another man,
i'll definitely left her.
my reason is simple.
it is not the matter of trust.but the matter of speciality.
for me if my wife has been touch by another man,
then what is left for me that is very special to me only.
for me my wife is only for me.
what i get from her cannot b share with another man.
that's why i'm not keen on other man's girls or woman.
1st cz i know what they(the women) mean to the guys.
2ndly most of the women have already given their guys what guys wants from a women.
and u gonna have their left overs.why must u have something that has been used before
when u can get a brand new n fresh ones.

i really cannot stand if my girl has been touch or seen by other man.
but that just me.
cz i really want my girl to special to me only.
$kIn
>)

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2005-09-27T16:31:00.000+08:00

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The Scientist

2005-09-26T04:54:00.000+08:00

The Scientist Lyrics

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
Ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tales
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh, and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing tales
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start...

this song i heard it 1st when i saw the video clip on mtv.
i instantly got hook because of its catchy tune.
than when i went 2 c the movie wicker park,
i heard it again because it was on this movie soundtrack.
damn coldplay always come up with a good song with a catchy tune.
the lyrics is quite meaningful 2.
this song almost single handedly tell what the movie is about.
for me this movie wicker park is 1 hell of a movie.....if u miss it
shame on u. pls get urself a dvd of this movie,
it is definitely a movie worth watching for.

HAppY BiRtHDay :)

2005-09-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

happy birthday 2 me,
Happy birthday 2 me,
happy birthday 2 me,
Happy birthday 2me,

hmm........2day 24th september 2005, i'm officially 24 years old.
i was born in klang on this same date........24th september 1981,
i felt kinda weird.....when ur age match ur birthday date.
the best part is i don't feel like i'm 24 years old.
may b because life 4 mens start at 4o.
hehehehe most women hate that part because they think it is an excuse
use by men to search out other possiblelities.

i really thank god for letting me celebrate my 24th birthday.
although i'm just 24.........i've already accumulate enough experience on life.
been through ups n downs.
in all aspects of life.........mentally,physically,spiritually n financially.......ohh almost forgot
also in love.
for me all the experience above have made me a betterman.
some experience have made my mind opens 2 new things....new idea.
some experience have thought me how 2 react in certain situation.
some experience have made me feel new feelings......feelings that i used 2 read or saw in a movie.

i really appreciate what i've got now but.........i still wanna keep improving myself,
because in this material world money n knowlegde are powerful tools,
that can help me achieve my dreams n my goals.

for my lord.....my savior.....my master ALLAH SWT,
i'll try my best to be a good slave...a slave always obey UR rules n order.
for without U my LORD.....i'm just a insect in this universe of URS.

my sign is libra..........that's y i'm a person that believe in balance.

like the chinese yin-yang......libra sign is the weighing scale.

that's y i've a problem when it come 2 ISLAM.
because i'm a a person who like balance in everything that i do.
so half of my life is for this materials world n another half for the next.
kinda hard for me to give this world up n give my heart n soul for the nxt.

anyway i would like to thks my family for supporting me all this years, my friends who always b there for me through thick n thin.

urs truly:
$kIn
>)

heart......... ;)

2005-09-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

This romeo is bleedingBut you can't see his bloodIt's nothing but some feelingsThat this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left meNow I'm drowning in the floodYou see I've always been a fighterBut without you I give upNow I can't sing a love songLike the way it's meant to beWell, I guess I'm not that good anymoreBut baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - AlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a day - AlwaysI'll be there till the stars don't shineTill the heavens burst andThe words don't rhymeAnd I know when I die, you'll be on my mindAnd I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behindAre just memories of a different lifeSome that made us laugh, some that made us cryOne that made you have to say goodbyeWhat I'd give to run my fingers through your hairTo touch your lips, to hold you nearWhen you say your prayers try to understandI've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you nearWhen he says the words you've been needing to hearI'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mineTo say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - AlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for youI could

If you told me to die for youI would

Take a look at my faceThere's no price I won't payTo say these words to youWell, there ain't no luckIn these loaded dice

But baby if you give me just one more tryWe can pack up our old dreamsAnd our old livesWe'll find a place where the sun still shines

this is one of my fovorite songs of all time.it use 2 b just a song 2 me which has a lovely n catchy tune.but few years ago this song became a reality to me.the lyrics of this song became my story,i really connected with the song.i sang it so my times that the lyrics was printed in my sub-consious.though that was in the past........now i'm cured of that sickness, whoah.....thank god i manage 2 move on.......damn the journey was hard but right now it started to pay me some divident.i c the world with different view........a change man.......a man with something to prove to my ownself.sick n tired of living with all past memories which only causes me pain........gonna seek new n lovelier memories than be4.

though sometimes when i'm alone a thought come 2 me.where do i gonna find a women that can say that vows......."through health n sickness,for richer or poor to death do us a part." n honour that vows until their death.right now it is hard to find a woman that can do that anymore.in the past it was very easy.for me most of the women right now when their love ones face with a problem which resulted in the women pain.......the women will leave tha poor man to dry.it just a mistake........that can b heal by love."anything happened i'll always by urside"is a dialogue that women love to said to man.but when things come to worse.......the man really needed her......she gives up.through thick n thin my ass!!!!!!!!!!!

can i ever trust a women?can i trusted her with my heart n soul? it's only can be answer by me when i face a woman that i gonna b falling in love in the future.because for now the things above is just a minor distraction 2 me in achiving my goal......my dreams.

the thing that made me write this because i just seen the movie CINDERELLA MAN it is a true story of the heavyweight champion JAMES J.BRADDOCK the bulldog of bergen.i really amaze how his wife was standing beside him through all the hard time,since she was married to him when he was a young prodigy fighter.in the "great depression" jim was out of his luck.......he has to beg to all the promoters for money to settle the electric bills fo the sake of keeping his family 2gether.for the rest of the story better u go n c the movie urself.for me if i ever manage to find a woman like mae braddock it would've make my life so complete.

for the women out there pls set mae braddock as ur example, she is a loyal wife,a good mother n most of all she always stand by her man.

as 4 myself right now i really like being single because i'm not stabile enough to sustain a relationship phsycally,mentally n financially.haven't found the right woman yet......hope in the future when i'm already achieve my goals n dreams.....i'll find a woman that will stand by me until death do us a part.

bad luck....huh!?

2005-09-18T00:46:00.000+08:00

rite now i'm feeling very² down :(
the reasons:

@-------->my streamyx connection is very not stabile, it cause me setbcks in my job.
(damn lerrr tmnet!!!!)

@-------->my favorite club has been in a slump, REAL MADRID 3 defeats in 3 game.
(come on guys pls be d galacticos that u r!!!!)

@--------->approaching my 24th birthday but still at the same place as 5 years ago.
(argh!!!!!! not lookin 4ward 4 it.)

@--------->do not know what i wanna do 4 my birthday.
(got prob with my financial)

@--------->my life rite now is in gapping down movement.
(wait n c when it gonna achieve gapping up!!)

@--------->have a problem in faith.
(still working 2 b a good muslim)

TiRinG WeeKenD!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-22T08:34:00.000+08:00

my weekend started at friday nite n end on sunday nite.

1st------->on friday nite i stay up late n didn't sleep at all 2 study n do some homework
(hate it but must do it)

2nd------>on saturday morning when to perindu's field 2 play rugby 4 account's team.
(manage 2 get into quarter finals)

3rd------>that evenig just lepakin at my fren's house n watched how the springboks beat
wallabies

4th------>that nite around 7.45pm my fren n i started our journey 2 Port Dickson
(had a party to attend)

5th------>that saturday nite my fren n i party all nite long, from 9pm until 3am.
(what a party!!!!)

6th------>damn my fren n i were actually being fooled by the ads of that party.
(it's a rave party only but the ads says there's gonna b r&b 2)

7th------>so i didn't sleep again for 2 nites.after that when bck 2 my fren house laks.
(didn't get any sleep coz layan ngk astro laks.)

8th------>finally got myself 2 sleep around 8am on that sunday morning.
(wake up around 5pm in the evening.)

9th------>the party was full of beautiful n sexy gurls but also the other side of it.
(damn i saw an underaged malay slut!!!)

10th----->come 2 think of it, that's why we the malay are fast becoming like kafir
cz most of us prefer 2 go 2 a party than 2 the mosque.
(peringatan for myself lerr)
that's my very tiring weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ThE StAR SpANgLeD BaNnEr!!!!

2005-08-12T16:47:00.000+08:00

Oh say can u see,
By the dawn's early light,
What so proud we hail'd,
At the twilight's last gleaming,
Whose broad stripes n bright stars,
Through the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched,
Were so gallantly streaming,
And the rockets' red glare,
The bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof to the night,
That our flag is still there,
Oh, say does that STAR SPANGLED BANNER yet wave,

O'er the land of the FREE!

And the home of the BRAVE!

many people surely offended by my blog this time.
although the US is currently the only super power in the world,
n like to wage a war on others,
but for me the US symbolize the everything humans, especially becoz US is the land of freedom n oppurturnity.
u see US gain their independence through a war with british while we malaysians using conference, after agreeing on british terms than we were grant an independence.while the ol' malay like mat kilau, abdul rahman limbong n the peraks royalty, for me are the true heroes of our independence be coz they sacrifies a lot espesially their blood for this country.not that person who goes to the conference with british.that's why i'm not patriotic any more coz i realize that those men who sacrifies their blood for this country were left behind compare to the one who just go talking wit the british.they fight the british at the time when the sultans themself were afraid to say it out loud.the sultans chicken out, while the people died for them.long live indenpendence my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!

nat king cole's SonG!!!

2005-08-12T16:32:00.000+08:00

i've beens searching for the singer who sing this song for quite some time.i really like this song becz the lyric is simple but it manage to send the msg directly 2 us.

L-O-V-E

L is 4 the way u look at me,
O is 4 the only one i c,
V is very, very extraodinary,
E is even more than anyone that u adore can

love is all that i can give 2 u
love more than just a game 4 two
two in love can make it
take my heart n pls don't break it
love was made for me n u.
repeat verse1

repeat verse2
+ love was made for me n u,
love was made for me n u,
love was made for me n u.

unLUcKy WeEk!!!!!

2005-08-12T15:40:00.000+08:00

it is the 2nd week of August, is not been a week for me.damn this week is so bad just wanna erase it frm my MIND!!!!

1st :( -----> i did badly at the MAS phsycomotor test, argh!!!!!!!!
2nd :(-----> i just know that the stupid MBSA had summon me for rm250 for parking tickets.
(i've already pay it damn!!! pokai aku di buat nyer)

3rd :(------> haze, is every where.why can't the indonesians just cut the trees.
(bodo lerr indon nih, nk save cost but negare aku yg kener suffer!)

4th :(-------> SAF(sukan antare Fakulti) has been postponed or cancel(i'm not sure which one)
due 2 the haze.(aku nk main rugby lerrrr!!!!)
5th :(--------> Can not c Charlie n d Chocolate factory cz seats a limited.(argh!!!!!! nk tgk johnny depp)

6th :(--------> being missin dat lovely gurl wit a smile dat melt my heart.(takot nk buat move daa!!!!)
7th :(---------> last week my team(ALL BLACKS) were beaten by springboks.(cisss bengang aku lerr)

hope nxt week will a better one lerr. damn i'm really tense rite now.can just blow up at any moment lerrr.
adios amigos!!!!!!!!!!

its been a long time.........

2005-08-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

finally i manage to write something on this blog after a while. not that i didn't want 2 write but my life been so busy lerr.few things happens for the past month.

1st @>---> i lost my grandmama.she finally died peacefully.only regret i wasn't there 2
witness her last breath.
2nd @>---> TUN M make a fuss about ap which brings this country into quite a dispute.
4 me he 's just worried that proton has lost its edge againts imported cars.
PROTON is just damn foul!!!!!!!

3rd @>---> Real Madrid manage 2 sign 2 brasillian player.julio baptista n robinho.
it's gonna b one hell of a season.

4th @>---> already seen all the nu movies.War of d world,seven sword,F4 n stealth.
what enjoyment its been 4 me.

5th @>--->fall in love with an actress name jessica biel.
she has all d qualities that i want from a woman.
she's perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6th @>---> my rugby team the mighty all blacks win the lion tour 3-0.
long live the haka!!!!!

7th @>---> found a gurl that i kinda like but still afraid to make a move on her.
she's so lovely.........with a smile that can lit up the whole world.
a smile that melt my heart from the moment i met her.

8th @>---> manage to find a way 2 finally shut the people who said i got no future.
we gonna c who got the last laugh.

9th @>---> been requested for an interview with mas for pilot position.
i'll try my best.

what a great month for me.hope it is to you 2.

DoA CaRi JoDoH!!!!!!!

2005-07-10T12:43:00.000+08:00

" Ya Tuhan, kalau dia memang jodohku,
jodohkanlah......
tapi kalau bukan jodohku,
jodohkanlah jugak....
jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku,
maka jadikanlah kami jodoh.....
kalau dia bukan jodohku,
jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain,selain aku....
kalau dia tidak bisa di jodohkan denganku,
jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain,
biarkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti,
diriku......
Dan saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh,
jodohkanlah kami kembali.....
kalau dia jodoh orang lain,
putuskanlah!
Jodohkanlah dengan ku.....
jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain,
biar orang itu ketemu jodoh dengan yang lain dulu dan,
kemudian jodohkan kembali dia dengan ku....
" AMIN....."

thanks mr imad for this doa. harharhar what a powerfull doa this is hehehehehehe :)
just wandering ader sesaper ker yg amalkan doa nih btul². hehehehehehehe

the haka!!!

2005-06-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

Origin of the Haka
According to Maori ethos, Tama-nui-to-ra, the Sun God, had two wives, Hine-raumati, the Summer maid, and Hine takurua, the Winter maid. The child born to him and Hine-raumati was Tane-rore, who is credited with the origin of the dance. Tane-rore is the trembling of the air as seen on the hot days of summer, and represented by the quivering of the hands in the dance.
Haka is the generic name for all Maori dance. Today, haka is defined as that part of the Maori dance repertoire where the men are to the fore with the women lending vocal support in the rear. Most haka seen today are haka taparahi, haka without weapons.
More than any aspect of Maori culture, this complex dance is an expression of the passion, vigour and identity of the race. Haka is not merely a past time of the Maori but was also a custom of high social importance in the welcoming and entertainment of visitors. Tribal reputation rose and fell on their ability to perform the haka (Hamana Mahuika).
Haka reflected the concerns and issues of the time, of defiance and protest, of factual occurrences and events at any given time

Haka History
The centrality of the haka within All Black rugby tradition is not a recent development. Since the original "All Black" team of "New Zealand Natives" led by Joseph Warbrick the haka has been closely associated with New Zealand rugby. Its mystique has evolved along with the fierce determination, commitment and high level skill which has been the hallmark of New Zealand's National game.
The haka adds a unique component, derived from the indigenous Maori of New Zealand, and which aligns with the wider Polynesian cultures of the Pacific.
The All Blacks perform the haka with precision and intensity which underpin the All Black approach.

Leader KA MATE! KA MATE!
We're going to die! We're going to die!

Chorus KA ORA, KA ORA!
We're going to live! We're going to live

Leader KA MATE! KA MATE!
We're going to die! We're going to die!

Chorus KA ORA, KA ORA!
We're going to live! We're going to live!
TENEI TE TANGATA PU'RU-HURU
This is the man, so hairy
NA'A NEI TIKI MAI WHAKA-WHITI TE ...
who fetched, and made shine the .
.. RA! HUPANE! KA-UPANE!
sun! Upward step! Another ... !
A HUPANE! KA-UPANE!
An upward step! Another... !
WHITI TE RA!
The sun shines!
HI !

argh!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-18T16:25:00.000+08:00

today was a very historic day in my life.rite now i'm damn angry at my little sweet bro.he did something so painful 2 watch.i really do not know how on earth he managed 2 get hold of my hp.suddenly i realize he was holding it beside the tempayan at my house.i just can said min² pls give me the hp bck but at the same time with a smile he drop it into the tempayan.no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's the only thing that i managed to do.jahanam hp aku lerr.argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! abis gaji starbucks aku buat beli hp agi, argh!!!!!!!!!!!! sgt tension.nk marah my little bro tak boleh coz dier ader big lisence in my house to do anything.ni kener pow parent aku for new hp since their anak kesayangan yg condemkan hp aku.argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just wanna ask hp nokia aper yg best but below rm650.k adios.

mY jOuRnEy2

2005-06-16T20:15:00.000+08:00

after come bck frm kerteh i rileks for 1 nite.then the nxt saturday i went 2 batu pahat for my classmate wedding.hmmm mr jawe lerrr.i went with medan n moff.hehehehehe some how we stuck in a jam at seremban. damn!! the goverment should do something about that problem lerr.after that we arrived at batu pahat nearly 3.00pm.we wait at at the toll for biol to pick us n b our guide 2 go to jawe's house.this time around there's a lot of jasinians that attended the wedding.mostly frm my class ler.aina(anod),sare n sulastri(suleh),hezza,kucheng n aqil.it's fun to see them lerr.after lepaks at jawe's house for 2 hour we make our move bck to kl.we arrived around 8.00pm.after that i tido at moff's house, enjoy playing ps2 game's especially fifa street.then the nxt day moff,medan n i started our journey to the north cz we have to attend skeimc's wedding lerr.the we arrived at taiping around 1.00pm.after lepaks at the wedding for 2 hours, kite org pun chow lerr.the wedding were nice cz dpt mkn cendoi lerr.damn best siutt the cendoi,harharharhar.the jasinians yg attend selain dr kiteorg cume suleh,peya,aina n miji.
so in 4 days i've all over malaysia lerrr. waaaaaa byk penat lerrr.so terpakse lerrr aku meng mc kan diri aku keesokkan ari nyer.harharhar manager leh percaye yg aku kene sakit mate daaa.sedangkan just magic yg sebabkan mate aku merah,doktor kat klinik perubatan shah alam pun berjaya aku tipu.heheheheehehehe.

mY jOuRnEy

2005-06-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

it started on thursday evening,the date was 2nd june 2005. i arrived at toll gombak around 6.45pm.so my journey to kerteh begins.i drive quite fast up to toll karak, since i quite familliar with the roads.then when i arrived at the new toll karak i was quite kuak coz i never drive in this new highways.from what i've read from news paper it is a fast but dangerous highway.at 1st i drive around 120km/h but i increase the pace up to 140km/h and maitain that speed until i arrived at kuantan toll around 9.00pm.so i took me only 2hour n 15 minutes 2 get to kuantan.i think i can get to kuantan less than 2 hour if only my car can go faster.hehehehe then i arrived at kerteh around 10.30pm.hehehehe 1st time drive on my own 2 pantai timur.what an adventure it was for me lerr.after meeting farid at his house, when 2 eat n play snooker.he had a chess game in the morning while i was surfin the internet n playing game at his house.using musafir as an excuse for not going 2 friday prayer, farid n i spent the afternoon playing games.after that i went to boye's wedding.after lepaking there with apek,ajis n bojan.i went back to farid's house.i started my journey bck to shah alam around 8.15pm n arrived safely at my house around 1.00am.

2005-05-25T14:29:00.000+08:00

hehehehehehe

2005-05-25T13:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my little bro's 3rd birthday.this little fellow always argue with me when watching tv.the reason he want 2 c cartoons while i want 2 c anything else except cartoons.guess who wins?

the ReVeNgE oF the SiTh!!!

2005-05-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

last nite i went 2 c the final movie of the star wars saga, the final chapter of the saga, revenge of the sith.
what a ride it has been for me. i've being waiting for the saga to end since i was small.20 years of waiting.it was worth, why becoz finally i understand how n why anakin skywalker turned to the darkside.the way darth siddious aka chancellor palpatine manage to manipulate the situation n events so to make sure that anakin will be on the darkside of the force, was so breath taking.it was so eleborate that even master yoda one of the most powerful jedi ever can not see it coming.at the same time it also shows u that although ur intention is good but the way u do it must b also in the correct path to make it a right thing.anakin join the darkside n became darth vader for the sake of his most beloved wife senator padme amidala.the jedi have a lot of ability one of it is being able to forsee the future through dreams.anakin has been troubled by a dream of his wife death.his heart was so distracted by this vision that it clouded his jugment.he managed to be turn into the darkside by darth siddious, for the promise that he can cheat his wife death by using the darkside of the force.in this movie also, it shows how were the jedi being betrayed by the emperor n darth vader. the were a great massacere in the jedi temple.it left none of the jedi alived. few who manage to escape only two were known to us, it was master yoda n master obi-wan kenobi.day manage to save padme amidala just in time for to give birth to nxt generations of the skywalker clan.she died after the labour but manage to give name to her twins luke n leia.which plays an integral part in the down fall of the empire n also the sith.luke will become one of the most powerful n legendary jedi ever, he manage to rebuild the jedi academy.while leia will b a senator just like her mother was.
the was only few thing that i still feel inadequated, the whole saga didn't show how was powerful the skywalker clan was, wehy on earth they didn't shows quigon-gin again until nxt time adios amigos.

the JaCkEt!!!!

2005-05-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

this is not a blog about the film the jacket starring adrien brody. this is a story about a special jacket n me.when i was a fifth former at mjsc jasin in 1998, my frens sold to me a dark blue jacket of our skool to me.it had a hood, a simple embroidery of the skool name in front at the chest, and a painting of cupin a character from ujang's workshop comic strip.i wore it all the time, cz i really like the material of the jacket.i feel so confortable when i'm wearing that jacket.almost every day when i was still skooling i'll wore that jacket, i became so attached to it.so when i finish skooling th jacket kinda b a reminder to me anout my skooling days.still it is my most favorite jacket.i do wore it every time i went to see a late night movie wit my fren.when asked why i still wearing a jacket with my skool name, i just said i like the jacket itself, but it is the truth.when the time to go to UTM i still bring it with me.the jacket has been like a benda wajib untuk di bawak to every where for me.i wear it when i go to classes, when i in the bus, i mean every where, must have that jacket.it has become something that is so preacious to me.so when i went to uitm segamat i, the 1st thing to bring was my favorite jacket.still with me all the way to the jungle of segamat.the jacket made me feel safe everytime i wear it.when i was transfer to uitm shah alam, still the jacket stay with me.damn the jacket n me can not be separated anymore.it is been a integral part of my life.i never let any one wear it.cz i'm afraid something bad might happen to it.then some one who was very close to me manage to persuade me to lent the jacket to him/her.with a heavy heart i lent it, becz he/she kinda close to my heart 2 at that time.so i was being separated for the 1st time in our history.though i get to see it once n awhile, i made me kinda worry about its condition.then the worse thing that could happen arrived, i had a very big n ugly fight with the person who lent my favorite jacket.so many things was in my mind at that time that i totally forgot about my jacket.then after 2 years or so, i manage to contact that person and ask for that jacket of mine.i was so devastated to hear the answer from that person that he/she do not where the jacket was.i felt my heart was torn into millions of pieces.till today i wish i had never lent it away, cz i really miss it so much.it was there for me through my happy n bad times.i do not whether there's another thing like it cz the jacket that has shared many adventures with me.i miss it somuch!!!!!!! i hope if there any of my bacth member reading this blog, n has that same kind of jacket can u pls lent it to me so i can duplicate it again.may b if i manage to duplicate it i can have a copy of that jacket.although it might look similar but it is still not the same.something which was with u through all ur rough times will always have a special place in side of ur heart.

LoS MeReNgUeS

2005-05-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

although this season the laliga champion is barca but definitely the team of the moment 4 me is always been Real Madrid. y....... it is becoz they overcome one hell of a season.they started so badly with few winning which they did not deserved at all.then came the savior mr wanderley luxemburgo.he personally change the team attitude n style of play.towards the end the team play like they r the champion. hope they can bring the momentum into nxt seasons.well done amigos. all the best.u r always be one of my love is this world.

KiNgDoM of HeAvEn!!!!

2005-05-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

it is almost a week since i wrote a blog.i've been busy with few things in my life.some how my fren manage 2 persuade me to see the movie Kingdom of Heaven. at 1st i was very sceptical about this movie, becz i already knows it is about the crusade or perang salib.normally hollywood will b bias 2wards the muslim people.after seeing it, i can say it is one of the best movie ever made about crusade.it really shows which side is at fault.it also shows to the world the real qualities of Salahuddin AL-Ayubi aka saladin(as he was called by the westerner).after lotr i don't think i'll saw another epic battle scenes in a movie ever again.in this movie although its kinda small compare to lotr but still it is a huge epic battle.in the movie shows how the genius of Salahuddin AL-Ayubi as a master tactian which lead the muslim 2 victory over the christian, and reclaim jerusalem to the muslims again.until nxt time adios.

well done liverpool!!!

2005-05-06T14:49:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm what a happier result 4 liverpool football club.finally after 20 years they managed 2 get themself back into the champion league final.sorry to say that i'm no longer a fan of this club, but still i'm happy for them.although they may not win or play in this compeition nxt seasons, it will b a good run for the club for a quite some time.i really love the expression of jose"the arrogant"mourinho when the finals whistle was blown.harharharhar it was priceless.u r not the best mourinho!!! u just a great whiner.a liar is more perfect 2 describe this man.mourinho n chelsea is at the top of my most hated list.harharharharharharhar.so well done liverpool for defeatin mourinho n his band of arrogant but not skill footballers.

marriage!!!

2005-05-03T02:53:00.000+08:00

ystrday i just got 2 invitation 4 2 wedding in this coming month.
i said to a fren of mine, damn!!!!! so many of our colleague r getting marry while i'm still
hasn't got any girlfren.my fren said to me back well join the club.luckily there's 2 other of my closest fren which is in the same position.
but it made me thinking about my own life.what i really wanna do with it.
actually i do know what to do. but hearing n seeing most of my fren already married or getting marry make me terbalik lerr.presssure lerr, why? they have already living my dreams where else i'm not.it is every man dreams to have a good job, find a nice woman n settle down.
a good job can easily b found but a nice woman which can satisfied ur heart is very hard to find.
watching most of my fren now have a wife or a gurlfren, they make it look so easy to b done.
the reality it is hard to do.
my problem right now is that i really wanna find a woman that i can call my bini.not awek.why when u call a woman ur bini it shows that u really wanna marry this gurl.this gurl is the 1 for u.ur future wife.
it is hard 2 b alone, with no one to share ur feelings.loneliness...........damn it is sucks.
u can try so many things to get over it. just like i did.i do drugs......hehehehehe only marijuana.i did drinks except for beer(i hate it)........i prefer liquor.it helps just for temporary.then the loneliness came again,so the circles start again.
finally i manage to quit those things except 4 the marijuana which i still smoke it but kadang² jer.
i realized those thing only helps me for a moment not even getting over it.
that's why i can really feel i mean really dig akon's song lonely except that i don't have any girlfren.
hehehehe loneliness can definitely kill u from the inside.it kills u painfully n very slowly.u wish u were dead along time ago.
afraid................

a sad day!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-03T02:30:00.000+08:00

2nd of may 2005 will always b remembered by me n my fellow batchmate of jasin98 as one of our saddest day ever.coz ystrday our bevoled GODfather(bapa angkat) uncle Raof passed away around 10 in d morning.
i'm surely gonna miss him a lot.although i started close with him only few years ago, he managed to make me feel like i've been close 2 him for along time.
for me he is a great example of a great man.in the face of great perils he always turn to God Almighty for help.he just can turn his back on my batchmate n i after haris died, but he stay on n b a major part of life 2 most jasinians98.
uncle never short with great advices for me everytime i went 2 c him.even when he's not well he managed to give me a great advice.he ask my fellow batchmate n i 2 stop smoking.that's his last advice to me.
everytime i went to his house,he and his family always welcome us as if i was their son.i was really touch by unlce's gestured towards me.everytime i went to his house it was hard for me to leave. why? becoz i was so happy when i'm in his house.
we can talk everything to him n ask for his opinion.he always help my batchmate n i when we need someone to talk.
he also always ask us to b faithfull to GOD n our parents.he always lead the prayer when we pray at his house.he is for me an example of a leader.
may god bless him n his family.
if i gonna have my own family i really hope that i can b like him.he is my idol.really hope i can follow the way he lead his family.
just like Don Corleone in the movie Godfather, he is figure head of jasianians98.
Uncle Raof u r gonna b miss but not Forgotten.
the legacy that u left behind will always make us remember u for all eternity.

women!!!

2005-04-30T18:54:00.000+08:00

after seeing a lot of movies n also based by my own experience, i can say that women r really love to make a irrational deceision when they r angry.why i didn't know.it is still a mystery to me.hehehehe,after consulting my frens,they totally agree with me.for us men, we prefer to say our problem then discuss it to search for a better solution but for women they tend to the opposite, they will kept something for a long time then they will pour all of the dissactisfaction at once.luckily i didn't have any gf, if not if she read this, she will definitely b angry with me.actually by writing this blog i didn't intend to provoke any women, but for me to understand this type of behavior.when u make a deceision based on ur emotional state it will effect ur judgement.hope there's a women that can answer this issue to me.k adios.

it's been a long time!!!!

2005-04-30T18:35:00.000+08:00

alhamdullillah coz finally i got the oppurnity 2 write at this blog again lerr.it's been one hell 0f a week.since my last entry there's been a lot things going on.damn in la liga the refs shows like their biase towards letting barca win the title.come on pls b fair lerrr.in champion league liverpool manage to get a draw against chelsea at stamford bridge.but they must b very careful not to let chelsea score a goal at anfield.last nite got a chence to play futsal...... damn pancit siutt, coz dah lamer tak exercise lerr.hmmm also i came to realize n came out with a solution about something which has bothered me for along time.harharharharr it is a happy week lerr.

from johor with..........

2005-04-21T12:24:00.000+08:00

reporting live from jb, hehehehehe gonna spend maulud holiday at jb with me good fren adham.it is been a long time since i was in utm , finally i manage to came back to the place which i started my life as university student.it brings a lot of memories from those days. some a happy and others are sad.the place has changed but there's still recognizeble building 2 me.hmmmm miss my good ol' days lerr.k adios.

D'montel reports

2005-04-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

2 day the game was between d'montel n storm.alhamldullilah 2day d'montel have enough player with reserve 2 spare.hmmm what a suprise 4 me when pian kcik sname the position for all of us.fuess what he want me 2 play as a blind wing harharharhar what a joke.but sadly it is the truth.i've 2 play blind wing for the 1st time 4 d'montel.manage 2 play 4 almost half time before the star of the d'montel team replace me.he is pian big.1st ended with the score 7 all.but some how in the 2nd half although we d'montel controle the game we didn't manage to score any point.the storm team attack twice only n they scored.damn the lady luck hasn't smile for us again.most of the time we play at the storm half.handling error cost us the game.the player for 2 day game are

the forwards:
hooker-zubir(kupan)
prop-wak n ucop
2nd row sofie(andi) n azmeer aka maybank
flanker- ajis lion n azmi
number 8-arip matori- lion legend
the backline
halfback aka scrumhalf - pian kecik
flyhalf -pak yeh
inside- bozo(pian big)
centre-kupan(bozo)
open wing-soyot
blind wing - skin(haji fuadjr)
one cheer for d'montel!!!!!!!!!!! hurrah!!!!!!!!!!

hurrah!!!!!

2005-04-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

this week have been such a good week for me except my back still hurts from the injury i suffred from last week rugby game.hehehehehe liverpool did something so special. they manage 2 prove the critics n fans wrong by defeating juventus by 2-1 agregregates.what a nite for liverpool fans.after 20 years finaly liverpool manage 2 get into the semi finals of champion league. hope liverpool can defeat chelsea.last weekend also show the world that REAL MADRID is the true galacticos by defeating barcelona in the el classico.real did show their true capability n class.hope real will play like that for nxt seasons.for this week hope my teammates will come to the game coz it's been 2 week since D'MONTEL has enough player to play.k adios.

marriage aka kawen!!!!!

2005-04-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

few days ago i met a good fren of mine from school.
he is one of many of my batch member who already manage 2 get married.
what a lucky guy!!!!
marriage is kinda sensitive subject 2 some of us right?
for me it is a very big step to take.
why..... becoz as a man, u r gonna b the leader of ur family,
it is a very big responsibility.as muslim u have 2 didik n tunjuk ur wife to the right path.
hehehehe kalo diri sendiri pon tak betul cam ner laks nak tunjuk kat wife jln yg betul.
i know in this world there's some issue concerning marriage for womans.
especially wether ur future husband can b trusted or not.
it is very hard to say this thing coz i'm a man but man r stupid.
becoz there's man who have everything such a good wife n family, but still he wanna get marry for 2nd time.
for me he's a fool becoz things not gonna b easier as u predict but it's gonna get so messy.
but to all my woman fren, do not let this thing get to u. always think good about ur man.
pray a lot to the GOD almighty that ur future husband gonna b insan rabbani.godly man.
from what i've seen all my fren who have get married their life seems happier compare to me.
i speak of this things becoz i'm sick of hearing a guy did polygamy when he already has a very good wife.
it happen a lot in my family.mostly the 2nd wife are not better than the first but worst.
they married out of nafsu jerr.
so pls to all my fren who r a man pls b faithfull 2 ur wife or spouse. b a gentleman!!!!!
to all my fren who r a woman pls also b faithfull 2 ur husband.b a good muslimah.
and pls take a good care of urself so the husband cannot have an excuse to get marry again.
hehehehehe

emotions

2005-04-05T16:32:00.000+08:00

emotion, is one of the things that we human have in common with any living being on earth.
some people say u must think of ur emotion 1st before anyone else. but there's also a saying u must think about what people feeling before urs.which one is true for all of us.for me u must know what is ur own situation before making ur judgement whether u wanna choose urs or the people 1st.asses ur stiutation very carefully becoz it can effect ur life and the people around u.sometimes u still can make a mistake although u've give a careful thought about it.i did learnt it the hard way.it is sucks when u really hurt some one who is close to u, although u really didn't meant to hurt them.i really thought the person who gonna get hurt was me coz that thing was so stupid, but it turn out it coz my fren to hurt even more than me.again i beg for forgiveness from u my fren.i've been regretting for the whole weekend and i still feel it today.
that's is why u must think very carefull when u wanna voice out ur emotion coz it is very dangerous.
emotion is the controller of our mind.our mind does not have the control over our emotion, for example sometime when we r angry we do the things that we gonna regrets.
so better be very carefull with ur n people emotion, becoz it can came back n haunt u.

maafkan daku kawan!!!!!

2005-04-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

last friday i made a fatal mistake which hurt one of my good fren.damn i really didn't mean it.
i'm really sori my fren to coz u a lot of pain.pls except my highest apologise 4 what i've done 2 u.
this is a part of song i wanna dedicate 2 u.

MAAFKAN KAMI!MAAF KAMI!
MAAFKAN KAMI! MAAFKAN KAMI!
MAAFKAN KAMI!MAAFKAN KAMI!

pls forgive me my dear fren, shouldn't do what i did.
pls u can do anything to me as long as u'll forgive me.
rela di hukum lerr kerana menyakiti hati u my fren.

vogue

2005-03-28T19:33:00.000+08:00

a few weeks ago one of my best fren asked me what is the meaning of vogue by my own definition.
so here goes.
vogue:
for me when this word is for woman who can dress themself based on the occation their gonna attend 2 where their dress n make up gonna be the talk of the function..
for example when attending a function she would wear an evening gown with so beautiful n intimidating to the other womans who when to that function.if is a malay woman i would prefer her to wear an ol' skool baju kebaya.but she must have an ass or a body 2 die for.hehehehehehe.

sakit!!!!!!!

2005-03-28T19:16:00.000+08:00

ishishishish nak citer kekejaman yg telah di lakukan oleh teammates aku. last saturday my team had a game vs um united at pdg utara but some how only 12 player were available. damn we were short on man power.penat siut main biler team tak cukup org.dah lerr kener main fulltime laks.when playing rugby in rain without enough man u can expect that u gonna kick in the ass.alasan apsal dier org tak dtg was they didn't know that the game has been chage from sunday 2 saturday.sakit siut badan aku nih.hehehehehehe although it was fun but still rase bengang cz i did a stupid mistake which the opponent get a try from my mistake.

a good AdVIce!!!!!!!!

2005-03-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

last sunday i went to c my godfather.he's now sick becoz of canser. he give my fren n i a good advice. 2 who do SMOKE pls stop it becoz although he didn't get lung or mouth canser he said that smoking is one of the main reason he got the illness in the 1st place.
to my fren pls take this as a lesson for all of us.
hereby i admit that i'm no longer a smoker since last sunday.hehehehehe by stop smoking u can save a lot of money 2!!!!!!
ok adios.

haZE!!!!!!JErEbU!!!!!!

2005-03-23T17:39:00.000+08:00

22/03/05
SHAH ALAM around 1.30pm, i went 4 lunch wit imad n din suddenly i realize that my vision kinda blurry.
i thought 2 myself of my GOD!!!!!! something is wrong with my eyes.may b it is coz by waking up late n 2 much seating in front of the monitors?! than suddenly it hit me, may b shah alam is in haze. so i asked imad wether shah alam is in haze n he answered yess lerrr skin. huh............ i feel so glad hehehehehehe i didn't have any defect in my eyes. anyway why on earth shah alam is in haze!!!!!! it is becoz of that land clearing done by those developers which is actually a very big mistake created by the MB himself.hehehehehehehe.damn yesterday my housing area was again being fogged by the MBSA, damn AEDES mosquitoes!!! hehehehehehe
byed pls don't b angry with the pictures that i post. sajer nak try² post but tak sengaje terpost ur fingers lerr.hehehehe sori.

2005-03-23T17:38:00.000+08:00

raRE DEer HOrn fingER!!!!!

what i did last weekend!!!!!!

2005-03-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

on saturday i woke up around 1 pm.the nite before i was lepaking wit medan until 5 am.before that i went 2 c the movie HITCH with sweet miss byed. she nearly cried during the movie.hehehehehehhe.that evening went to play rugby but again i was put in the reserves.have to get fit again n change my playing position from flanker to inside or outside.damn!!!! my team didn't win but just manage a draw.
on sunday woke up kinda early around 7.30 am n help my parents around the house.after that i rush to go n pick miss aina so we both can go to awad's wedding.it only take 20 minutes to get to aina house using the ol' shah alam -sg buloh road.what a record!!!!!! with out being sesat although baru 1st time go to her house.
giler panas siutt malaysia nih, dehydration all of us guys who went to awad's wedding but luckily the AIR GURL(miss aina n miss byed) was there to help us by bring 3 jug of syrup.
hmmmm thres few thing happen after that but i just don't want to write coz it is not important.
although i must say that BYED'S HAND GOT THE MOST ATTENTION COMPARE 2 AWAD' HIMSELF!!!!!!!!!! tree branch hand and deer horn fingers what a combination. hehehehehehehe

CHAMPION LEAGUE QUARTER FINALS!!!!

2005-03-21T18:36:00.000+08:00

inter milan vs ac milan.
what a match that would b. 2 eternal rivals who share the same home ground, the legendary san siro stadium.
harharhar imad i'm sorry my fren but i think ac gonna kick inter out of the champion league again.
juventus vs liverpool
damn liverpool gonna have a torrid time when this two face each other coz on the paper juve is the better teams.
chelsea vs bayern
come on bayern pls beat the shit out of chelsea. damn how could a team which so fucking boring with an arrogant manager can still b in this competition.
lyon vs psv
definitely lyon gonna make it into the semi finals.

hehehehehehe

2005-03-21T18:06:00.000+08:00

never xpect myself to write a blog before but it seem a fun thing to do after reading my fren's blog.
why naming my blog marijuana, marijuana/mary jane/ganja is a natural drug.it is the most common drug that u caN find all over the world. the rasta is the only people in the world that can bring marijuana in to another country....... i think.but the best place on earth r still holland where all drugs a legalize.
wether i do smoke it it is between me n god to know hehehehehehehehe, the best film about marijuana is still by 2 of wu tang members method man n red man, the movie is call how high.