2012

it's been 2 years since i updated this blog.
it's been a really long is not?..been busy with life
what to write after 2 years of being away from it.
so many things had happened in my life,
some of it happy moments and some of it sad moments.
1st gonna write the happy moments and for the sad moments
may be gonna write it..not sure yet.
okay i'll start with what had happened in 2011.

1. at the end of january 2011 my friends and i finally did our diving license. guess what we did it at semporna sabah. it was one of the most best experience in my life. so we did our open water and nat geo diver license. than after that we did dive at sipadan island, mataking island, sibuan island and timba2. well words can't describe my feeling to have dive at those beautiful islands. personally diving give me the serenity that i can't have in kuala lumpur.
   

wow

hahaha..it's been 2 years since i write anything in this blog..:(
there's a lot of things i wanna write but i just don't have the mood to type this past 2 years.

hmmm... so what i gonna write today? not much......

writing bout something that made me pissed off,

well that's always the theme here in my blog..hehehehe.

well today i'm kinda pissed off coz today is the day i really give up on having a gf, give up on the most ridiculous thing on this world.

why you may ask me? the reason is that i don't think i can find a right girl for myself.
the person that i always like, is always the person that i can never have.

don't know why it always happened to me. may be i'm not lucky in that department. may be i'm to messed up...to be someone bf..:(

i'm not broken hearted, believe me..to have your heart be broken you need to be in love.

but i have had lost those feeling back in 2002. never let myself fall in love again.

so now i don't fall in love just liking somebody only. may be that's my flaw but to fall in love is to open my heart to the risk of getting hurt. don't wanna be hurt..coz it's really sucks.

back to the main topic..i just give up...i think it is better for me. right now just follow the flow..hehehe
may be one day in the future GOD will give me a chance but i don't bet on it.

peace!

3 hours 2 go!

in 3 hours time i'm gonna be able to watch ABs vs munster match.
hope it gonna be one hell of a match.
gotta stay awake for to wait for that match!
since i've been able to watch rugby online it's been heaven to me.

come ABs! don't let me down!
this weekend there's a lot more matches to bee seen.
what a wonderful i have now!

ok adios,
my next post gonna be the report of the game tonite!

rugby matches + petrol price

for the past 2 weeks i managed to watched 8 match of rugby test matches.
although it didn't even show at astro.
stupid astro.
but lucky me i did join myp2p for live sports.
it is a place where you can watch movies, tv and sport online.
it is a place which tell you where you can watch streaming live sports.
i really fall in love with this website.
now i can watch rugby and boxing.
2 of the sport which kinda out of place here in malaysia.

oh yeah just heard in the news that tomorrow petrol price in malaysia going down again.
the new price is rm2.
they should put it down to rm1.92 just like last time.

hope by Wednesday they will be few people that gonna stream All Blacks vs munster match.
really wanna see weepu as ABs captain.
rugby forever.

Elven Blood

elven blood is just a rpg game that i play at facebook.
i's introduced to it by sodom @ wan idris.
after that i's hook on it until now.
almost all the time i'm in front of the computer playing this game.
hahaha..i even spend around usd 50 to buy blessing.
damn man i really addicted to this game.
although it's a simple kinda game it just give me a thrill to play it.

right now i'm at the level of 83.
my fighting stat is 187 wins and 146 loses.
right now i'm try to gather a lot of heal spell.
hahaha..hope i can better my stats in the future.

feeling unsure.

right now i really unsure what is the next step in my life.
there's few projects which can insure my life for few years yet i really need the funding.
i really need to discuss it with my dad and hope he can help me to search for fund.

the 1st problem how can i tel himl about it? how should i discuss it with him.
since i's little i never ask him for anything that big.
right i'm calculating how on earth i'm gonna say to him.
which projects should i say 1st to him.
how much that i'm gonna ask him personally to fund for starting my company.
hope he can loan me around rm30000.00
of i've to pay him interest plus the loan itself.

i've to to do the paperwork to convince my dad on my projects.

the other thing that i'm not sure is my love life.
should i wait for the girl i've been in love for so long or should i move on other girl.
argh!!! what to do! i really lost on both topics.

hope i resolve one of it before the end of this month.

wanting something that can't be yours is always a human thing.

even there's no hope for me to have her..i'll always have her in my heart.
my love for is the real thing.

the matter of the heart is much more consuming my mind than the matter of business.
that's not right..right?
hehehe...come on skin grow up!
settle the business 1st than you can settle matter of the heart.

need to move on in life, don't want to fall behind again.
need to step up!
confront life head on!

skin life!

point of impact

the title above is a reference to one of the book that i manage to finish reading this month.
the book is about gunnery Sargent bob lee swagger.
a legendary sniper in nam.
the book tell the stories of his life in vietnam and also after that.
after he retired from the marine and live a solitary life. he was coerced by ramdyne a cia backs ops group to to help them in catching a sniper who wanted to kill the president.
actually they just wanna used him as a scape goat for killing the archbishop of salvador.

for me stephen hunter really capture the essence of art of sniping.
for me i'm a fan of snipers.
to me they are epitome of the best of the best.
"One shot One kill"
for most out there they think sniper is a dirty job.
but to me it is a honor job to be done.
they did not kill sensibly...they kill when they were command to do it.
usely their target is the enemy not the civilians.
when use properly sniper can minimize lost on your side and also can demoralized the enemy.
also sniper can be used to kill a specific target.

it was my dream to be a sniper.
but it is just a dream.
to be a sniper means to be an elite of all sharpshooter.
the ability to conceal oneself from nothing else but the target.

fall in love with snipers since the 1st day that i heard about the shot through scope.
done by mr carlos hathcock of the marine in nam.

carlos hathcock is one of the legend in sniping.
there's a lot more out there sniper that are more legendary than him.

in the US, marine sniper and army ranger sniper are the best.

"One Shot One Kill"

hari raye dh dekat

hahahaha...what a title,
hm...this year again i didn't fast for 7 days already.
ish2 a bad habit...hahahaha.
hope next year i can finish ramadhan with full 30 days.
this hari raye, i didn't do much shopping cause i already spend my money on 2 timberland shoes before ramadhan.
so this hari raye just use my money for ang pow for my sibling and my cousins.

really hope after hari raye all of my projects can run smoothly.
already pay up my zakat.
this year it went up to rm5.20 frm rm4.20 last year.
haven't see my current gf for 3 month already.
still missing a girl faraway frm malaysia.

hope after raye my life gonna be much better than now.
hope i can change few aspect of my life.
hope to save some money so i can goes to ireland and confess my love...hahahaha.

ok tht's all folks for this post!