wild hog

last nite i managed to c the film wild hog.
starring john travolta, tim allen, william h.macy and martin lawrence.
dh ler semlm sebok giler.
balik dari office pun dlm kul 8.30pm.
pastuh gi amik laks the girl kt serdang....nasib baik sempat gak sampai kt
berjaya times square on time.
so dpt ngk show yg kul 9.30pm.
the movie was fun to watch...we both have a good laugh.
the girl siap menjerit lagi cz die terase agak takut.
after tht we when to eat at maulana food court kt seri kembangan..ala dekat ngn minlon tuh.
pas tuh lepaking kt situ sampai kul 2.am
lamer siut hang out with tht girl.
the film finished at around 11.15pm.
semlm aku mmg terase kt syurga ler...hehehehehe.... :D.
after tht meet up with blue and when to c the game between man u vs ac milan.
balik ke rumah sempat jer gi download few episode of the manga fairy tail.
pastuh baru tido..... what a day. ler.
but still aku berpuas hati cz dpt spend time with the girl ler.
she made my life so meaningful..... :D.

this few days

well...this past few days have been quite fun for me.
last thursday...i spend time with baby...all nite long..talking about everything.
at tht time the girl tht i like so much went to c---s with my friends.
i didn't have the mood cz i can't d---k yet....hehehehe.
we just only talk...didn't do nothing else cz i'm a man of honour.
i really want to go tht nite cz the girl was so cute n sexy..but i felt kesian kt baby so
i stay with her.
she give me few pointer on how to win the girl heart.
thks baby!!!!
the next day...friday...did nothing just hanging around with all the girls and my friend. lali was angry cz tk masuk kejer agi...hehehehe..sori lali.
tht nite lepaks with imad and maikel.
saturday..have few jobs to do...did it...although tk masuk office agi...hehehehe.
tht evening there's the final game for the bowl chapioship at pdg utara where my team dmontel vs hskoba.
we won it convicingly...byk laks player yg turun tuh.
and last nite when to see good charlotte nyer consert at bukit jalil.
blk dari situ...tgh lapar dpt laks sms dari lea yg die ader msk spagetti...rezeki aku beb.
so tht's my weekend for you guys.
sunday ni laks tk der buat paper ler...just lepaking at my house jer.

tick tock tick tock

don't why i'm always write in this blog early in the morning...hehehehe.

....now the time is...6.25am 18 april 2007.

it's been one hell of year so far.

have a lot of things to do.

especially my jobs.

have a lot things to plan for my future.

hope at least get few things done by end of the year.

this year i started it by doing just the usual thing like hanging out on new year eve at my home feeling awful....hahahaha.

january past me by without any significcance to me.

than in february......started to get jiggy again.

why?.....i started to go to c---s again.

start to d---k again.

hm.....to some it's kinda bad thing to do.

well to me...it's mean to relieve me of my misery and pain.

keep walking is the motto of one of my favorite d---k.

unexpectedly in march i manage to like this girl so much.

hehehehe......what a timing to fall for a girl.

last year i manage to fall in love with another girl but than i realise it would never happen in a million years...why...she my fantasy girl...a girl tht i would never gonna get.

my feeling is just for me to know only.

than i move on with my life.

this new girl i already known her since last year.

the 1st time we met was at Z--k.

manage to took a picture with her...she's cute.

1stly i attracted to her cute and sweet face.

afterwards when we become closer...i really like her personality and her attitude.

we hang out together quite often now.

go to c---s together...go to karaoke together.

spend a lot of time together.

april----> this past 2month..i'm so active in enjoying myself to the fullest.

cannot remember how many time i went to karaoke and c---s.

almost all the time she there with me.

this girl...tht i like so much already shown me tht

she's the type of girl tht can take care herself....in c---s.

she didn't smoke, d---k and flirt around.

damn i like her a lot.

her smile make my day.

also i realise tht i already be a heavy d---ker again in my life time.

tipsy is like a must for me---->took the wrong way again..hehehehe.

my business is going well just need few things to be tied up.

hope can get break with her in the coming month.

oh yeah...almost forgot i must write in this blog for at least once week.

a summary of my pitiful yet exciting life...hahahahaha.

my heart

it's been a long time since i write anything here in my blog.
the reason.....i'm just lazy.
now i have to write in it cozz i'm feeling quite down rite now.
there's no other place that i can pour my heart out.
last month i met a girl that i haven't saw for quite a time.
suddenly my heart became unstable.
everytime i was around her my heart beat become so fast.
everytime i saw her smiling it made my day.
she did ask me to help her..i did it without any questions.
i even miss out on a party just to see her face.
at that moment i realized that i'm in love with this girl.
the problem is she didn't know my feeling towards her and also
she's still studying at ireland. where else i'm here in malaysia.
my heart finally open itself to love again but this time i know my heart gonna be broken again.
but one thing i know if i lost her..i will regret it for the rest of my life.
she's so hard to get...i didn't have any slice of confidence to win her heart.
yet i didn't want to lose her...i love her so much.
she's the most perfect woman that i can find on this earth.
i just don't know how to win her heart.......just don't know how.
since the day she went back to ireland i haven spoken to her...i miss her voice, her smile and her presence.
i need her in my life.........in my heart she's close but in reality she's no where near me at all.
why i fall in love with somebody that out of my league.
i know she'll never accept me as her guy.
but why i'm still hoping for a miracle to happen.
the ending of this story i already knows but why must i wish n hope a fantasy will happen in the middle of this story.
why....oh...why my heart you wish for something that out of your reach.
why must u fall for someone that deep inside you know will never choose you.
why...oh...why my heart u wish for a fantasy.
the reality is the fact of life not fantasy.
yet the reality i love noorf_____ so much!!!!!!!!

Saksi n BadMinTon

last wednesday i got a surprise called from my friend..farid@bala.
he said he 1 me to be a saksi for his wedding.
terkezut aku di buat nyer.....hehehehehehe ingat member dh kene cekup.
rupenyer nak kawen nih rumit jugak die nyer prose.
mamat 2 terpakse mintak at least 7 signatures baru leh diluluskan dek jais 2.
so terpakse ler aku n adham jadi saksi mamat 2.
after lunch,farid dtg amik aku n adham pastuh kiterang pon gi ler masjid for zohor prayer.huh...lamer siut tk gi masjid for zohor prayer....hehehehehe.
dh ler 2 dtg awal laks 2.sembahyang kt sof pertame n aku solat laks dekat blakang
imam 2.hehehehehe jd bahan gelak member² jer ler.after that baru dpt jumper,
imam juru nikah 2.after dpt signature die baru gi pejabat jais nk confirm leh kawen.lamer siut aku n adham waiting for farid nyer kebenaran nk kawen 2.
ader ler dekat 2 hours.damn berbulu jer biler ngk advertansi kt tv yg servis
gomen dh jd lagi bagus.aku rase samer nyer.
bagus jugak si farid ajak aku nih cz baru tau yg nk kawen nih byk laks
prosedur nyer.
that nite adham,red,imad,farid,din,medi and aku gi main badminton laks.
dh lamer tk main skill nyer dh berkarat siut.
biase main double..tk larat nk main single but si adham ajak gaks main single,pastuh main style baru laks...21 baru abih game.hehehehehe kalah but
fight ler.21-19,21-19 gaks.
ok ler adios.

99 SECRETS GIRLS HAVE TO KNOW ABOUT GUYS.

this a few things girls need to know about guys.with commentary by me skin.

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.(skin's comment: it's the truth)

2. Guys hate flirts.(skin's comment: yup hate teaser ler.)

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
(skin's comment:definitely if you are annoying.)

4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.(skin's comment:yup)

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
(skin's comment:regular ice breaker.)

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep,
they always think about the girl they truly care about.
(skin's comment:this is the truth)

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad
characteristics.(skin's comment:never see bad things in ur love ones.)

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.(skin's comment:it just lit up my life.)

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
(skin's comment:sometimes they over do it.)

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
(skin's comment:same with girls right..when guy did the opposite.)

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
(skin's comment:no harm can b done.)

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure
have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and
it is drinking!
skin's comment: no comment.)

13. Guys cry!!!(skin's comment:certain time.)

14. Don't provoke(irritate) the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
(skin's comment:girls love to do this to guys.)

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.(skin's comment:guy fantazie too much.)

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and
this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
(skins comment: it's true....done it before..so stupid.)

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.(skin's comment:true.)

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never
mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
(skin's comment:who's in the right mind like that even girls.)

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
(skin's comment:i didn't about this one.)

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.(skin's comment:hmmm......)

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for
you.
(skin's comment:but girls still wouldn't understand it.)

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
(skin's comment:missunderstanding.hehehehe.)

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the
message clearly.(skin's comment:yup its true..never give guys doulble meaning.)

24. Guys hate gays! (skin's comment:of course..gays sucks man!!)

25. Guys love their moms.(skin's comment:mom gave life to us.)

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
(skin's comment:not just for roses..everything.)

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't
mean that the guy likes her.(skin's comment:hahahahaha)

28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.(skin's comment:it's true.)

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
(skin's comment:yup..a man heart can only love one person.)

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.(skin's comment:i don't think this true.)

31. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.(skin's comment:hehehehe..that's normal.)

32. Guys are very open about themselves.
(skin's comment:yup..we are open minded beings.)

33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't
let him wait that long.(skin's comment:waiting...could cost you his heart.)

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.(skin's comment: it's normal.)

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
(skin's comment:not all guys is like that.)

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that
much pretty.(skin's comment:beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.)

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
(skin's comment:seen it so many times.)

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to
listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
(skin's comment:yup.)

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases
you.(skin's comment: :) )

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
(skin's comment:afraid of losing you ler.)

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
(skin's comment:definitely.)

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.(skin's comment: not all the time get it wrong.)

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.(skin's comment:not everythings.)

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
(skin's comment:that's not true at all.)

45. Guys think too much.
(skin's comment:not true at all..girls did a lot more than guys.)

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.(skin's comment:hahahahahaha..it's true.)

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
(skin's comment: yup...it's true.)

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too
possessive. So watch out girls!!!
(skin's comment:some does and some don't.)

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be
hard for him to let go of that girl.
(skin's comment:the easier..less challenging.)

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they
broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
(skin's comment:it's the truth..been there before...hehehe.)

**51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting
involved with that guy.(skin's comment:easier for both sides.)

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's
too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.(skin's comment:learn by mistakes..what didn't kill you make you stronger.)

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
(skin's comment:some does and some don't)

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
(skin's comment:it's true....hehehehehe.)

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
(skin's comment:yup..afraid if they didn't listen to their girls they might lose
them.)

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll
probably see that he is nervous.(skin's comment:always show that you are calm.)

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
(skin's comment:crazy in love.)

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying,"Please come and listen to me"(skin's comment:of course ...men to proud 2 say it out loud.)

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.(skin's comment:not all the time lar!.)

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
(skin's comment:yup...same goes 2 the guy.)

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
(skin's comment:of course...same for guys 2.)

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
(skin's comment:but pls don't be pushy.)

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight,
but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is
wrong.
(skin's comment:try and error...we learn frm our mistake.)

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.(skin's comment:yup...it's the truth.)

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
(skin's comment:not all the time but most because of ego.)

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be
sure unless the girl tells him.
(skin"s comment:of course...if not we just think we're the only one into you.)

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
(skin's comment:hehehehehe..it's the truth.)

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
(skin's comment:in this time age it's a must.)

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
(skin's comment:men do it with out realizing it[subconcious].)

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
(skin's comment:everybody have they own secrets.)

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your
advantage.(skin's comment:friendship is forever.)

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of
rejection.(skin's comment:bering rejected is sucks.)

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
(skin's comment:yup..girls must do this.)

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than
attracting guys.(skin's comment:stronmg smell turn down men.)

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic
is about girls.(skin's comment:it's normal..same goes for girls.)

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
(skin's comment:slow pick up.)

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable
decisions but still love them more.
(skin's comment:yes...but what to do..men do love women.)

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
(skin's comment:be polite is the way to women heart.)

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
(skin's comment:we got so many things to do.)

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know
them,they'll realize they're wrong.
(skin's comment:same with girls)

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too
stubborn to deal with it.
(skin's comment:men's ego is high.)

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
(skin's comment:what a turn downs.)

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.(skin's commenthmm..hehehehe.)

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is
already thinking of a way out.
(skin's comment:we guys always do that..it's our nature.)

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at
fixing things.
(skin's comment:hmm...i'm not sure about this.)

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's
criticizing you.(skin's comment:its true.)

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance,give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance,ignore him.
(skins comment:yup give that man a chance..if he blew it up than leave him.)

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
(skins comment:yup..that's the truth..been there and done that.)

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at u and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
(skins' comment:may be.)

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
(skin's comment:experience is more important than fantasy.)

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in
front of you!(skin's comment:yes it's the truth.)

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
(skin's comment:it's a good idea to do.)

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
(skins' comment:not all men..some do mean it.)

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him
praying sometimes.(skin's comment:yup.)

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
(skin's comment:not all the time lar.)

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
(skin's comment:some not all.)

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
(skin's comment:that's the most basic praise for the girl we like the most.)

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.(skin's comment:definitely.)

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships
(skin's comment:it's the truth but women always don't realize it.)

fEvEr......FeVeR!!!

since last friday my little brother is having a fever and cough.
it was becoming very unhealthy position for me because my brother attitude has worsen than before.when he's healthy his already been an annoyance to me...this time around he manage to get under my skin with twice than his normal annoyance.
argh.........tension siut......nak marah tk boleh....terpakse layan jer ler.
terpakse byk bersabar.
in away my bro nyer perangai nih cam perangai aku jugak.....suke meng tease org lain to the max.
tapi ptg td aku berjaye menakut kan that little devil 2 ngn mengajak die ngk
cite seram dead bird.bagi aku citer 2 tk seram maner but for little mmg takut kot.
ape² pun aku tetap sayang kat adik laki aku yg sorang nih.

>:)

$kIn

1st anniversary of my blog

i just realise just now that my blog is 1 years old already 3 days ago.
never expected it can become what it is now.
i love to write in my blog all the things that happened around my life.
i didn't care wether other people read it or not.
i just wrote all this blog just to let my ideas and opinion out.
it is just away for me to blew some stim off my head.
i found out that by writing a blog it helps me grows as a human being.
the blog acts as shrink to me.
if i'm angry at certain issues i wrote it here.
if i'm happy also i wrote it here.
this blog has been like my best friend.
always there when i need somethyng to let b off.
long live my own blog!!!!!!!

>:)

URS TRULY,

$kIn

ThInG tHaT I mIsS MoSt

hmmm...... didn't knows what had happened 2 me today,
suddenly some ol' feeling that have not risen for a long time has been awoken,
again.i've tried so hard 2 suppress it.....but it still manage 2 beat me again.
may b it was trigged by seeing n listening 2 many love movies and songs.
and i came 2 realise that i didn't miss the people whom i had the affair with,
but i miss the feeling,the moment and the taste of in love and having a
relationship.
i really miss being in love with someone n also being love by someone.
always see other people living in that enviroment made me quite jealous becz
i used to be in that enviroment 2.i know how sweet it can be.....it is
the most potent drug on earth.it can give u a lot of happiness and also its
share of sadness.once hook it's hard for you to get away from it.you'll
crave it all the time.you cannot live your life without it.seeing it in other
people would made you crave it more and more.
that's how i feel right now.i really miss being in deep relationship...a meaningful
relationship.been out of it for too long.....missing it so much....craving
for it......hunger for it.
why i become such an addict because nothing can b compare to it.when i see it in
my colleagues eyes, i know how they feel inside when they see their love ones.
been there and done that........and to lose it all.....a painful experience,
yet at the same time it is an eye opener to me.it teach me to cherish and saviour
every moment with my love ones.do not take your love ones for granted
because when you lose them......your world definitely will crumble to ashes.
right now i'm really afraid that i'll never again be in that enviroment.afraid
that will never be in love with someone or being love by someone.how could i
live in this world if i never got it back?
love is all around......but for me it seems love is just a fragment of my distance
past.afraid to open my heart....afraid getting hurt again....afraid repeating
the same ol' mistake again.cause i know myself better than anyone else in this world
afraid that i would be the one who pushes my love one away again.
i'm prone of making repeated offenses......could i sustain a relationship.
only time will tell.hope the lord above will give a chance to be back again.
this time around i'm gonna make sure that it will work cause don't want to hurt
anyone else n also myself.
right now i'm just like a football player who is being out of the game for so long
because of an injury.....always watching my team mate having all the
fun from the stance.....buying my time to get into the game again...and i'll
shine again.the people in the relationship comes and goes but the core of the relationship remain the same. pls lord let me into the game again and heal my broken heart.

it' been awhile since........

actually i've a lot that i want 2 write here in my blog but i'm kinda busy n lazy to
update my blog.
a lot of thing had happen since my last entry to this blog.some i'll write here n some just don't want 2.

@----->1 of my good friends already getting engage while other already have their
own children (congrats guys.)

@----->watch almost every new movie that being release here in malaysia(almost
every nite of the week. :).)

@----->for the past week already met with sharifah amani twice while lepaking at
makbul n mohsin.(ade jodoh kot. hehehehehehehe)

@----->twice when to cinema n watch movie where imad was there.(kinda a surprise)

@----->almost when n see the movie new world...luckily adham saw it 1st
(one bad movie ler)

@----->still angry at malaysia goverment for raising the oil price.
(damn you liers!!!)

@----->has lost hope for real madird to get any trophy(another trophyless season)

@----->very happy that the French manage to beat England n won the 6 nation.
(england didn't deserve 2 b the world champ)

@----->hoping that i wouldn't miss this 31s march(want to eat a lot of baskin robin)

@----->still in sadness because my family honda accord still in the workshop.
(trapped in the last flash flood)

may b will update this blog regularly in the future. >:)

MaLaYsIa Sucks!!!!!!

to many people this title may b an offensive one......but for me personally i don't care.
the reasons.......because most malaysians voted for a very unreliable goverment
which made this country sucks!!!!
the goverment thinks they can deceived malaysian people like they did in the 60s n 70s.......think again man!!!!
what are you thinking Pak Lah........how could so n your cronies said the price gonna get 2 $80.where else the current price is $63 per barrel.
the excuse for saving rm4.44 bill for piblic transport....that's absud reason i ever heard made by the goverment.if you r going to do that show us the people your plan......not just talk only.
the goverment should know that more people rite now can afford their own vehicle.
it's really a convienient for us compare using the public transport.
so which is better saving for something that will not b used by most of the people or something that's important to the people.
rite now i'm so angry with the goverment for lying 2 us.
how could they do that to us the people.

whoa!!!!

4 d past 1 week,
god the almighty have given me a lot of opportunity
to meet up with my ol friends frm university and frm just seen.
yesterday evening around 4.30 i received a called frm one of my dormmate ema @ zamir.
he,fod n fucker(fucker) was lepakin together at coffee bean in shah alam.
he ask me wether i 1 2 join em.
i said yes n quickly made my move 2 join em.
it's been along time since i met with fod n fucker.
god i really appreciate what have gave me.

after i meet up with em,
we chat about our life now,
about our time i just seen,
and hope that we can still meet up in the future.
thank again god for ur great give.

huh......finaLLY

yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2day finally Dmontel rugby team shows they true nature.
with d arrival of all our kuda,
finally we became d bowl champion.

we have 3 games 2 day and we won all of em.
for d 1st game we have just enough player, just 8 of us.
d line up 4 d 1st game:
prop sopie & tok jan
hooker skin(myself)
scrumhalf pyan small
stand off bozo
center dagu
winger farid
reserved ary
then when d half time came another kuda arrived mr kole.
i asked for him 2 subtitute me cz i'm really tired.
mind you we were playing in blazing heat.
we manage to won d game 14-0.

4 d 2nd game(semi final bowl)
d line up:
prop tok jan & ary
hooker pyan small
scrumhalf farid
stand bozo
center dagu
winger kole
reserve skin
touch judge sopie
harharharhar we manage to over come the other team by few tries.
the result is 21-0
i played in d 2nd half becz ary faked an injury......damn a good actor.
even d referee bought it.
then i injured myself after i kick n chase the ball.i think injured my knee in the ruck.damn.......tak leh lari 4 few minutes gaks.
nasib team opponent tak tebok kt aku....hehehehehehe.

d final game vs sab(subang airbase)
i really hate this rugby team cz last year they stole my hp.
prop tok jan & ary
hooker pyan small
scrum half farid
stand bozo
center dagu
winger kole
touch judge sopie

this is only game that we conceded...hehehe 2 tries but they did not convert at all.
anyway they got their tries using their big forwards.
then my team got they rythm bck n start using our kuda we manage,
2 score 2 tries n convert 1 of it.
it enough 2 c we take the bowl championship.
i 1 2 play but my leg is killing me.
so we won d game 12-10.
harharhar padan muke subang airbase(sab)

overall my conclusion is that if we have more fitness and had d kuda frm d beginning
definitly we can go 4 the bigger championship.

unlucky

2day there's a tourney call selangor green 7's.
again d montel enter this tourney,
but the lack of commitment by d player let us down.
4 d 1st game we play 5 against 7.
but we still manage 2 keep d score nil-nil when the half time come.
just as d title above we were very unlucky cz in the 2nd half
we let 2 conveted tries n gave our opponet d win.

4 d 2nd game we face my schools ol boys....d ansara.
15 side we surely gonna kick their ass but this is 7 side so we got our ass kick.
3rd game also bear the same fate of the earlier game.
the prob with the team is that we r not that fit enough 2 play 7 side rugby.
and we also lack of kuda(term for sprint or runner), for 7 side.
hope in d future we gonna improve our 7 side team.

ok adios.

D'mOntEl rugby TEAM 4 jonah jones 2005

standing: Pyan Small,Along,Skin,Bozo,Kupan,Tam

front row: Ary,JR kusess,Tok Jan,Lipan,Sakata-san

GooGLE + ol friends

for d past 2 years i've searching 4 a long lost friend of mine,

his name is eshadiq @ adique @ bleukang. he was my roommate when i was studying in segamat(uitm). he work in kl but d problem is he always change his phone number like changing a shirt.
finally i just GooGLE his name n luckily i had few result matching my long lost friend. frm one of the result i manage 2 recognize a friend of mine who also a friend of his.
i email this friend askin 4 eshadiq phone number.
that all happens on monday n on d tuesday i manage go out n have a few drinks with my long lost friend.
i would have nvr found eshadiq if not 4 GooGLE.
it was so easy.lucky me.

than on thursday nite i when to medan's house just wanna hang out, but he told me that another friend of ours is coming 2 his house. his name is mr ZuLu.
after we pick him up at d segambut komuter station, we all have our dinner at blakang istana.
seronok gaks dpt mkn ikan bakar n just hang out with ol' friends.
after that we sang a few karaoke rock songs. at medan's house.
memekak tgh² mlm.
hope his neighbour will not complain about the noise.

2 day d montel have our 3rd ever training.......fuh pancit siut.
lari pdg 2 round jer.......but main touch rugby with 3 person per team that's d reason yg pancit 2.

2morrow we have another tourney but do not know wether have enough person 2 play.
comfirm mati agi esok.

ReaLIzAtIoN

2day between 6am n 6.30am while rearranging my comic shelf I found 2 things, which I didn’t expect 2 found. D 1st is a letter send to me by a friend. The date on that letter is June 2000. In that letter my friend gave me an advice n a reminder about my selfish acts as a human being. I did a very cruel thing to another person. Which at that time I took that person for granted.
I heed the advice but it is hard for to change urself when u think that u didn’t need to change. I did change but it is just for awhile. N I end up to doing the same ol’ mistakes all over again.

D 2nd thing that I found was also a letter written by me to that friend of my. D date on that my letter was September 2000. In that letter I really my friend for forgiveness for all my mistakes. I also wrote I’ll tried my best to change into a good n reliable person.

God knows that I never managed to do all that friend ask of me. That’s d things which bundle up inside of me all this years. Can I change into a better man? Can I b a good man? Can I b a reliable man?

Why I ask this questions d reasons is simple cz I let that friend n also my own self down.
It put a dent in my mind. I didn’t think that I can change to the person I ought to b.
It’s being going on for years in my mind. Until I watch a movie called sweet home Alabama. There’s a character name Jake, he lost his wife becz of his foolishness. He feel the only way to make it to her is by changing himself to b a better n reliable man to her. He in the movie he managed to change himself n win bck his wife. That’s kinda d fairy tale ending we love to c right?

I was so inspired by his determination 2 prove to his wife n also to himself he’s no loser. I really wanna b like him, not winning bck my wife cz I don’t have any, but the way he uses the bad experience into a motivation to b a successful man. I really wanna prove to my own self that I can achieve my dreams. I can change myself n prove to myself that once n for all that I’m not a fucking loser.

Thank god for letting me read that both letters again right now……..cz finally I understand n realize the advice n d reminder that friend had given to me. Sorry it took me 5 years to heed ur advice my friend. It took me a long time to grow up ……. I guess.

Reading it was hard cz all d past which I really wanna forget comes again to my mind but I realize it has happen……….I cannot do anything about it, except learn frm d mistakes that I made n never repeat it again. An also the importance of growing up in all aspects of my life. My physical, mental, emotional n spiritual must grow up parallel with my age n time on this earth.

I have already move on frm my past but reading the letters for me it’s God way to show me not to do d same mistakes. It’s a funny way to show it but…….I really thank god for it. I’ll keep it in my mind n close to my heart so I’ll never do it again to another person n to my own self.

Now I understand why it was hard for me to let go of my past. There’s only one thing, which made it difficult for me to let go which is regrets. I’m d type of human who always wanna do the best in all aspects of life. I did badly in d past n I really regret it n keep on thinking about it all d time. It consume me……. I was blinded by it. Until d day I saw that movie. Now I still feel regrets but I know the best things to do to get over it is by doing the best for my future. Now it fuels my heart n my desire for success, so when I look to my past I can say it wasn’t a bad experience but a learning experience which widened n richen my knowledge steer my acts for all my life. Well it is better to make a mistakes in ur youth rather than in ur prime.

It takes me a long time to grow up,…….. feel like an idiot but than again I’m just a human being. “to err is human” that’s me. Always doing things d hard way. But that is the benefit of making so many mistakes in ur life, u get to experience all d hardship, regrets n humiliations. As the saying “what didn’t kill u will make u stronger”. That’s d truth. Right now I’m stronger than d past. I’ve been through hell n now I’m back with vengeance.

I wrote this blog becz I wanna have a written confession….so that every time I feel like down n wanna give up, I’ll read this blog n remember the oath that I make to myself, n keep own fighting till my last breath in this world. I’m not stopping even when d fat lady sings, cz my whole life is depend on what I’m gonna do right this time around.

All great people were measured by what they do when they were faced with their greatest hardship whether they choose to quit or to keep on fighting until d end. All my idols have gone through hell n when they came back they r better than before. Cz when u r down n have nothing to lose that’s d best time to show d world what r u really made of.

May b I had written something similar in d past……….It just a way for me 2 express my feeling right now. Actions speaks louder than words……that’s true. When u keep on writing n say that u can change ur heart n confidence will believe that 2. when all this things merge together it will be one hell of a spirit that will help me in my fight against my own self. Myself is my worst enemy, I fail to understand that in d past but now I know in my heart if I fail again it will not b anyone else fault it just my own.

D odds may b against me but that is the hurdle that I must face to become what I’m destine to b. the risk is high but high risk high returns. I must do it for my own sake. This time around is d last I’ve got to prove to myself that I’m worthy living in this world. Not another scum back or another Malay trash.

In conclusions I wanna take this opportunity thank God almighty for always b there for me. To my family n friends who also always b there for me. N lastly to that friend who wrote that letter 5 years ago thanks for ur advice n reminder,

Urs truly,
>:)
$kin.

malaysians movie

for the past 2 years i only watch
4 malaysian made movies.
compare 2 i lost count of how many oversea movie that i watch.

the 4 movie that i watch was:

1st---->buli => a film made by adflin shauki, he is one of my favorite comedian.
quite a funny film n fun 2 watch.

2nd---->puteri gunung ledang =>2 ol' skool for my liking,meaning the bahase not the
story line.damn apesal laks puteri 2 dr pulau jawe
daa.

3rd---->sepet =>the best movie ever been made here in malaysia for the past 15 years.
it show the true malaysian life style.the story line was simple yet
it manage to capture all the essens of malaysian culture.

4th---->gol & gincu =>a fun n new way to look at sport futsol from woman point of
view.can feel the reality of it.


sadly for me only 4 malaysian movie right now worth my money n time.
other are just plain stupid n with the use of bahase malay yg skema.
n stupid story line.
damn are all the producer n director here in malaysia
idiots with no sense of creativity n genius.
they should take their corean,japanese n even indonesian counterpart as
an example how to make a good movie.
for me the level of malaysian movies when compare to indonesians
are left behind for at least 10 years.

CoREan MoVieS

da 1st corean movie that i saw was volcano high.
i instantly like that movie n was impress by the way corean make they movie.
coz they bring nu n creative idea to a movie.
since then i'm addicted to corean movies.
not the horror one but the love,comedy n actions movies.
right now i want to buy 3 more corean movie 2 actions n 1 comedy.
at 1st i didn't expect that corean movies a that good, but now
i feel like they are more better then the hollywood.
their movie are fresh n just brilliant.

here is my top 10 corean movies.

1st---->my sassy girl
2nd---->spy girl
3rd---->sex is zero
4th---->my little bride
5th---->love is devine
6th---->windstruck
7th---->korean gangster
8th---->arahan
9th---->volcano high
10th--->my tutor friend

i wish malaysian movie maker can b like their counterpart in corea.
it made me sad when watching the quality of malaysian movies right now.
only few are that good.other just stupid n unrealistic.

beautiful Maria of my soul

beautiful Maria of my soul

in the sunlight of your smile
in the summer of our life
in the magic of love
storms above scattered away
lovers dreaming in the night
reaching for paradise
but as the dark shadows fade
love slips away
on an empty stretch of beach
in the pattern of the waves
drawingpictures with my hand
in the sand, I see your face
skipping pebbles on the sea
wishing for Paradise
sand castles crumble below
the restless tides ebb and flow
listening to a shell
hoping for your voice
beautiful Maria of my soul
though we'll always be apart
locked forever in a dream
ifI ever love again
even then, nothing will change
and the taste of you remains
clinging to Paradise
but as the distance from you grows
all that my heartever knows
hunger for your kiss
longing for your touch
beautiful Maria ofmy soul
filling all my nights
haunting all my days
beautiful Maria of my soul

the 1st time i heard this song is when i saw the movie mambo kings.
that was my 1st experience in the art of mambo.
the song was sang by los lobos.
it has a melodic tune n wonderful lyric.

$kIn
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