4 d past 1 week,
god the almighty have given me a lot of opportunity
to meet up with my ol friends frm university and frm just seen.
yesterday evening around 4.30 i received a called frm one of my dormmate ema @ zamir.
he,fod n fucker(fucker) was lepakin together at coffee bean in shah alam.
he ask me wether i 1 2 join em.
i said yes n quickly made my move 2 join em.
it's been along time since i met with fod n fucker.
god i really appreciate what have gave me.
after i meet up with em,
we chat about our life now,
about our time i just seen,
and hope that we can still meet up in the future.
thank again god for ur great give.
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Sunday, December 04, 2005
huh......finaLLY
yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2day finally Dmontel rugby team shows they true nature.
with d arrival of all our kuda,
finally we became d bowl champion.
we have 3 games 2 day and we won all of em.
for d 1st game we have just enough player, just 8 of us.
d line up 4 d 1st game:
prop sopie & tok jan
hooker skin(myself)
scrumhalf pyan small
stand off bozo
center dagu
winger farid
reserved ary
then when d half time came another kuda arrived mr kole.
i asked for him 2 subtitute me cz i'm really tired.
mind you we were playing in blazing heat.
we manage to won d game 14-0.
4 d 2nd game(semi final bowl)
d line up:
prop tok jan & ary
hooker pyan small
scrumhalf farid
stand bozo
center dagu
winger kole
reserve skin
touch judge sopie
harharharhar we manage to over come the other team by few tries.
the result is 21-0
i played in d 2nd half becz ary faked an injury......damn a good actor.
even d referee bought it.
then i injured myself after i kick n chase the ball.i think injured my knee in the ruck.damn.......tak leh lari 4 few minutes gaks.
nasib team opponent tak tebok kt aku....hehehehehehe.
d final game vs sab(subang airbase)
i really hate this rugby team cz last year they stole my hp.
prop tok jan & ary
hooker pyan small
scrum half farid
stand bozo
center dagu
winger kole
touch judge sopie
this is only game that we conceded...hehehe 2 tries but they did not convert at all.
anyway they got their tries using their big forwards.
then my team got they rythm bck n start using our kuda we manage,
2 score 2 tries n convert 1 of it.
it enough 2 c we take the bowl championship.
i 1 2 play but my leg is killing me.
so we won d game 12-10.
harharhar padan muke subang airbase(sab)
overall my conclusion is that if we have more fitness and had d kuda frm d beginning
definitly we can go 4 the bigger championship.
2day finally Dmontel rugby team shows they true nature.
with d arrival of all our kuda,
finally we became d bowl champion.
we have 3 games 2 day and we won all of em.
for d 1st game we have just enough player, just 8 of us.
d line up 4 d 1st game:
prop sopie & tok jan
hooker skin(myself)
scrumhalf pyan small
stand off bozo
center dagu
winger farid
reserved ary
then when d half time came another kuda arrived mr kole.
i asked for him 2 subtitute me cz i'm really tired.
mind you we were playing in blazing heat.
we manage to won d game 14-0.
4 d 2nd game(semi final bowl)
d line up:
prop tok jan & ary
hooker pyan small
scrumhalf farid
stand bozo
center dagu
winger kole
reserve skin
touch judge sopie
harharharhar we manage to over come the other team by few tries.
the result is 21-0
i played in d 2nd half becz ary faked an injury......damn a good actor.
even d referee bought it.
then i injured myself after i kick n chase the ball.i think injured my knee in the ruck.damn.......tak leh lari 4 few minutes gaks.
nasib team opponent tak tebok kt aku....hehehehehehe.
d final game vs sab(subang airbase)
i really hate this rugby team cz last year they stole my hp.
prop tok jan & ary
hooker pyan small
scrum half farid
stand bozo
center dagu
winger kole
touch judge sopie
this is only game that we conceded...hehehe 2 tries but they did not convert at all.
anyway they got their tries using their big forwards.
then my team got they rythm bck n start using our kuda we manage,
2 score 2 tries n convert 1 of it.
it enough 2 c we take the bowl championship.
i 1 2 play but my leg is killing me.
so we won d game 12-10.
harharhar padan muke subang airbase(sab)
overall my conclusion is that if we have more fitness and had d kuda frm d beginning
definitly we can go 4 the bigger championship.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
unlucky
2day there's a tourney call selangor green 7's.
again d montel enter this tourney,
but the lack of commitment by d player let us down.
4 d 1st game we play 5 against 7.
but we still manage 2 keep d score nil-nil when the half time come.
just as d title above we were very unlucky cz in the 2nd half
we let 2 conveted tries n gave our opponet d win.
4 d 2nd game we face my schools ol boys....d ansara.
15 side we surely gonna kick their ass but this is 7 side so we got our ass kick.
3rd game also bear the same fate of the earlier game.
the prob with the team is that we r not that fit enough 2 play 7 side rugby.
and we also lack of kuda(term for sprint or runner), for 7 side.
hope in d future we gonna improve our 7 side team.
ok adios.
again d montel enter this tourney,
but the lack of commitment by d player let us down.
4 d 1st game we play 5 against 7.
but we still manage 2 keep d score nil-nil when the half time come.
just as d title above we were very unlucky cz in the 2nd half
we let 2 conveted tries n gave our opponet d win.
4 d 2nd game we face my schools ol boys....d ansara.
15 side we surely gonna kick their ass but this is 7 side so we got our ass kick.
3rd game also bear the same fate of the earlier game.
the prob with the team is that we r not that fit enough 2 play 7 side rugby.
and we also lack of kuda(term for sprint or runner), for 7 side.
hope in d future we gonna improve our 7 side team.
ok adios.
D'mOntEl rugby TEAM 4 jonah jones 2005
standing: Pyan Small,Along,Skin,Bozo,Kupan,Tam
front row: Ary,JR kusess,Tok Jan,Lipan,Sakata-san
GooGLE + ol friends
for d past 2 years i've searching 4 a long lost friend of mine,
his name is eshadiq @ adique @ bleukang. he was my roommate when i was studying in segamat(uitm). he work in kl but d problem is he always change his phone number like changing a shirt.
finally i just GooGLE his name n luckily i had few result matching my long lost friend. frm one of the result i manage 2 recognize a friend of mine who also a friend of his.
i email this friend askin 4 eshadiq phone number.
that all happens on monday n on d tuesday i manage go out n have a few drinks with my long lost friend.
i would have nvr found eshadiq if not 4 GooGLE.
it was so easy.lucky me.
than on thursday nite i when to medan's house just wanna hang out, but he told me that another friend of ours is coming 2 his house. his name is mr ZuLu.
after we pick him up at d segambut komuter station, we all have our dinner at blakang istana.
seronok gaks dpt mkn ikan bakar n just hang out with ol' friends.
after that we sang a few karaoke rock songs. at medan's house.
memekak tgh² mlm.
hope his neighbour will not complain about the noise.
2 day d montel have our 3rd ever training.......fuh pancit siut.
lari pdg 2 round jer.......but main touch rugby with 3 person per team that's d reason yg pancit 2.
2morrow we have another tourney but do not know wether have enough person 2 play.
comfirm mati agi esok.
his name is eshadiq @ adique @ bleukang. he was my roommate when i was studying in segamat(uitm). he work in kl but d problem is he always change his phone number like changing a shirt.
finally i just GooGLE his name n luckily i had few result matching my long lost friend. frm one of the result i manage 2 recognize a friend of mine who also a friend of his.
i email this friend askin 4 eshadiq phone number.
that all happens on monday n on d tuesday i manage go out n have a few drinks with my long lost friend.
i would have nvr found eshadiq if not 4 GooGLE.
it was so easy.lucky me.
than on thursday nite i when to medan's house just wanna hang out, but he told me that another friend of ours is coming 2 his house. his name is mr ZuLu.
after we pick him up at d segambut komuter station, we all have our dinner at blakang istana.
seronok gaks dpt mkn ikan bakar n just hang out with ol' friends.
after that we sang a few karaoke rock songs. at medan's house.
memekak tgh² mlm.
hope his neighbour will not complain about the noise.
2 day d montel have our 3rd ever training.......fuh pancit siut.
lari pdg 2 round jer.......but main touch rugby with 3 person per team that's d reason yg pancit 2.
2morrow we have another tourney but do not know wether have enough person 2 play.
comfirm mati agi esok.
Monday, November 14, 2005
ReaLIzAtIoN
2day between 6am n 6.30am while rearranging my comic shelf I found 2 things, which I didn’t expect 2 found. D 1st is a letter send to me by a friend. The date on that letter is June 2000. In that letter my friend gave me an advice n a reminder about my selfish acts as a human being. I did a very cruel thing to another person. Which at that time I took that person for granted.
I heed the advice but it is hard for to change urself when u think that u didn’t need to change. I did change but it is just for awhile. N I end up to doing the same ol’ mistakes all over again.
D 2nd thing that I found was also a letter written by me to that friend of my. D date on that my letter was September 2000. In that letter I really my friend for forgiveness for all my mistakes. I also wrote I’ll tried my best to change into a good n reliable person.
God knows that I never managed to do all that friend ask of me. That’s d things which bundle up inside of me all this years. Can I change into a better man? Can I b a good man? Can I b a reliable man?
Why I ask this questions d reasons is simple cz I let that friend n also my own self down.
It put a dent in my mind. I didn’t think that I can change to the person I ought to b.
It’s being going on for years in my mind. Until I watch a movie called sweet home Alabama. There’s a character name Jake, he lost his wife becz of his foolishness. He feel the only way to make it to her is by changing himself to b a better n reliable man to her. He in the movie he managed to change himself n win bck his wife. That’s kinda d fairy tale ending we love to c right?
I was so inspired by his determination 2 prove to his wife n also to himself he’s no loser. I really wanna b like him, not winning bck my wife cz I don’t have any, but the way he uses the bad experience into a motivation to b a successful man. I really wanna prove to my own self that I can achieve my dreams. I can change myself n prove to myself that once n for all that I’m not a fucking loser.
Thank god for letting me read that both letters again right now……..cz finally I understand n realize the advice n d reminder that friend had given to me. Sorry it took me 5 years to heed ur advice my friend. It took me a long time to grow up ……. I guess.
Reading it was hard cz all d past which I really wanna forget comes again to my mind but I realize it has happen……….I cannot do anything about it, except learn frm d mistakes that I made n never repeat it again. An also the importance of growing up in all aspects of my life. My physical, mental, emotional n spiritual must grow up parallel with my age n time on this earth.
I have already move on frm my past but reading the letters for me it’s God way to show me not to do d same mistakes. It’s a funny way to show it but…….I really thank god for it. I’ll keep it in my mind n close to my heart so I’ll never do it again to another person n to my own self.
Now I understand why it was hard for me to let go of my past. There’s only one thing, which made it difficult for me to let go which is regrets. I’m d type of human who always wanna do the best in all aspects of life. I did badly in d past n I really regret it n keep on thinking about it all d time. It consume me……. I was blinded by it. Until d day I saw that movie. Now I still feel regrets but I know the best things to do to get over it is by doing the best for my future. Now it fuels my heart n my desire for success, so when I look to my past I can say it wasn’t a bad experience but a learning experience which widened n richen my knowledge steer my acts for all my life. Well it is better to make a mistakes in ur youth rather than in ur prime.
It takes me a long time to grow up,…….. feel like an idiot but than again I’m just a human being. “to err is human” that’s me. Always doing things d hard way. But that is the benefit of making so many mistakes in ur life, u get to experience all d hardship, regrets n humiliations. As the saying “what didn’t kill u will make u stronger”. That’s d truth. Right now I’m stronger than d past. I’ve been through hell n now I’m back with vengeance.
I wrote this blog becz I wanna have a written confession….so that every time I feel like down n wanna give up, I’ll read this blog n remember the oath that I make to myself, n keep own fighting till my last breath in this world. I’m not stopping even when d fat lady sings, cz my whole life is depend on what I’m gonna do right this time around.
All great people were measured by what they do when they were faced with their greatest hardship whether they choose to quit or to keep on fighting until d end. All my idols have gone through hell n when they came back they r better than before. Cz when u r down n have nothing to lose that’s d best time to show d world what r u really made of.
May b I had written something similar in d past……….It just a way for me 2 express my feeling right now. Actions speaks louder than words……that’s true. When u keep on writing n say that u can change ur heart n confidence will believe that 2. when all this things merge together it will be one hell of a spirit that will help me in my fight against my own self. Myself is my worst enemy, I fail to understand that in d past but now I know in my heart if I fail again it will not b anyone else fault it just my own.
D odds may b against me but that is the hurdle that I must face to become what I’m destine to b. the risk is high but high risk high returns. I must do it for my own sake. This time around is d last I’ve got to prove to myself that I’m worthy living in this world. Not another scum back or another Malay trash.
In conclusions I wanna take this opportunity thank God almighty for always b there for me. To my family n friends who also always b there for me. N lastly to that friend who wrote that letter 5 years ago thanks for ur advice n reminder,
Urs truly,
>:)
$kin.
I heed the advice but it is hard for to change urself when u think that u didn’t need to change. I did change but it is just for awhile. N I end up to doing the same ol’ mistakes all over again.
D 2nd thing that I found was also a letter written by me to that friend of my. D date on that my letter was September 2000. In that letter I really my friend for forgiveness for all my mistakes. I also wrote I’ll tried my best to change into a good n reliable person.
God knows that I never managed to do all that friend ask of me. That’s d things which bundle up inside of me all this years. Can I change into a better man? Can I b a good man? Can I b a reliable man?
Why I ask this questions d reasons is simple cz I let that friend n also my own self down.
It put a dent in my mind. I didn’t think that I can change to the person I ought to b.
It’s being going on for years in my mind. Until I watch a movie called sweet home Alabama. There’s a character name Jake, he lost his wife becz of his foolishness. He feel the only way to make it to her is by changing himself to b a better n reliable man to her. He in the movie he managed to change himself n win bck his wife. That’s kinda d fairy tale ending we love to c right?
I was so inspired by his determination 2 prove to his wife n also to himself he’s no loser. I really wanna b like him, not winning bck my wife cz I don’t have any, but the way he uses the bad experience into a motivation to b a successful man. I really wanna prove to my own self that I can achieve my dreams. I can change myself n prove to myself that once n for all that I’m not a fucking loser.
Thank god for letting me read that both letters again right now……..cz finally I understand n realize the advice n d reminder that friend had given to me. Sorry it took me 5 years to heed ur advice my friend. It took me a long time to grow up ……. I guess.
Reading it was hard cz all d past which I really wanna forget comes again to my mind but I realize it has happen……….I cannot do anything about it, except learn frm d mistakes that I made n never repeat it again. An also the importance of growing up in all aspects of my life. My physical, mental, emotional n spiritual must grow up parallel with my age n time on this earth.
I have already move on frm my past but reading the letters for me it’s God way to show me not to do d same mistakes. It’s a funny way to show it but…….I really thank god for it. I’ll keep it in my mind n close to my heart so I’ll never do it again to another person n to my own self.
Now I understand why it was hard for me to let go of my past. There’s only one thing, which made it difficult for me to let go which is regrets. I’m d type of human who always wanna do the best in all aspects of life. I did badly in d past n I really regret it n keep on thinking about it all d time. It consume me……. I was blinded by it. Until d day I saw that movie. Now I still feel regrets but I know the best things to do to get over it is by doing the best for my future. Now it fuels my heart n my desire for success, so when I look to my past I can say it wasn’t a bad experience but a learning experience which widened n richen my knowledge steer my acts for all my life. Well it is better to make a mistakes in ur youth rather than in ur prime.
It takes me a long time to grow up,…….. feel like an idiot but than again I’m just a human being. “to err is human” that’s me. Always doing things d hard way. But that is the benefit of making so many mistakes in ur life, u get to experience all d hardship, regrets n humiliations. As the saying “what didn’t kill u will make u stronger”. That’s d truth. Right now I’m stronger than d past. I’ve been through hell n now I’m back with vengeance.
I wrote this blog becz I wanna have a written confession….so that every time I feel like down n wanna give up, I’ll read this blog n remember the oath that I make to myself, n keep own fighting till my last breath in this world. I’m not stopping even when d fat lady sings, cz my whole life is depend on what I’m gonna do right this time around.
All great people were measured by what they do when they were faced with their greatest hardship whether they choose to quit or to keep on fighting until d end. All my idols have gone through hell n when they came back they r better than before. Cz when u r down n have nothing to lose that’s d best time to show d world what r u really made of.
May b I had written something similar in d past……….It just a way for me 2 express my feeling right now. Actions speaks louder than words……that’s true. When u keep on writing n say that u can change ur heart n confidence will believe that 2. when all this things merge together it will be one hell of a spirit that will help me in my fight against my own self. Myself is my worst enemy, I fail to understand that in d past but now I know in my heart if I fail again it will not b anyone else fault it just my own.
D odds may b against me but that is the hurdle that I must face to become what I’m destine to b. the risk is high but high risk high returns. I must do it for my own sake. This time around is d last I’ve got to prove to myself that I’m worthy living in this world. Not another scum back or another Malay trash.
In conclusions I wanna take this opportunity thank God almighty for always b there for me. To my family n friends who also always b there for me. N lastly to that friend who wrote that letter 5 years ago thanks for ur advice n reminder,
Urs truly,
>:)
$kin.
Friday, November 11, 2005
malaysians movie
for the past 2 years i only watch
4 malaysian made movies.
compare 2 i lost count of how many oversea movie that i watch.
the 4 movie that i watch was:
1st---->buli => a film made by adflin shauki, he is one of my favorite comedian.
quite a funny film n fun 2 watch.
2nd---->puteri gunung ledang =>2 ol' skool for my liking,meaning the bahase not the
story line.damn apesal laks puteri 2 dr pulau jawe
daa.
3rd---->sepet =>the best movie ever been made here in malaysia for the past 15 years.
it show the true malaysian life style.the story line was simple yet
it manage to capture all the essens of malaysian culture.
4th---->gol & gincu =>a fun n new way to look at sport futsol from woman point of
view.can feel the reality of it.
sadly for me only 4 malaysian movie right now worth my money n time.
other are just plain stupid n with the use of bahase malay yg skema.
n stupid story line.
damn are all the producer n director here in malaysia
idiots with no sense of creativity n genius.
they should take their corean,japanese n even indonesian counterpart as
an example how to make a good movie.
for me the level of malaysian movies when compare to indonesians
are left behind for at least 10 years.
4 malaysian made movies.
compare 2 i lost count of how many oversea movie that i watch.
the 4 movie that i watch was:
1st---->buli => a film made by adflin shauki, he is one of my favorite comedian.
quite a funny film n fun 2 watch.
2nd---->puteri gunung ledang =>2 ol' skool for my liking,meaning the bahase not the
story line.damn apesal laks puteri 2 dr pulau jawe
daa.
3rd---->sepet =>the best movie ever been made here in malaysia for the past 15 years.
it show the true malaysian life style.the story line was simple yet
it manage to capture all the essens of malaysian culture.
4th---->gol & gincu =>a fun n new way to look at sport futsol from woman point of
view.can feel the reality of it.
sadly for me only 4 malaysian movie right now worth my money n time.
other are just plain stupid n with the use of bahase malay yg skema.
n stupid story line.
damn are all the producer n director here in malaysia
idiots with no sense of creativity n genius.
they should take their corean,japanese n even indonesian counterpart as
an example how to make a good movie.
for me the level of malaysian movies when compare to indonesians
are left behind for at least 10 years.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
CoREan MoVieS
da 1st corean movie that i saw was volcano high.
i instantly like that movie n was impress by the way corean make they movie.
coz they bring nu n creative idea to a movie.
since then i'm addicted to corean movies.
not the horror one but the love,comedy n actions movies.
right now i want to buy 3 more corean movie 2 actions n 1 comedy.
at 1st i didn't expect that corean movies a that good, but now
i feel like they are more better then the hollywood.
their movie are fresh n just brilliant.
here is my top 10 corean movies.
1st---->my sassy girl
2nd---->spy girl
3rd---->sex is zero
4th---->my little bride
5th---->love is devine
6th---->windstruck
7th---->korean gangster
8th---->arahan
9th---->volcano high
10th--->my tutor friend
i wish malaysian movie maker can b like their counterpart in corea.
it made me sad when watching the quality of malaysian movies right now.
only few are that good.other just stupid n unrealistic.
i instantly like that movie n was impress by the way corean make they movie.
coz they bring nu n creative idea to a movie.
since then i'm addicted to corean movies.
not the horror one but the love,comedy n actions movies.
right now i want to buy 3 more corean movie 2 actions n 1 comedy.
at 1st i didn't expect that corean movies a that good, but now
i feel like they are more better then the hollywood.
their movie are fresh n just brilliant.
here is my top 10 corean movies.
1st---->my sassy girl
2nd---->spy girl
3rd---->sex is zero
4th---->my little bride
5th---->love is devine
6th---->windstruck
7th---->korean gangster
8th---->arahan
9th---->volcano high
10th--->my tutor friend
i wish malaysian movie maker can b like their counterpart in corea.
it made me sad when watching the quality of malaysian movies right now.
only few are that good.other just stupid n unrealistic.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
beautiful Maria of my soul
beautiful Maria of my soul
in the sunlight of your smile
in the summer of our life
in the magic of love
storms above scattered away
lovers dreaming in the night
reaching for paradise
but as the dark shadows fade
love slips away
on an empty stretch of beach
in the pattern of the waves
drawingpictures with my hand
in the sand, I see your face
skipping pebbles on the sea
wishing for Paradise
sand castles crumble below
the restless tides ebb and flow
listening to a shell
hoping for your voice
beautiful Maria of my soul
though we'll always be apart
locked forever in a dream
ifI ever love again
even then, nothing will change
and the taste of you remains
clinging to Paradise
but as the distance from you grows
all that my heartever knows
hunger for your kiss
longing for your touch
beautiful Maria ofmy soul
filling all my nights
haunting all my days
beautiful Maria of my soul
the 1st time i heard this song is when i saw the movie mambo kings.
that was my 1st experience in the art of mambo.
the song was sang by los lobos.
it has a melodic tune n wonderful lyric.
$kIn
>)
in the sunlight of your smile
in the summer of our life
in the magic of love
storms above scattered away
lovers dreaming in the night
reaching for paradise
but as the dark shadows fade
love slips away
on an empty stretch of beach
in the pattern of the waves
drawingpictures with my hand
in the sand, I see your face
skipping pebbles on the sea
wishing for Paradise
sand castles crumble below
the restless tides ebb and flow
listening to a shell
hoping for your voice
beautiful Maria of my soul
though we'll always be apart
locked forever in a dream
ifI ever love again
even then, nothing will change
and the taste of you remains
clinging to Paradise
but as the distance from you grows
all that my heartever knows
hunger for your kiss
longing for your touch
beautiful Maria ofmy soul
filling all my nights
haunting all my days
beautiful Maria of my soul
the 1st time i heard this song is when i saw the movie mambo kings.
that was my 1st experience in the art of mambo.
the song was sang by los lobos.
it has a melodic tune n wonderful lyric.
$kIn
>)
cheating
2nite i just saw tv series dr house.
it is one of my favorite tv series right now.
in 2nite episode a woman was admitted with a sleep sickness.
in can only infect her by 2 ways.
d 1st if she has ever been 2 africa.
d 2nd is she slept with a guy who has that disease.
after much discussion it is the 2nd way which got her infected with
the african sleep disease.
it is very hard for her hushband.
it is because he love her somuch.
the betrayal is to much for him 2 bare.
after the wife came out of the comma,
he left her.one of the doctor tried 2 make him stay but,
the fact he knows that his wife love him,
didn't stop him from leaving her.
my question what would i do if i was in his shoes?
would i stay with my wife who cheats on me?
or would i left her?
it is a very hard question 2 ask myself.
but i already know my answer.
no matter how much she love me or how much i love her,
once she already cheated me with another man,
i'll definitely left her.
my reason is simple.
it is not the matter of trust.but the matter of speciality.
for me if my wife has been touch by another man,
then what is left for me that is very special to me only.
for me my wife is only for me.
what i get from her cannot b share with another man.
that's why i'm not keen on other man's girls or woman.
1st cz i know what they(the women) mean to the guys.
2ndly most of the women have already given their guys what guys wants from a women.
and u gonna have their left overs.why must u have something that has been used before
when u can get a brand new n fresh ones.
i really cannot stand if my girl has been touch or seen by other man.
but that just me.
cz i really want my girl to special to me only.
$kIn
>)
it is one of my favorite tv series right now.
in 2nite episode a woman was admitted with a sleep sickness.
in can only infect her by 2 ways.
d 1st if she has ever been 2 africa.
d 2nd is she slept with a guy who has that disease.
after much discussion it is the 2nd way which got her infected with
the african sleep disease.
it is very hard for her hushband.
it is because he love her somuch.
the betrayal is to much for him 2 bare.
after the wife came out of the comma,
he left her.one of the doctor tried 2 make him stay but,
the fact he knows that his wife love him,
didn't stop him from leaving her.
my question what would i do if i was in his shoes?
would i stay with my wife who cheats on me?
or would i left her?
it is a very hard question 2 ask myself.
but i already know my answer.
no matter how much she love me or how much i love her,
once she already cheated me with another man,
i'll definitely left her.
my reason is simple.
it is not the matter of trust.but the matter of speciality.
for me if my wife has been touch by another man,
then what is left for me that is very special to me only.
for me my wife is only for me.
what i get from her cannot b share with another man.
that's why i'm not keen on other man's girls or woman.
1st cz i know what they(the women) mean to the guys.
2ndly most of the women have already given their guys what guys wants from a women.
and u gonna have their left overs.why must u have something that has been used before
when u can get a brand new n fresh ones.
i really cannot stand if my girl has been touch or seen by other man.
but that just me.
cz i really want my girl to special to me only.
$kIn
>)
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Monday, September 26, 2005
The Scientist
The Scientist Lyrics
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
Ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tales
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh, and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing tales
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start...
this song i heard it 1st when i saw the video clip on mtv.
i instantly got hook because of its catchy tune.
than when i went 2 c the movie wicker park,
i heard it again because it was on this movie soundtrack.
damn coldplay always come up with a good song with a catchy tune.
the lyrics is quite meaningful 2.
this song almost single handedly tell what the movie is about.
for me this movie wicker park is 1 hell of a movie.....if u miss it
shame on u. pls get urself a dvd of this movie,
it is definitely a movie worth watching for.
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
Ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tales
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh, and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing tales
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start...
this song i heard it 1st when i saw the video clip on mtv.
i instantly got hook because of its catchy tune.
than when i went 2 c the movie wicker park,
i heard it again because it was on this movie soundtrack.
damn coldplay always come up with a good song with a catchy tune.
the lyrics is quite meaningful 2.
this song almost single handedly tell what the movie is about.
for me this movie wicker park is 1 hell of a movie.....if u miss it
shame on u. pls get urself a dvd of this movie,
it is definitely a movie worth watching for.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
HAppY BiRtHDay :)
happy birthday 2 me,
Happy birthday 2 me,
happy birthday 2 me,
Happy birthday 2me,
hmm........2day 24th september 2005, i'm officially 24 years old.
i was born in klang on this same date........24th september 1981,
i felt kinda weird.....when ur age match ur birthday date.
the best part is i don't feel like i'm 24 years old.
may b because life 4 mens start at 4o.
hehehehe most women hate that part because they think it is an excuse
use by men to search out other possiblelities.
i really thank god for letting me celebrate my 24th birthday.
although i'm just 24.........i've already accumulate enough experience on life.
been through ups n downs.
in all aspects of life.........mentally,physically,spiritually n financially.......ohh almost forgot
also in love.
for me all the experience above have made me a betterman.
some experience have made my mind opens 2 new things....new idea.
some experience have thought me how 2 react in certain situation.
some experience have made me feel new feelings......feelings that i used 2 read or saw in a movie.
i really appreciate what i've got now but.........i still wanna keep improving myself,
because in this material world money n knowlegde are powerful tools,
that can help me achieve my dreams n my goals.
for my lord.....my savior.....my master ALLAH SWT,
i'll try my best to be a good slave...a slave always obey UR rules n order.
for without U my LORD.....i'm just a insect in this universe of URS.
my sign is libra..........that's y i'm a person that believe in balance.
like the chinese yin-yang......libra sign is the weighing scale.
that's y i've a problem when it come 2 ISLAM.
because i'm a a person who like balance in everything that i do.
so half of my life is for this materials world n another half for the next.
kinda hard for me to give this world up n give my heart n soul for the nxt.
anyway i would like to thks my family for supporting me all this years, my friends who always b there for me through thick n thin.
urs truly:
$kIn
>)
Happy birthday 2 me,
happy birthday 2 me,
Happy birthday 2me,
hmm........2day 24th september 2005, i'm officially 24 years old.
i was born in klang on this same date........24th september 1981,
i felt kinda weird.....when ur age match ur birthday date.
the best part is i don't feel like i'm 24 years old.
may b because life 4 mens start at 4o.
hehehehe most women hate that part because they think it is an excuse
use by men to search out other possiblelities.
i really thank god for letting me celebrate my 24th birthday.
although i'm just 24.........i've already accumulate enough experience on life.
been through ups n downs.
in all aspects of life.........mentally,physically,spiritually n financially.......ohh almost forgot
also in love.
for me all the experience above have made me a betterman.
some experience have made my mind opens 2 new things....new idea.
some experience have thought me how 2 react in certain situation.
some experience have made me feel new feelings......feelings that i used 2 read or saw in a movie.
i really appreciate what i've got now but.........i still wanna keep improving myself,
because in this material world money n knowlegde are powerful tools,
that can help me achieve my dreams n my goals.
for my lord.....my savior.....my master ALLAH SWT,
i'll try my best to be a good slave...a slave always obey UR rules n order.
for without U my LORD.....i'm just a insect in this universe of URS.
my sign is libra..........that's y i'm a person that believe in balance.
like the chinese yin-yang......libra sign is the weighing scale.
that's y i've a problem when it come 2 ISLAM.
because i'm a a person who like balance in everything that i do.
so half of my life is for this materials world n another half for the next.
kinda hard for me to give this world up n give my heart n soul for the nxt.
anyway i would like to thks my family for supporting me all this years, my friends who always b there for me through thick n thin.
urs truly:
$kIn
>)
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
heart......... ;)
This romeo is bleedingBut you can't see his bloodIt's nothing but some feelingsThat this old dog kicked upIt's been raining since you left meNow I'm drowning in the floodYou see I've always been a fighterBut without you I give upNow I can't sing a love songLike the way it's meant to beWell, I guess I'm not that good anymoreBut baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby - AlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a day - AlwaysI'll be there till the stars don't shineTill the heavens burst andThe words don't rhymeAnd I know when I die, you'll be on my mindAnd I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behindAre just memories of a different lifeSome that made us laugh, some that made us cryOne that made you have to say goodbyeWhat I'd give to run my fingers through your hairTo touch your lips, to hold you nearWhen you say your prayers try to understandI've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you nearWhen he says the words you've been needing to hearI'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mineTo say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - AlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for youI could
If you told me to die for youI would
Take a look at my faceThere's no price I won't payTo say these words to youWell, there ain't no luckIn these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more tryWe can pack up our old dreamsAnd our old livesWe'll find a place where the sun still shines
And I will love you, baby - AlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a day - AlwaysI'll be there till the stars don't shineTill the heavens burst andThe words don't rhymeAnd I know when I die, you'll be on my mindAnd I'll love you - Always
this is one of my fovorite songs of all time.it use 2 b just a song 2 me which has a lovely n catchy tune.but few years ago this song became a reality to me.the lyrics of this song became my story,i really connected with the song.i sang it so my times that the lyrics was printed in my sub-consious.though that was in the past........now i'm cured of that sickness, whoah.....thank god i manage 2 move on.......damn the journey was hard but right now it started to pay me some divident.i c the world with different view........a change man.......a man with something to prove to my ownself.sick n tired of living with all past memories which only causes me pain........gonna seek new n lovelier memories than be4.
though sometimes when i'm alone a thought come 2 me.where do i gonna find a women that can say that vows......."through health n sickness,for richer or poor to death do us a part." n honour that vows until their death.right now it is hard to find a woman that can do that anymore.in the past it was very easy.for me most of the women right now when their love ones face with a problem which resulted in the women pain.......the women will leave tha poor man to dry.it just a mistake........that can b heal by love."anything happened i'll always by urside"is a dialogue that women love to said to man.but when things come to worse.......the man really needed her......she gives up.through thick n thin my ass!!!!!!!!!!!
can i ever trust a women?can i trusted her with my heart n soul? it's only can be answer by me when i face a woman that i gonna b falling in love in the future.because for now the things above is just a minor distraction 2 me in achiving my goal......my dreams.
the thing that made me write this because i just seen the movie CINDERELLA MAN it is a true story of the heavyweight champion JAMES J.BRADDOCK the bulldog of bergen.i really amaze how his wife was standing beside him through all the hard time,since she was married to him when he was a young prodigy fighter.in the "great depression" jim was out of his luck.......he has to beg to all the promoters for money to settle the electric bills fo the sake of keeping his family 2gether.for the rest of the story better u go n c the movie urself.for me if i ever manage to find a woman like mae braddock it would've make my life so complete.
for the women out there pls set mae braddock as ur example, she is a loyal wife,a good mother n most of all she always stand by her man.
as 4 myself right now i really like being single because i'm not stabile enough to sustain a relationship phsycally,mentally n financially.haven't found the right woman yet......hope in the future when i'm already achieve my goals n dreams.....i'll find a woman that will stand by me until death do us a part.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
bad luck....huh!?
rite now i'm feeling very² down :(
the reasons:
@-------->my streamyx connection is very not stabile, it cause me setbcks in my job.
(damn lerrr tmnet!!!!)
@-------->my favorite club has been in a slump, REAL MADRID 3 defeats in 3 game.
(come on guys pls be d galacticos that u r!!!!)
@--------->approaching my 24th birthday but still at the same place as 5 years ago.
(argh!!!!!! not lookin 4ward 4 it.)
@--------->do not know what i wanna do 4 my birthday.
(got prob with my financial)
@--------->my life rite now is in gapping down movement.
(wait n c when it gonna achieve gapping up!!)
@--------->have a problem in faith.
(still working 2 b a good muslim)
the reasons:
@-------->my streamyx connection is very not stabile, it cause me setbcks in my job.
(damn lerrr tmnet!!!!)
@-------->my favorite club has been in a slump, REAL MADRID 3 defeats in 3 game.
(come on guys pls be d galacticos that u r!!!!)
@--------->approaching my 24th birthday but still at the same place as 5 years ago.
(argh!!!!!! not lookin 4ward 4 it.)
@--------->do not know what i wanna do 4 my birthday.
(got prob with my financial)
@--------->my life rite now is in gapping down movement.
(wait n c when it gonna achieve gapping up!!)
@--------->have a problem in faith.
(still working 2 b a good muslim)
Monday, August 22, 2005
TiRinG WeeKenD!!!!!!!!!!!!
my weekend started at friday nite n end on sunday nite.
1st------->on friday nite i stay up late n didn't sleep at all 2 study n do some homework
(hate it but must do it)
2nd------>on saturday morning when to perindu's field 2 play rugby 4 account's team.
(manage 2 get into quarter finals)
3rd------>that evenig just lepakin at my fren's house n watched how the springboks beat
wallabies
4th------>that nite around 7.45pm my fren n i started our journey 2 Port Dickson
(had a party to attend)
5th------>that saturday nite my fren n i party all nite long, from 9pm until 3am.
(what a party!!!!)
6th------>damn my fren n i were actually being fooled by the ads of that party.
(it's a rave party only but the ads says there's gonna b r&b 2)
7th------>so i didn't sleep again for 2 nites.after that when bck 2 my fren house laks.
(didn't get any sleep coz layan ngk astro laks.)
8th------>finally got myself 2 sleep around 8am on that sunday morning.
(wake up around 5pm in the evening.)
9th------>the party was full of beautiful n sexy gurls but also the other side of it.
(damn i saw an underaged malay slut!!!)
10th----->come 2 think of it, that's why we the malay are fast becoming like kafir
cz most of us prefer 2 go 2 a party than 2 the mosque.
(peringatan for myself lerr)
that's my very tiring weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1st------->on friday nite i stay up late n didn't sleep at all 2 study n do some homework
(hate it but must do it)
2nd------>on saturday morning when to perindu's field 2 play rugby 4 account's team.
(manage 2 get into quarter finals)
3rd------>that evenig just lepakin at my fren's house n watched how the springboks beat
wallabies
4th------>that nite around 7.45pm my fren n i started our journey 2 Port Dickson
(had a party to attend)
5th------>that saturday nite my fren n i party all nite long, from 9pm until 3am.
(what a party!!!!)
6th------>damn my fren n i were actually being fooled by the ads of that party.
(it's a rave party only but the ads says there's gonna b r&b 2)
7th------>so i didn't sleep again for 2 nites.after that when bck 2 my fren house laks.
(didn't get any sleep coz layan ngk astro laks.)
8th------>finally got myself 2 sleep around 8am on that sunday morning.
(wake up around 5pm in the evening.)
9th------>the party was full of beautiful n sexy gurls but also the other side of it.
(damn i saw an underaged malay slut!!!)
10th----->come 2 think of it, that's why we the malay are fast becoming like kafir
cz most of us prefer 2 go 2 a party than 2 the mosque.
(peringatan for myself lerr)
that's my very tiring weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, August 12, 2005
ThE StAR SpANgLeD BaNnEr!!!!
By the dawn's early light,
What so proud we hail'd,
At the twilight's last gleaming,
Whose broad stripes n bright stars,
Through the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched,
Were so gallantly streaming,
And the rockets' red glare,
The bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof to the night,
That our flag is still there,
Oh, say does that STAR SPANGLED BANNER yet wave,
O'er the land of the FREE!
many people surely offended by my blog this time.
although the US is currently the only super power in the world,
n like to wage a war on others,
but for me the US symbolize the everything humans, especially becoz US is the land of freedom n oppurturnity.
u see US gain their independence through a war with british while we malaysians using conference, after agreeing on british terms than we were grant an independence.while the ol' malay like mat kilau, abdul rahman limbong n the peraks royalty, for me are the true heroes of our independence be coz they sacrifies a lot espesially their blood for this country.not that person who goes to the conference with british.that's why i'm not patriotic any more coz i realize that those men who sacrifies their blood for this country were left behind compare to the one who just go talking wit the british.they fight the british at the time when the sultans themself were afraid to say it out loud.the sultans chicken out, while the people died for them.long live indenpendence my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!
nat king cole's SonG!!!
i've beens searching for the singer who sing this song for quite some time.i really like this song becz the lyric is simple but it manage to send the msg directly 2 us.
L-O-V-E
L-O-V-E
L is 4 the way u look at me,
O is 4 the only one i c,
V is very, very extraodinary,
E is even more than anyone that u adore can
love is all that i can give 2 u
love more than just a game 4 two
two in love can make it
take my heart n pls don't break it
love was made for me n u.
repeat verse1
repeat verse2
+ love was made for me n u,
love was made for me n u,
love was made for me n u.
O is 4 the only one i c,
V is very, very extraodinary,
E is even more than anyone that u adore can
love is all that i can give 2 u
love more than just a game 4 two
two in love can make it
take my heart n pls don't break it
love was made for me n u.
repeat verse1
repeat verse2
+ love was made for me n u,
love was made for me n u,
love was made for me n u.
unLUcKy WeEk!!!!!
it is the 2nd week of August, is not been a week for me.damn this week is so bad just wanna erase it frm my MIND!!!!
1st :( -----> i did badly at the MAS phsycomotor test, argh!!!!!!!!
2nd :(-----> i just know that the stupid MBSA had summon me for rm250 for parking tickets.
(i've already pay it damn!!! pokai aku di buat nyer)
3rd :(------> haze, is every where.why can't the indonesians just cut the trees.
(bodo lerr indon nih, nk save cost but negare aku yg kener suffer!)
4th :(-------> SAF(sukan antare Fakulti) has been postponed or cancel(i'm not sure which one)
due 2 the haze.(aku nk main rugby lerrrr!!!!)
5th :(--------> Can not c Charlie n d Chocolate factory cz seats a limited.(argh!!!!!! nk tgk johnny depp)
6th :(--------> being missin dat lovely gurl wit a smile dat melt my heart.(takot nk buat move daa!!!!)
7th :(---------> last week my team(ALL BLACKS) were beaten by springboks.(cisss bengang aku lerr)
hope nxt week will a better one lerr. damn i'm really tense rite now.can just blow up at any moment lerrr.
adios amigos!!!!!!!!!!
1st :( -----> i did badly at the MAS phsycomotor test, argh!!!!!!!!
2nd :(-----> i just know that the stupid MBSA had summon me for rm250 for parking tickets.
(i've already pay it damn!!! pokai aku di buat nyer)
3rd :(------> haze, is every where.why can't the indonesians just cut the trees.
(bodo lerr indon nih, nk save cost but negare aku yg kener suffer!)
4th :(-------> SAF(sukan antare Fakulti) has been postponed or cancel(i'm not sure which one)
due 2 the haze.(aku nk main rugby lerrrr!!!!)
5th :(--------> Can not c Charlie n d Chocolate factory cz seats a limited.(argh!!!!!! nk tgk johnny depp)
6th :(--------> being missin dat lovely gurl wit a smile dat melt my heart.(takot nk buat move daa!!!!)
7th :(---------> last week my team(ALL BLACKS) were beaten by springboks.(cisss bengang aku lerr)
hope nxt week will a better one lerr. damn i'm really tense rite now.can just blow up at any moment lerrr.
adios amigos!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, August 05, 2005
its been a long time.........
finally i manage to write something on this blog after a while. not that i didn't want 2 write but my life been so busy lerr.few things happens for the past month.
1st @>---> i lost my grandmama.she finally died peacefully.only regret i wasn't there 2
witness her last breath.
2nd @>---> TUN M make a fuss about ap which brings this country into quite a dispute.
4 me he 's just worried that proton has lost its edge againts imported cars.
PROTON is just damn foul!!!!!!!
3rd @>---> Real Madrid manage 2 sign 2 brasillian player.julio baptista n robinho.
it's gonna b one hell of a season.
4th @>---> already seen all the nu movies.War of d world,seven sword,F4 n stealth.
what enjoyment its been 4 me.
5th @>--->fall in love with an actress name jessica biel.
she has all d qualities that i want from a woman.
she's perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6th @>---> my rugby team the mighty all blacks win the lion tour 3-0.
long live the haka!!!!!
7th @>---> found a gurl that i kinda like but still afraid to make a move on her.
she's so lovely.........with a smile that can lit up the whole world.
a smile that melt my heart from the moment i met her.
8th @>---> manage to find a way 2 finally shut the people who said i got no future.
we gonna c who got the last laugh.
9th @>---> been requested for an interview with mas for pilot position.
i'll try my best.
what a great month for me.hope it is to you 2.
1st @>---> i lost my grandmama.she finally died peacefully.only regret i wasn't there 2
witness her last breath.
2nd @>---> TUN M make a fuss about ap which brings this country into quite a dispute.
4 me he 's just worried that proton has lost its edge againts imported cars.
PROTON is just damn foul!!!!!!!
3rd @>---> Real Madrid manage 2 sign 2 brasillian player.julio baptista n robinho.
it's gonna b one hell of a season.
4th @>---> already seen all the nu movies.War of d world,seven sword,F4 n stealth.
what enjoyment its been 4 me.
5th @>--->fall in love with an actress name jessica biel.
she has all d qualities that i want from a woman.
she's perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6th @>---> my rugby team the mighty all blacks win the lion tour 3-0.
long live the haka!!!!!
7th @>---> found a gurl that i kinda like but still afraid to make a move on her.
she's so lovely.........with a smile that can lit up the whole world.
a smile that melt my heart from the moment i met her.
8th @>---> manage to find a way 2 finally shut the people who said i got no future.
we gonna c who got the last laugh.
9th @>---> been requested for an interview with mas for pilot position.
i'll try my best.
what a great month for me.hope it is to you 2.
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