beautiful Maria of my soul

beautiful Maria of my soul

in the sunlight of your smile
in the summer of our life
in the magic of love
storms above scattered away
lovers dreaming in the night
reaching for paradise
but as the dark shadows fade
love slips away
on an empty stretch of beach
in the pattern of the waves
drawingpictures with my hand
in the sand, I see your face
skipping pebbles on the sea
wishing for Paradise
sand castles crumble below
the restless tides ebb and flow
listening to a shell
hoping for your voice
beautiful Maria of my soul
though we'll always be apart
locked forever in a dream
ifI ever love again
even then, nothing will change
and the taste of you remains
clinging to Paradise
but as the distance from you grows
all that my heartever knows
hunger for your kiss
longing for your touch
beautiful Maria ofmy soul
filling all my nights
haunting all my days
beautiful Maria of my soul

the 1st time i heard this song is when i saw the movie mambo kings.
that was my 1st experience in the art of mambo.
the song was sang by los lobos.
it has a melodic tune n wonderful lyric.

$kIn
>)

cheating

2nite i just saw tv series dr house.
it is one of my favorite tv series right now.
in 2nite episode a woman was admitted with a sleep sickness.
in can only infect her by 2 ways.
d 1st if she has ever been 2 africa.
d 2nd is she slept with a guy who has that disease.
after much discussion it is the 2nd way which got her infected with
the african sleep disease.
it is very hard for her hushband.
it is because he love her somuch.
the betrayal is to much for him 2 bare.
after the wife came out of the comma,
he left her.one of the doctor tried 2 make him stay but,
the fact he knows that his wife love him,
didn't stop him from leaving her.

my question what would i do if i was in his shoes?
would i stay with my wife who cheats on me?
or would i left her?

it is a very hard question 2 ask myself.
but i already know my answer.
no matter how much she love me or how much i love her,
once she already cheated me with another man,
i'll definitely left her.
my reason is simple.
it is not the matter of trust.but the matter of speciality.
for me if my wife has been touch by another man,
then what is left for me that is very special to me only.
for me my wife is only for me.
what i get from her cannot b share with another man.
that's why i'm not keen on other man's girls or woman.
1st cz i know what they(the women) mean to the guys.
2ndly most of the women have already given their guys what guys wants from a women.
and u gonna have their left overs.why must u have something that has been used before
when u can get a brand new n fresh ones.

i really cannot stand if my girl has been touch or seen by other man.
but that just me.
cz i really want my girl to special to me only.
$kIn
>)

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The Scientist

The Scientist Lyrics

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
Ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tales
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh, and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing tales
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start...

this song i heard it 1st when i saw the video clip on mtv.
i instantly got hook because of its catchy tune.
than when i went 2 c the movie wicker park,
i heard it again because it was on this movie soundtrack.
damn coldplay always come up with a good song with a catchy tune.
the lyrics is quite meaningful 2.
this song almost single handedly tell what the movie is about.
for me this movie wicker park is 1 hell of a movie.....if u miss it
shame on u. pls get urself a dvd of this movie,
it is definitely a movie worth watching for.

HAppY BiRtHDay :)

happy birthday 2 me,
Happy birthday 2 me,
happy birthday 2 me,
Happy birthday 2me,


hmm........2day 24th september 2005, i'm officially 24 years old.
i was born in klang on this same date........24th september 1981,
i felt kinda weird.....when ur age match ur birthday date.
the best part is i don't feel like i'm 24 years old.
may b because life 4 mens start at 4o.
hehehehe most women hate that part because they think it is an excuse
use by men to search out other possiblelities.

i really thank god for letting me celebrate my 24th birthday.
although i'm just 24.........i've already accumulate enough experience on life.
been through ups n downs.
in all aspects of life.........mentally,physically,spiritually n financially.......ohh almost forgot
also in love.
for me all the experience above have made me a betterman.
some experience have made my mind opens 2 new things....new idea.
some experience have thought me how 2 react in certain situation.
some experience have made me feel new feelings......feelings that i used 2 read or saw in a movie.

i really appreciate what i've got now but.........i still wanna keep improving myself,
because in this material world money n knowlegde are powerful tools,
that can help me achieve my dreams n my goals.

for my lord.....my savior.....my master ALLAH SWT,
i'll try my best to be a good slave...a slave always obey UR rules n order.
for without U my LORD.....i'm just a insect in this universe of URS.

my sign is libra..........that's y i'm a person that believe in balance.



like the chinese yin-yang......libra sign is the weighing scale.




that's y i've a problem when it come 2 ISLAM.
because i'm a a person who like balance in everything that i do.
so half of my life is for this materials world n another half for the next.
kinda hard for me to give this world up n give my heart n soul for the nxt.

anyway i would like to thks my family for supporting me all this years, my friends who always b there for me through thick n thin.

urs truly:
$kIn
>)

heart......... ;)

This romeo is bleedingBut you can't see his bloodIt's nothing but some feelingsThat this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left meNow I'm drowning in the floodYou see I've always been a fighterBut without you I give upNow I can't sing a love songLike the way it's meant to beWell, I guess I'm not that good anymoreBut baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - AlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a day - AlwaysI'll be there till the stars don't shineTill the heavens burst andThe words don't rhymeAnd I know when I die, you'll be on my mindAnd I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behindAre just memories of a different lifeSome that made us laugh, some that made us cryOne that made you have to say goodbyeWhat I'd give to run my fingers through your hairTo touch your lips, to hold you nearWhen you say your prayers try to understandI've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you nearWhen he says the words you've been needing to hearI'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mineTo say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - AlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for youI could

If you told me to die for youI would

Take a look at my faceThere's no price I won't payTo say these words to youWell, there ain't no luckIn these loaded dice

But baby if you give me just one more tryWe can pack up our old dreamsAnd our old livesWe'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - AlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a day - AlwaysI'll be there till the stars don't shineTill the heavens burst andThe words don't rhymeAnd I know when I die, you'll be on my mindAnd I'll love you - Always

this is one of my fovorite songs of all time.it use 2 b just a song 2 me which has a lovely n catchy tune.but few years ago this song became a reality to me.the lyrics of this song became my story,i really connected with the song.i sang it so my times that the lyrics was printed in my sub-consious.though that was in the past........now i'm cured of that sickness, whoah.....thank god i manage 2 move on.......damn the journey was hard but right now it started to pay me some divident.i c the world with different view........a change man.......a man with something to prove to my ownself.sick n tired of living with all past memories which only causes me pain........gonna seek new n lovelier memories than be4.

though sometimes when i'm alone a thought come 2 me.where do i gonna find a women that can say that vows......."through health n sickness,for richer or poor to death do us a part." n honour that vows until their death.right now it is hard to find a woman that can do that anymore.in the past it was very easy.for me most of the women right now when their love ones face with a problem which resulted in the women pain.......the women will leave tha poor man to dry.it just a mistake........that can b heal by love."anything happened i'll always by urside"is a dialogue that women love to said to man.but when things come to worse.......the man really needed her......she gives up.through thick n thin my ass!!!!!!!!!!!

can i ever trust a women?can i trusted her with my heart n soul? it's only can be answer by me when i face a woman that i gonna b falling in love in the future.because for now the things above is just a minor distraction 2 me in achiving my goal......my dreams.

the thing that made me write this because i just seen the movie CINDERELLA MAN it is a true story of the heavyweight champion JAMES J.BRADDOCK the bulldog of bergen.i really amaze how his wife was standing beside him through all the hard time,since she was married to him when he was a young prodigy fighter.in the "great depression" jim was out of his luck.......he has to beg to all the promoters for money to settle the electric bills fo the sake of keeping his family 2gether.for the rest of the story better u go n c the movie urself.for me if i ever manage to find a woman like mae braddock it would've make my life so complete.

for the women out there pls set mae braddock as ur example, she is a loyal wife,a good mother n most of all she always stand by her man.

as 4 myself right now i really like being single because i'm not stabile enough to sustain a relationship phsycally,mentally n financially.haven't found the right woman yet......hope in the future when i'm already achieve my goals n dreams.....i'll find a woman that will stand by me until death do us a part.

bad luck....huh!?

rite now i'm feeling very² down :(
the reasons:

@-------->my streamyx connection is very not stabile, it cause me setbcks in my job.
(damn lerrr tmnet!!!!)

@-------->my favorite club has been in a slump, REAL MADRID 3 defeats in 3 game.
(come on guys pls be d galacticos that u r!!!!)

@--------->approaching my 24th birthday but still at the same place as 5 years ago.
(argh!!!!!! not lookin 4ward 4 it.)

@--------->do not know what i wanna do 4 my birthday.
(got prob with my financial)

@--------->my life rite now is in gapping down movement.
(wait n c when it gonna achieve gapping up!!)

@--------->have a problem in faith.
(still working 2 b a good muslim)

TiRinG WeeKenD!!!!!!!!!!!!

my weekend started at friday nite n end on sunday nite.

1st------->on friday nite i stay up late n didn't sleep at all 2 study n do some homework
(hate it but must do it)

2nd------>on saturday morning when to perindu's field 2 play rugby 4 account's team.
(manage 2 get into quarter finals)

3rd------>that evenig just lepakin at my fren's house n watched how the springboks beat
wallabies

4th------>that nite around 7.45pm my fren n i started our journey 2 Port Dickson
(had a party to attend)

5th------>that saturday nite my fren n i party all nite long, from 9pm until 3am.
(what a party!!!!)

6th------>damn my fren n i were actually being fooled by the ads of that party.
(it's a rave party only but the ads says there's gonna b r&b 2)

7th------>so i didn't sleep again for 2 nites.after that when bck 2 my fren house laks.
(didn't get any sleep coz layan ngk astro laks.)

8th------>finally got myself 2 sleep around 8am on that sunday morning.
(wake up around 5pm in the evening.)

9th------>the party was full of beautiful n sexy gurls but also the other side of it.
(damn i saw an underaged malay slut!!!)

10th----->come 2 think of it, that's why we the malay are fast becoming like kafir
cz most of us prefer 2 go 2 a party than 2 the mosque.
(peringatan for myself lerr)
that's my very tiring weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ThE StAR SpANgLeD BaNnEr!!!!

Oh say can u see,
By the dawn's early light,
What so proud we hail'd,
At the twilight's last gleaming,
Whose broad stripes n bright stars,
Through the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched,
Were so gallantly streaming,
And the rockets' red glare,
The bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof to the night,
That our flag is still there,
Oh, say does that STAR SPANGLED BANNER yet wave,

O'er the land of the FREE!

And the home of the BRAVE!

many people surely offended by my blog this time.
although the US is currently the only super power in the world,
n like to wage a war on others,
but for me the US symbolize the everything humans, especially becoz US is the land of freedom n oppurturnity.
u see US gain their independence through a war with british while we malaysians using conference, after agreeing on british terms than we were grant an independence.while the ol' malay like mat kilau, abdul rahman limbong n the peraks royalty, for me are the true heroes of our independence be coz they sacrifies a lot espesially their blood for this country.not that person who goes to the conference with british.that's why i'm not patriotic any more coz i realize that those men who sacrifies their blood for this country were left behind compare to the one who just go talking wit the british.they fight the british at the time when the sultans themself were afraid to say it out loud.the sultans chicken out, while the people died for them.long live indenpendence my ass!!!!!!!!!!!!

nat king cole's SonG!!!

i've beens searching for the singer who sing this song for quite some time.i really like this song becz the lyric is simple but it manage to send the msg directly 2 us.

L-O-V-E

L is 4 the way u look at me,
O is 4 the only one i c,
V is very, very extraodinary,
E is even more than anyone that u adore can

love is all that i can give 2 u
love more than just a game 4 two
two in love can make it
take my heart n pls don't break it
love was made for me n u.
repeat verse1

repeat verse2
+ love was made for me n u,
love was made for me n u,
love was made for me n u.

unLUcKy WeEk!!!!!

it is the 2nd week of August, is not been a week for me.damn this week is so bad just wanna erase it frm my MIND!!!!

1st :( -----> i did badly at the MAS phsycomotor test, argh!!!!!!!!
2nd :(-----> i just know that the stupid MBSA had summon me for rm250 for parking tickets.
(i've already pay it damn!!! pokai aku di buat nyer)

3rd :(------> haze, is every where.why can't the indonesians just cut the trees.
(bodo lerr indon nih, nk save cost but negare aku yg kener suffer!)

4th :(-------> SAF(sukan antare Fakulti) has been postponed or cancel(i'm not sure which one)
due 2 the haze.(aku nk main rugby lerrrr!!!!)
5th :(--------> Can not c Charlie n d Chocolate factory cz seats a limited.(argh!!!!!! nk tgk johnny depp)

6th :(--------> being missin dat lovely gurl wit a smile dat melt my heart.(takot nk buat move daa!!!!)
7th :(---------> last week my team(ALL BLACKS) were beaten by springboks.(cisss bengang aku lerr)

hope nxt week will a better one lerr. damn i'm really tense rite now.can just blow up at any moment lerrr.
adios amigos!!!!!!!!!!

its been a long time.........

finally i manage to write something on this blog after a while. not that i didn't want 2 write but my life been so busy lerr.few things happens for the past month.

1st @>---> i lost my grandmama.she finally died peacefully.only regret i wasn't there 2
witness her last breath.
2nd @>---> TUN M make a fuss about ap which brings this country into quite a dispute.
4 me he 's just worried that proton has lost its edge againts imported cars.
PROTON is just damn foul!!!!!!!

3rd @>---> Real Madrid manage 2 sign 2 brasillian player.julio baptista n robinho.
it's gonna b one hell of a season.

4th @>---> already seen all the nu movies.War of d world,seven sword,F4 n stealth.
what enjoyment its been 4 me.

5th @>--->fall in love with an actress name jessica biel.
she has all d qualities that i want from a woman.
she's perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6th @>---> my rugby team the mighty all blacks win the lion tour 3-0.
long live the haka!!!!!

7th @>---> found a gurl that i kinda like but still afraid to make a move on her.
she's so lovely.........with a smile that can lit up the whole world.
a smile that melt my heart from the moment i met her.

8th @>---> manage to find a way 2 finally shut the people who said i got no future.
we gonna c who got the last laugh.

9th @>---> been requested for an interview with mas for pilot position.
i'll try my best.

what a great month for me.hope it is to you 2.

DoA CaRi JoDoH!!!!!!!

" Ya Tuhan, kalau dia memang jodohku,
jodohkanlah......
tapi kalau bukan jodohku,
jodohkanlah jugak....
jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku,
maka jadikanlah kami jodoh.....
kalau dia bukan jodohku,
jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain,selain aku....
kalau dia tidak bisa di jodohkan denganku,
jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain,
biarkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti,
diriku......
Dan saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh,
jodohkanlah kami kembali.....
kalau dia jodoh orang lain,
putuskanlah!
Jodohkanlah dengan ku.....
jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain,
biar orang itu ketemu jodoh dengan yang lain dulu dan,
kemudian jodohkan kembali dia dengan ku....
" AMIN....."

thanks mr imad for this doa. harharhar what a powerfull doa this is hehehehehehe :)
just wandering ader sesaper ker yg amalkan doa nih btul². hehehehehehehe

the haka!!!

Origin of the Haka
According to Maori ethos, Tama-nui-to-ra, the Sun God, had two wives, Hine-raumati, the Summer maid, and Hine takurua, the Winter maid. The child born to him and Hine-raumati was Tane-rore, who is credited with the origin of the dance. Tane-rore is the trembling of the air as seen on the hot days of summer, and represented by the quivering of the hands in the dance.
Haka is the generic name for all Maori dance. Today, haka is defined as that part of the Maori dance repertoire where the men are to the fore with the women lending vocal support in the rear. Most haka seen today are haka taparahi, haka without weapons.
More than any aspect of Maori culture, this complex dance is an expression of the passion, vigour and identity of the race. Haka is not merely a past time of the Maori but was also a custom of high social importance in the welcoming and entertainment of visitors. Tribal reputation rose and fell on their ability to perform the haka (Hamana Mahuika).
Haka reflected the concerns and issues of the time, of defiance and protest, of factual occurrences and events at any given time

Haka History
The centrality of the haka within All Black rugby tradition is not a recent development. Since the original "All Black" team of "New Zealand Natives" led by Joseph Warbrick the haka has been closely associated with New Zealand rugby. Its mystique has evolved along with the fierce determination, commitment and high level skill which has been the hallmark of New Zealand's National game.
The haka adds a unique component, derived from the indigenous Maori of New Zealand, and which aligns with the wider Polynesian cultures of the Pacific.
The All Blacks perform the haka with precision and intensity which underpin the All Black approach.



Leader KA MATE! KA MATE!
We're going to die! We're going to die!

Chorus KA ORA, KA ORA!
We're going to live! We're going to live

Leader KA MATE! KA MATE!
We're going to die! We're going to die!

Chorus KA ORA, KA ORA!
We're going to live! We're going to live!
TENEI TE TANGATA PU'RU-HURU
This is the man, so hairy
NA'A NEI TIKI MAI WHAKA-WHITI TE ...
who fetched, and made shine the .
.. RA! HUPANE! KA-UPANE!
sun! Upward step! Another ... !
A HUPANE! KA-UPANE!
An upward step! Another... !
WHITI TE RA!
The sun shines!
HI !

argh!!!!!!!!!

today was a very historic day in my life.rite now i'm damn angry at my little sweet bro.he did something so painful 2 watch.i really do not know how on earth he managed 2 get hold of my hp.suddenly i realize he was holding it beside the tempayan at my house.i just can said min² pls give me the hp bck but at the same time with a smile he drop it into the tempayan.no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's the only thing that i managed to do.jahanam hp aku lerr.argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! abis gaji starbucks aku buat beli hp agi, argh!!!!!!!!!!!! sgt tension.nk marah my little bro tak boleh coz dier ader big lisence in my house to do anything.ni kener pow parent aku for new hp since their anak kesayangan yg condemkan hp aku.argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just wanna ask hp nokia aper yg best but below rm650.k adios.

mY jOuRnEy2

after come bck frm kerteh i rileks for 1 nite.then the nxt saturday i went 2 batu pahat for my classmate wedding.hmmm mr jawe lerrr.i went with medan n moff.hehehehehe some how we stuck in a jam at seremban. damn!! the goverment should do something about that problem lerr.after that we arrived at batu pahat nearly 3.00pm.we wait at at the toll for biol to pick us n b our guide 2 go to jawe's house.this time around there's a lot of jasinians that attended the wedding.mostly frm my class ler.aina(anod),sare n sulastri(suleh),hezza,kucheng n aqil.it's fun to see them lerr.after lepaks at jawe's house for 2 hour we make our move bck to kl.we arrived around 8.00pm.after that i tido at moff's house, enjoy playing ps2 game's especially fifa street.then the nxt day moff,medan n i started our journey to the north cz we have to attend skeimc's wedding lerr.the we arrived at taiping around 1.00pm.after lepaks at the wedding for 2 hours, kite org pun chow lerr.the wedding were nice cz dpt mkn cendoi lerr.damn best siutt the cendoi,harharharhar.the jasinians yg attend selain dr kiteorg cume suleh,peya,aina n miji.
so in 4 days i've all over malaysia lerrr. waaaaaa byk penat lerrr.so terpakse lerrr aku meng mc kan diri aku keesokkan ari nyer.harharhar manager leh percaye yg aku kene sakit mate daaa.sedangkan just magic yg sebabkan mate aku merah,doktor kat klinik perubatan shah alam pun berjaya aku tipu.heheheheehehehe.

mY jOuRnEy

it started on thursday evening,the date was 2nd june 2005. i arrived at toll gombak around 6.45pm.so my journey to kerteh begins.i drive quite fast up to toll karak, since i quite familliar with the roads.then when i arrived at the new toll karak i was quite kuak coz i never drive in this new highways.from what i've read from news paper it is a fast but dangerous highway.at 1st i drive around 120km/h but i increase the pace up to 140km/h and maitain that speed until i arrived at kuantan toll around 9.00pm.so i took me only 2hour n 15 minutes 2 get to kuantan.i think i can get to kuantan less than 2 hour if only my car can go faster.hehehehe then i arrived at kerteh around 10.30pm.hehehehe 1st time drive on my own 2 pantai timur.what an adventure it was for me lerr.after meeting farid at his house, when 2 eat n play snooker.he had a chess game in the morning while i was surfin the internet n playing game at his house.using musafir as an excuse for not going 2 friday prayer, farid n i spent the afternoon playing games.after that i went to boye's wedding.after lepaking there with apek,ajis n bojan.i went back to farid's house.i started my journey bck to shah alam around 8.15pm n arrived safely at my house around 1.00am.

hehehehehehe 

yesterday was my little bro's 3rd birthday.this little fellow always argue with me when watching tv.the reason he want 2 c cartoons while i want 2 c anything else except cartoons.guess who wins? 

the ReVeNgE oF the SiTh!!!

last nite i went 2 c the final movie of the star wars saga, the final chapter of the saga, revenge of the sith.
what a ride it has been for me. i've being waiting for the saga to end since i was small.20 years of waiting.it was worth, why becoz finally i understand how n why anakin skywalker turned to the darkside.the way darth siddious aka chancellor palpatine manage to manipulate the situation n events so to make sure that anakin will be on the darkside of the force, was so breath taking.it was so eleborate that even master yoda one of the most powerful jedi ever can not see it coming.at the same time it also shows u that although ur intention is good but the way u do it must b also in the correct path to make it a right thing.anakin join the darkside n became darth vader for the sake of his most beloved wife senator padme amidala.the jedi have a lot of ability one of it is being able to forsee the future through dreams.anakin has been troubled by a dream of his wife death.his heart was so distracted by this vision that it clouded his jugment.he managed to be turn into the darkside by darth siddious, for the promise that he can cheat his wife death by using the darkside of the force.in this movie also, it shows how were the jedi being betrayed by the emperor n darth vader. the were a great massacere in the jedi temple.it left none of the jedi alived. few who manage to escape only two were known to us, it was master yoda n master obi-wan kenobi.day manage to save padme amidala just in time for to give birth to nxt generations of the skywalker clan.she died after the labour but manage to give name to her twins luke n leia.which plays an integral part in the down fall of the empire n also the sith.luke will become one of the most powerful n legendary jedi ever, he manage to rebuild the jedi academy.while leia will b a senator just like her mother was.
the was only few thing that i still feel inadequated, the whole saga didn't show how was powerful the skywalker clan was, wehy on earth they didn't shows quigon-gin again until nxt time adios amigos.